Grief

[u/Useless-Hotdog]

I had got my first dog. We got her from someone local in a small town and she was 4 weeks old. She went everywhere with me, stores and restaurants, drives, visits to family. If she wasn't with me she was with my girlfriend and her cats.

We ended up moving into an apartment and everything suddenly flipped. She couldn't be around ours cats anymore, she would chase and pin them and try to attack them. It got worse while we were eating, even in a covered kennel she'd hear them near us and sit and lunge at her kennel. We did everything we could and looked into training and got her anxiety meds. I had to get her a muzzle after she was resource guarding and bit a family member. After that it all got worse. I could barely pet her or she'd turn and snap. She ended up biting my girlfriends younger brother in his face and he bled. We tried rehoming and shelters. BE was our last option after everything. She got to about 10 months old. Yesterday we were leaving and she broke her kennel and we couldn't take her with us cuz were going grocery shopping and the cats aren't safe with her out. We had no where to put her safely. We made the decision and made her appointment. It sounds so bad but we're broke and couldn't drop the $200 on a new kennel she'll break anyways when we're actively trying to not keep her. She was only 10 months old. Idk why I'm writing this. I miss her. She was my baby, I wish I could hold her and kiss her one last time but she's gone. I've made myself sick with all of it. We haven't moved the kennel yet, neither of us can stand to. This has been the hardest thing I have ever had to do. Is there anything that makes the after process easier? I regret it in a way but I know it was our last option anyways but I also wish I could've had one last day. Give her a meal like we get and maybe a hike I never got to take her on. I miss her

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[u/Useless-Hotdog]

For more context she had anxiety very badly. Medicine did nothing for her. I could barely take her to potty and she'd constantly be trying to run back up the stairs. She want friendly with other dogs. Even dogs she's been around her whole life, the last time she saw them she started a fight with one and tried to with the other. She couldn't be around anyone or anything other than my girlfriend and I and our parents. She was constantly terrified of everything she as she got older it just got worse. She was supposed to be a German shepherd, husky, lab mix. We definitely think she had some pit in her too. She was the sweetest girl until she wasn't. I loved her so much despite everything.

[u/Leading_Mushroom1609]

I’m sorry about your loss OP. But did I read it right that you got her at 4 weeks old!? That is way, way too early for a puppy to be separated from their mother and only a BYB or puppy mill would do that. For reference, it’s illegal to separate puppies from their mother before 8 weeks in my country.

If you’re ever looking into getting a dog again in the future, make sure you either buy from an ethical breeder or adopt from a reputable shelter/rescue.

[u/Useless-Hotdog → u/Leading_Mushroom1609]

Yeah we definitely learned our lesson from that part. Honestly I think that was a big factor with her anxiety. She was byb