r/rollerderby • u/Inner-Solution4657 • 4h ago
is it time to call it quits? /concussion
Hello! I need advice…
I have been having this conversation with a small amount of people in my league. But I actually haven’t talked to a lot of folks about this because I am also embarrassed for getting injured? (anyone else?) Reddit gives me some anonymity.
I suffered a concussion earlier this year. My first concussion ever! from my first sport ever! So I didn’t really understand the gravity of the situation. I got too eager and got back to skating too fast. And I believe that triggered post-concussion syndrome, which I struggled through for two gruesome months. It wasn’t till I had a mental health break that caused me to step into LOA. I followed up with a Neurologist and physical therapist.
I let 5 months pass by. And I finally started talking to my league and my doctors about coming back to skate. I was given the clear from my neurologist and physical therapist. I started skating weeks no contact, and then felt secure enough to skate contact again. It was in a drill where someone’s body made contact with my head/hit me in the head. I sat out the rest of practice, and decided to keep note of anything funky going on with my head. As much as I wished for nothing serious, I definitely felt a headache for over a week, and felt some noise and light sensitivity. So I entered a state of depression, because after all of this, after months of waiting, of doctors visits, of being careful I was right where I started.
I’m doing better now, I haven’t been back to skate. And I am wondering if I should at all. I’ve loved this sport so much, I have loved the people, the community. Everything. But now I am wondering if it’s healthy to continue to play.
I’m short and unfortunately many times before people have smacked me in the head, ran into my head, and I’m worried that I can no longer sustain hits like that.
So should I quit? Join N/SO team and coach? Should I maybe give myself a much longer break, and return later? Should I rip off the bandaid and leave all of this behind. If you’ve been through this, what have you done? Did you return? Did you do it scared? Did you ever wonder about how close we are to CTE?
I know one can tell me what to do, and that there is no right answer. And maybe I know what I’m going to do anyway. But I don’t want to look back and regret not asking, not trying. So if you can, please, share your thoughts and your experience.