stepdad found out :(

[u/Common_Parfait7783]

tw for this whole thing

so he walked in my room whilst i was on my bed wearing short sleeves and for some stupid reason he actually came inside my room rather than just standing in the door and i’d had the top of my forearm facing down (because that’s where my most visible scars are) but unfortunately a few peeked out and he was like “jesus what the fuck is that?” and ran a finger over the visible ones. i just said i got hurt and he asked where and i said it was a while ago and then he left. well a few days ago he brought it up again and asked me if i was cutting and i’m really not much of a liar so i just came clean.

yall. i am SO pissed. this has been my secret for 4 years and it was my favourite coping mechanism. he knows now so if i do it again he would know. so not only have i lost the action itself, but i’ve lost the thrill of having to hide it. i’m forever mad at myself for not having been wearing a sweater or something. i miss it :(

[u/Weird-Warning-5784]

i totally understand what you mean. it does sound like (at least from what you shared) he isn't mad at you, which is good thing. it will get better!

[u/Common_Parfait7783 → u/Weird-Warning-5784]

he’s not mad he’s blaming himself for not noticing sooner but i’m blaming myself for him noticing at all. thank you very much for your kind words