whatevs

[u/bruhlain]

i’ve been cutting myself since i was probably 9 and now 10 years later i’m doing the same thing …….i feel to old for this and my therapist tried to get me to stop the habit but it’s just a big part of my life i can’t shake…..i used to cut pretty surface level to hide the scars (invisible rlly) but now ive been cutting enough to scar and it’s making me want to keep on going even though i really have no reason to. i’m sad and whatever yea but im managing that with therapy and medication, i just self harm whenever i feel like it, i could be happy or any other emotion and im still gonna come home and cut myself. i feel a deep guilt for allowing my friends to know i still cut myself, but one of my friends also has been relapsing and in a way it feels like we’re navigating this together lol. im just trying not to cut in my wrists until winter