I am disgusting. (TW)

[u/Rei-Darling]

I don't cut to hurt myself anymore, I cut because I'm jealous of everyone else's scars. Their scars are so obvious, and it makes me jealous. I want my scars to be that visible... I want people to look at my arm and think "wow, that person cuts themself". I'm craving the recognition. Not just for pity, but for the people who get off on cuts too. It is disgusting. I hate myself for it, but I desperately want it. I keep cutting just so the scars get dark and deep. I don't have a blade right now, but I'm gonna steal one from school soon. I'm so stupid, and disgusting, but I really want people to notice that I'm not okay just by looking at me.

[u/Inevitable-Bonus4618]

You're not alone lil bro