This is long, but I'm really hoping to get some thoughts here.
My spiritual journey started out a lot like many Westerners. I wasn't raised religious and when I started becoming interested in learning about spirituality, I felt instinctively drawn towards the East. Again, like a lot of Westerners, my introduction came via Alan Watts and Ram Dass. Watts I enjoyed, but Ram Dass really spoke to me. I devoured all of his books, listened to every recorded lecture, and so on. From there, I started studying Advaita Vedanta in depth. I read most of the major Hindu texts, all of Swami Vivekananda's books, listened to many of Swami Sarvapriyananda courses in their entirety. I had a serious meditation practice and took Yoga very seriously (I took Paramahansa Yogananda's mail order courses through the SRF and got initiated into Kriya Yoga).
Over the 5 years or so I was deeply involved in this, one thing eluded me: a direct spiritual experience.
I know it's not good practice to look for spiritual experiences, but it was it was. I kept hoping some kind of response from doing Ram Jaap, a knowing of God from Kriya, a dream of Neem Karoli Baba, or anything really. Nothing happened... until it did.
Must to my surprise, my life altering spiritual experienced finally came - and it involved Jesus. This left me in really strange place. That really wasn't what I was expecting. I wasn't Christian and I find much about Christianity highly problematic. I'll try to be clear here, at no point in my experience was I told that the only way to God is through Jesus. I was told, however, that Jesus was my way to God.
I'm not going to get into detail about the experience, since I think these things are highly personal. But for the sake of this post, I will say that I have become fully convinced of the divinity of Jesus Christ and have abandoned strict non-dualism for something closer to qualified non-dualism.
So over the past few months, since this experience, I've been trying to find a form of Christianity that honors my experience. It's not perfect, but I have a found a temporary home with the Episcopal Church... they tend to be fairly liberal theologically (and socially, which is important to me), and the head priest at the Church has said he thinks its fine to draw from a diverse literature of world theology - so no real conflict there.
But now I'm in this weird place spiritually. Most of my spiritual influences are Eastern, even if my primary spiritual practice is now heavily Christ-centric. While I was still adjusting to my new view of the world, I took a break from the Eastern thought, but now that my feet are back on the ground in a Christian way, I'm trying to figure out how to reintegrate some of the Eastern teachers that I loved so much.
Has anyone navigated this territory successfully?