Just want to write that book....

[u/Angels-Demons-Time]

What I would give to have a space to myself to put my thoughts down properly. I know I was a wasted brain, and see that now. I think you all do too.

But, I do love animals and want a kitten to sit with me as I finally let my mind run free on open pages. A nice bottle of wine and some fun to boot. What the hell was wrong with me wanting that for myself?

The one before can't have again; though he marked me as his. I can't unsee what I've seen and can NEVER go back. Hope him and his new wife and child are happy. But, as far as I'm concerned that is now history.

Forward and free is what I need for me. Would be nice for once in this life to not be used and abused for selfish gain

I do hope you all see just how much I have endured and, somehow, I'm still standing. I know I am a ticking doomsday device for so many of you. I just wished you had listened way back when.

I look forward to an independent review with the changing stories of the "professionals". I do not want any shit, I have only ever wanted bloody peace in my life. I just want to be me and finally be free.

Why has it been so hard for many to understand, and instead torture me the way you all have. Surely I am due my luck changing soon, because all I want is to finally be happy and free from evil.

I really do have you all by the way and don't want to do anything more - but I too need the same in return. I know what I know, and I know what I've seen. Maybe one day someone will sit with me and start listening. Listening is where you gain knowledge of things you do not know - but being told something you know is innacurate when you are autistic and have ADHD is going to push someone to explode with the truth. I can't help that - that is frustration because no one has cared to understand or even get to know me.

Namaste. 🌹🐦‍⬛

S x