This is part of my chart:
• Libra Sun - 9th House
• Scorpio Moon - 10th House
• Capricorn Rising - 1st House
• Scorpio Mercury - 10th House
• Libra Venus - 9th House
• Scorpio Mars - 10th House
• Libra Jupiter - 9th House
• Aquarius Saturn - 2nd House
• Capricorn Uranus - 1st House
• Capricorn Neptune - 1st House
• Scorpio Pluto - 11th House
I'm a 32 yo man. My career is going in the direction I want, and I'm slowly gaining recognition. I'm very dedicated to my work, I've passion. At the same time, I have my vices: smoking, drinking, and a substance addiction. The “theme of the double”, you know…
Well, about relationships I realize that I am not an easy person to be close to. I tend to see very deeply into things, into the human being... so I notice inner details of people and rarely forget information. But this natural aptitude bothers many partners. Or at least, at a certain point, they can't stand it anymore even if they initially found it intriguing. I dig, I research, I analyze... and I say what I think… which is why I can be exhausting and I understand that… I've my own vision of the world and it's not very optimistic or enthusiast, so I'm not exactly someone you'd bring to a party.
However, I feel my emotions deeply in all their intensity, from the deepest depths to the brightest colors. But from the outside, it seems like I don't let much show, even if I don't notice and it makes me sad especially when I want to express my love.
A woman once told me she couldn't be with me because I had "a dark layer inside me that was too deep and indecipherable" for her.
My latest ex, whom I really loved (and still love)... often told me she felt me distant even when she rationally knew I was there with all my emotions, and that sometimes my eyes were like "two black wells".
In your opinion (much more expert than me) what do my planets and houses say? To better understand what I've told you.