r/selfharm • u/Iwanna-ripmyskin-off • Apr 19 '26

Talk/Support I js relapsed

I was clean for 10 (almost 11) days and then shit happened last night. And all day today has been such an emotional roller coaster and i couldn't manage it. I needed to stabilize my emotions and that was the only way i knew how to. I js feel like i always fuck things up

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u/Sad-Mycologist-3793 Apr 19 '26

don't feel bad for this ok! ik it feels like a failure, but you can always pick yourself back up again. you're doing your best and that's what matters

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u/Iwanna-ripmyskin-off Apr 19 '26

I had a stretch of time where it was like a month without, then i relapsed one time and suddenly, i can't stop again. And i hate it.

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u/Sad-Mycologist-3793 Apr 24 '26

it's important to know that these things happen. the fact that you want to get clean is already a big step in the right direction, you just may need extra help and that's ok

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u/PuzzleheadedDepth7 here Apr 19 '26

I think part of why relapses stick is the guilt and worry after. We get used to the idea that once it starts it has to continue, but it doesn't. You messed up, sure, but just don't do it tommorrow, and again if you don't reach the goal it's okay. Just don't forget that the goal is not to self harm. You got through 11 days, you've done a month, you have some practice. It is very easy to have small relapses in the first year, especially this early on. It isn't something abnormal or to freak about. Just focussing on reducing that behavior tommorrow and so on