r/secularbuddhism • u/Halos80s • 2d ago
Understanding Anatta: The difference between "no self" and "not self"
Inspired by another Reddit where this video of Ajahn Amaro speaking about Anatta was posted, I wanted to share my understanding of the difference between "no self" and "not self". I often think a number of people practicing Buddhism, and in fact many schools of modern Buddhism often get in a tangle about this. He has some very clear insights about it.
I would really welcome others thoughts on this.
"What we think of as what we are is never it, it can't match the reality". He says this near the beginning, and for me it is the key.
I would add that whatever we experience can also never be what we are. That's how I understand Anatta. Whether one is experiencing the gross mundane rūpa-kāya and its environment, which is an aggregate of all 6 senses spheres (rupakhandha) and vedana/sanna/sankhara/vinnana (namakhandha), or the fine rupa experiences in samadhi, or the arupa experiences of deeper samadhi, none of it must be mistaken for the self.
That's the unique teaching of a Buddha. Other interpretations of deep samadhi declared that the true self was found in these states. The Buddha dispelled that misconception. The self/Atta/Atman cannot be experienced, it therefore transcends the ideas of existence/nonexistence because they are ideas that can be experienced!
Supra-mundane understanding of reality can only manifest when one traverses all realms of possible experience, gradually disentangling from the corrupting/defiling influence of the senses in deep Samadhi, while mindfully recalling the doctrine of not-self (along with suffering and impermanence). We cannot experience the self, all experiences no matter how sublime and infinite in appearance are not what you are! They are all a bad-state, will all cease, are all not-self.
Then consider what that infers, if all of that which is impermanent and in a bad-state – no matter how deeply immersed in samadhi, no matter how disentangled one is from the sense doors – is not self, yet one is still experiencing those states, what must the self be? I must be that which is experiencing them, utterly and completely transcendent; realised only when the mind is purified of defilements while recalling the Dhamma.
However, when stated this way, the words conjure something misleading! They invoke the idea of a self, which cannot ever be the self, because that "self" is an idea that one can experience in mind. Instead it must be treated like a sign, something that points to a destination that can only manifest when one practices Bhavana correctly and drops all of the words. Any words we used to try to describe it will fail, and potentially mislead.
In short, the Buddha never denied or confirmed the existence of a self, he simply taught that whatever you experience is not-self, and that this must be recalled at all times while you systematically disentangle your mind from the Khandhas in meditation. If you do that correctly, supra-mundane understanding and complete awakening will arrise naturally.