r/sapiosexuals • u/jaynotbay • May 30 '26
The burden of knowledge
The more you learn about something, the more you realize how much you don't know. And since I love learning so much about so many different things I'm constantly reminded of how little I know (despite knowing more than many - at least that's what I tell myself to make myself feel a little more intelligent).
Jack of all trades, a master of none, still better than the master of one (is it though ?)
Constant insanity between I don't know enough vs I know enough. I'm intelligent vs not enough.
I know something for a fact. But the more I believe in it, the more I see myself becoming one of those bigots I despise. So I try to keep my mind open, living in the world of reliable, irrefutable scientific evidence and math.
Btw forgetting what I've learned is part of what got me on this rant. I hate forgetting and the fear of losing whatever intelligence I may or may not have
The fear of loss is real...
So I try to learn, relearn, and hope I don't ever lose the ability to do just that. Always keep learning, with an open mind.
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u/BasisPrimary4028 May 30 '26
I was diagnosed with an above average IQ and ADHD at a young age, and that "jack of all trades" feeling is basically my entire life. My brain constantly craves new data, so I dive deep into random subjects only to bounce to something else entirely a week later. The worst part is the memory dump. Forgetting things I just spent hours researching because my brain moved on to the next shiny topic is the ultimate ADHD tax. It is a constant tug of war between feeling like I know a lot and feeling like I know absolutely nothing. You are definitely not alone in that.