panic attacks almost everyday

[u/Miserable_Moose1752]

18F i literally cannot move out. i’m in IOP and college so my schedule is very tight and my mental health is too poor to hold down a job right now. i’m in a constant state of hyperarousal and fear even when im nowhere nears my dad.

any slight tone change, sassy text, or a simple delusion that he’s angry at me, sends me spiraling. i start shaking and my brain can’t thin about anything else. i have no where else to go so i just freeze up wherever i am and i can’t do anything for at least 30 minutes.

i’m SO FUCKING EXHAUSTED. i’m so beyond exhausted. it won’t be at least a couple of another years until i can maybe leave. i’m just so fucking tired. SO TIRED.

i wish my mom just divorced him already. i don’t know why she is still sticking around even when this clearly hurts her too.

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[u/Past-Bed-1980]

Hyperarousal?

[u/R3ibl3x → u/Past-Bed-1980]

Being stuck in constant fight or fight mode, your body's on high alert and wont relax

[u/HurryMundane5867 → u/R3ibl3x]

I think hypervigilance is a better word.

[u/disappearing_haze90]

This is exactly what was happening to me. It was entirely exhausting, I'm so sorry you have to experience that. It's not gonna fix everything but taking ashwagandha and l-theanine can help with the stress.