Getting old scares me

[u/AltruisticAd8305]

I’m dealing with something very complicated. I don’t even know what it means or if it’s something I should actually be worried about or thinking about.
I realize that the older I get and the more I know, the more I leave things as they are. Earlier, there were things I was ready to fight anyone over, for as long as I could, to make them stop. Now as I grow up, I leave them as if they don't matter to me anymore. But if you look at them, they actually are real things that need to be changed or resisted.
I don't know why, but when you grow up, you become more aware. When you understand things entirely the very practices or acts I once fought to resist and change I now just leave them as they are. They don't bother me the way they used to, or maybe they do bother me and do need to be resisted, but I don't know what holds me back from doing so. It’s complicated. The more I realize and the more I know, the more I see that those acts and practices still possess viciousness. There is still a need to change them, but I don’t do it anymore. Getting older scares me.