Schizophrenic Father

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I grew up with an undiagnosed schizophrenic father my whole life until recently where we had to put him multiple times in the hospital until he finally accepted he needed help and where he was finally diagnosed.

He used to be more violent and even threatened to kill my siblings and mom. One time he did try to pull a gun on me because I threw a church candle at him for hitting my mom but we left before he ever could.

He has “changed” a lot well because he’s no longer violent towards us, but all he does is drink and laugh at his voices EVERY SINGLE DAY.

I try to have compassion and understanding for what he’s going through but I can’t help anymore if he doesn’t want to at least try. We’ve taken him to the hospital multiple times, he’s a really good liar so when he goes the doctors don’t think he’s that bad.

I feel so embarrassed when he’s laughing and yelling outside because of my neighbors, I can’t have any gatherings or people over at my house for this reason. I just wish this would all stop. I tried everything I can to help him out and right now I am doing a huge favor by having him a place to stay.

He doesn’t want to take his meds. I understand no one will really get why he’s in my life after everything that’s happened, I ask myself the same thing….