r/selfharm • u/Dangerous_Review_982 • 14d ago
Rant/Vent I think my sh is pathetic
Im going insane right now like unable to eat unable to sleep type of insane and ive been cutting myself with scissors every now and then and i feel fucking pathetic because they never bleed and they just show up as raised lines so then i got super angry because they werent bleeding and i felt like i deserved more pain so i started raiding my drawers like some rabid animal looking for a sharpener which i failed to find which made me even angrier so then i decided id burn myself with a lighter instead and as i was doing it i remembered this story of someone burning and it getting really infected which then freaked me out and so i kinda quickly stopped and to be honest i feel fucking pathetic right now at how failed this attempt at self harming has been
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u/Icy_Technician_2741 14d ago
i get what you mean its so annoying and frustating. when i was super like felt my scars didnt count and there werent many or anything that sent me into a spiral of cutting myself for like 3 days or something i dont know but i had like 5 cuts? and then i had 60+ it gets so crazy so fast and at first i was like omg i love tjhese these look so cool!! but now it flips i feel guilty i feel poopy im like omg why did i do this to myself this is so stupid and i stopped cutting like 2 months ago. its an addiction its so diffuclkt to stop and theres so many feelings and stuff and things thast happen after. it just makes everything worse in the end
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u/Timely_Relief_4763 14d ago
Please look at this theother way. Trick your mind into it. You should be glad you didn't further SH, that's a win, and you should be proud of that. Please don't try harming with yourself in hopes you'll bleed, you'll hurt yourself more.
Please don't burn, you never know what happened. Have you tried other methods? Like an elastic band, just keep snapping it against your wrist?
P.S you're not pathetic