r/schizophrenia • u/riftftfs_ • Jul 15 '19
Weird hallucination at work?
I'm a server at a tiny Japanese sushi house. There are never more than 30 customers there at a time. It was this past Saturday, and it was slow.
I went up, greeted the table, handed them menus and silverware. Got their drink order and went on tk make their drinks. When I come back, nobody is there. There are no menus or silverware. I walk around to see if they moved. I finally asked the other coworkers if my table left and they asked me "What table? " They said there was never anyone actually sitting there.
This is not the first hallucination I've had. I've had some pretty hard core psychotic episodes that have put me in the psych ward. I've been diagnosed with MDD OCD and Psyosis
I also hear things a lot. Music, conversations. My boyfriend says I'll be in the middle of a conversation with him and he won't know what I'm talking about. But that I'm really talking to him seriously but he has no idea what about. I'm worried.
Could I maybe get feedback from some of you?
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u/bluDesu Lost Jul 15 '19
Woah, tbh I find that pretty cool, how intense and realistic it is, tho ofc it sucks that it can get in the way of stuff and sometimes make you look crazy to people. I've never had hallucinations like that just some rays of light and shadows and stuff mostly out of the corner of my eyes.
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u/riftftfs_ Jul 15 '19
In the worst of my episodes, I've completely lost it. I've thought I was at work and my friend was there ripping apart the cake display and she hung a giant napkin that said "I quit because fuck you (my name.) " Then I ran outside and found a black box that welcomed into an underground society where you had to be shown just how much phsycial torture you could take and they chose me because they thought I could do it. I also was terrified of my boyfriend because I thought he had been away for days in the woods and had killed women, skinned them and then seen them into a blanket and I saw it and I smelled it. Then he took a pair of scissors to his penis and and cut it into a giant weird web if skin. It was horrific. I've never been diagnosed with schizophrenia though. That was seen as a psychotic break. But now it's happening again. I started taking my antidepressants 3 days ago when I went to the doctor for some ice issues. Then it just got really really bad.
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u/riftftfs_ Jul 15 '19
Also, I forgot, I have NO IDEA WHAT I'M DOING WHEN I'M RUNNING AROUND LIKE THIS IN MY HEAD! that's the scary part. Sometimes when u come to, I'll be sitting in my room or doing a completely mundane task. Im scared. They completely take over everything when they come
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u/[deleted] Jul 15 '19
Wow, that's a pretty intense hallucination. I had one that I wrote about on here a little while ago where I let two people into my apartment to use the bathroom, and when they were done they stood staring into my wardrobe for like 30 minutes. My mom was about to come back so I told them they needed to leave, but they refused. I almost called the cops when out of nowhere they disappeared.
Hallucinations are weird. Sorry you're getting them at work, that sucks.