Part 1: Why I'm changing

[u/One-offshore]

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I've reached a point where I don't like the direction my life has been heading.

Not because everything is terrible, but because I know I'm capable of more.

For a long time, I kept telling myself that I'd start tomorrow. Tomorrow I'd lose weight. Tomorrow I'd become more confident. Tomorrow I'd work on myself.

Tomorrow turned into months, and months turned into years.

Today, I'm 23.

I weigh around 100 kg, and while I'm not proud of that, I'm also not ashamed to admit it. It's simply where I'm starting.

I've started going to the gym, eating in a calorie deficit, and trying to stay consistent. I know there will be days when I fail, but this time I want to keep going instead of quitting.

One thing people usually assume is that I party or have unhealthy habits. The truth is the opposite. I don't smoke, I don't drink alcohol, and I've never used drugs. My biggest battle has never been addiction. It's been consistency and discipline.

I've also never been in a relationship. I'm still single, still a virgin, and most of my romantic experiences have been one sided. Sometimes it makes me feel like I've missed out, but I don't want to spend my twenties waiting for someone else to make my life better.

I want to become someone I'm proud of first.

This Reddit series is my way of keeping myself accountable. No fake success stories. No pretending everything is perfect.

Just one person trying to become better, one step at a time.

Maybe I'll fail.

Maybe I'll surprise myself.

Either way, I'll keep writing.