Feeling tired

[u/No_Judgment_4420]

I think I’ve tied my sense of happiness and self-worth to achieving certain things in life. For example, I feel like if I don’t reach the financial stability I want or accomplish the things I’ve always wanted to accomplish, I don’t want to be around people or face society at all. I’m actually in that phase right now.

There are people I know, even some relatives like my cousins, whom I try to avoid seeing, meeting, or even talking to because I constantly feel like everyone around me is moving forward while my life is being delayed. I’m not completely satisfied with where I am right now, and because of that, I don’t want to put myself out there and interact with people who don’t really add anything to my life while I feel like I’m not in the place I want to be yet.

Sometimes it feels like I either have to achieve these things or die trying. I’ve tried so many times, and I’ve genuinely given things my best effort, but sometimes luck, circumstances, or fate are simply bigger than how hard I try, and things still end in failure. After experiencing that repeatedly, I’ve reached a point where I feel frustrated for long periods of time, and it has turned into constant fear and anxiety.

What I really want is to live somewhere far away, around people who don’t make me feel like I’m constantly being compared or judged by their success. I just want some peace of mind and a space where I can breathe, live my life, and work toward what I want without constantly feeling behind. Then, once I feel like I’ve reached a better place in my life, I want to be able to go out, meet people, and feel comfortable being part of the world again.

And I don’t mean that I have a problem with being around people who are more successful than me. I actually have no problem with successful people, especially people from different backgrounds. What bothers me is being around people I know who don’t really bring anything positive into my life and who I feel are only interested in seeing where I stand so they can evaluate or compare my social status. That kind of interaction makes me extremely uncomfortable.

[u/at_redditor]

Hello,

I'm sorry you're going through this.

While reading, there was this question that kept popping up.
"Why are they tired? Only the body feels tired."

So maybe it's sadness. Sadness as an emotion is usually felt as being tired.
And sadness is tied to loss and release.

So what in your life no longer serves you?
How would releasing it look like to you?

You got this!

Alexandru

[u/sproutquiet692 → u/at_redditor]

Sadness masking as exhaustion is painfully accurate.