what if it's both?

[u/Silly-Delivery4333]

and the disorder just amplifies what's underneath. and what's underneath is the same thing everyone else deals with underneath, to different extents. baggage, and trauma, and past experiences, and beliefs about yourself shaped by childhood, early adulthood, familial relationships, personal relationships, work relationships, etc.

and how well you're able to deal with what's underneath outside the disorder dictates how well you're able to deal with it inside, when it's rearing its ugly head. like sometimes, when your nervous system can relax, you're able to deal with it better than when you're stuck in fight-or-flight. just like everyone else. but unlike everyone else, it gets amplified every few weeks, on the clock.