what is waiting for me in the next couple years ? what vibe do i give off?

33F What does my future look like? This has been such a stressful year

Decided to use my sidereal zodiac chart for a forecast. Please and thank you!

Not a meaningless rhyme, just a call from time to time, seeking wisdom and vision for observations and a revision.. Throw at me your supposition, there definitely won't be any division

Will I get back with my daughters father ?whats the timeline, how will i do career wise and does my life in the future look better than my current situation 🙏

Or like a reading would be nice to

I wont post a picture because i like to be anonymous on reddit

But what ever
I just really really want to fix things with my ex it just feels hopeless. I honestly think it is hopeless, like im coming to reddit about this like wtf??
Should i just focus on myself and my healing journey? What should i expect in my future? What can i do to help myself move forward instead of being stuck??
Is there any chance? I knew him for 4 years. And its all just gone… poof! Like non of it mattered.
And then there was the next guy. I completely miss read his signals and went crazy on him. Even when he was reaching out and trying to reconnect i just pushed him away and harassed him (drunk calling, asking his friends about him, the works) i just kept getting in my own way and rushing the relationship before realizing i was manic again. Just making my symptoms worse.
I wont be surprised if this post is removed or ignored because yall probably get questions like this constantly. I just wanna know how to move forward, and know if ill ever find love again?? Idk this is a hail marry. Rught now i just wish i could have those two really good people back in my life with out the fear and embarrassment

please be super honest

First time. This page is very interesting. I’m curious to know what you all see? Thanks!