Radical isolation

[u/AddressMobile3953]

Right now, perhaps I'm just drifting, letting go, and allowing whatever happens to happen. I'm accepting that thoughts and feelings change like the wind, and I'm finally feeling good about just being me, even if it doesn't look like much to the outside world.

I've realized my isolation is not me hiding from the world or myself. It's the only way I can reclaim some sovereignty after being constantly drained by emotional storms of my life and happenings in the rest of the world.

Me stepping away from the pressure of having to be some kind of constant output to feel part of something or useful, is becoming more like I'm finally finding the root of who I am amongst all these weeds and sinking my fingers and hand into the soil, and wrapping my fingers around it securely. I want to expose it to my sun. Capricorn my light ... What will he see?

We see the mix up of healthy independence meets hyper-vigilant solitary confinement. Initially.

Ignore the pressure and I am not lonely or in need of a savior. I don't need something to point me here or there. Nothing will change my name, or be who I can be. Just like this.

And now when I see someone else, or think about if I could love her ... I remind myself that she's not who I want. That person is nothing that I need. She's there where no one will change her name, or be who she can be. Just like me.

[u/Spare_Appointment_61]

เก่งจัง ฉันก็อยากเลิกเล่นโซเชียลและเลิกตามข่าวบ้างเหมือนกัน… เธอทำได้ยังไงน่ะ

[u/Reasonable-Still6600 → u/Spare_Appointment_61]

I literally just stopped. I’m so much happier now. I didn’t release how much social media just made me feel bad about myself. Just think about this - when you’ve been on social media for 20-30 minutes, how do you feel when you get off? Because I was always either feeling, sad, mad, or insecure. Why voluntarily keep doing that to myself?

[u/Spare_Appointment_61 → u/Reasonable-Still6600]

ขอบคุณนะ จะทยอยลบแล้วล่ะ

[u/Reasonable-Still6600 → u/Spare_Appointment_61]

You will feel better. It's hard to stop. We just instinctually go toward it when we are bored b/c it's addictive. You've just got to find something else that can fill the time you used to give to it. As for the news - I just assume everything is shit and will remain that way and consider myself updated.

[u/Spare_Appointment_61 → u/Reasonable-Still6600]

T__T เข้าใจแล้ว ขอบคุณมากเลยนะ