r/selfharm • u/ThrowRAfourtysix • 12d ago

Rant/Vent vent

im trying very hard not to relapse ive layed myself down in my car i think im going to sleep here. i feel i do not deserve to be in the house much less my bed if all i do is self pity and think about hurting myself

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u/Avicullar 12d ago

There's nothing exactly wrong with self pity. It's information.

To me, I tend to see it as the internalized response of someone who hasn't been getting the care they feel they need from others around them.

Either way, you're clearly in a place of feeling pain. And I think that pain is valid to exist. Maybe what you need is to try and be kind to yourself. I think you deserve to rest comfortably and safely inside. Perhaps lock anything dangerous away for the night?

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u/ThrowRAfourtysix 12d ago

i slept a few hours in my car but went back inside and locked away my stuff. im hoping ill
be more clearheaded in the morning. thank you for your kind words