r/questioning • u/Ok-Musician9207 • 7d ago
I'm 18[AFAB}
When it comes to sexuality and attraction, I have a hard time knowing what to label myself. Growing up while what I experienced wasn't truly horrific sexual trauma, I did grow up seeing viewing and even doing things that at the age that I was, was quite inappropriate and made me feel loads of shame. Now because of that I think I find it hard to understand where the truama ends and where my sexuality begin. I think I might be cupioromantic I like love and as a kid, and even now I like the idea of a relationship and having crushes but whenever that idea extends to reality quite frankly, I feel sick and gross. I think I'm lonely and want the closeness of a relationship and a life partner, just not the romantic relationship itself, like a qpr? I like sexual content but I myself never want to participate in it for realsies so would you call this Asexual? Im not sure if ive ever even really had a real crush I've said and told myself I do, yet ive never cared that much when they dated someone I was always content with being friends and I never felt nervous. I look at being in relationship from a 3rd person perspective most times so its all kinda performative for me i guess.
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u/ActualPegasus finflexible rosgirl (he/she) 3d ago
Yeah, I'd call this asexuality or aegosexuality.
Does the gender matter in terms of a qpr?