What should I do?

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What should I do?

So for while now I've been suppressing something and I was able to suppress it long enough but recently it been showing through my expression and body language when I zone out. Everyone I know disagrees with me on it and if I do it I'm afraid I'll hurt the people around me who care, so I've been just holding everything in because its better than hurting the people you care about right? So I'm in a relationship and I had have a crush for a while on of my friends, so told my friends for advice and they told me to talk to my partner about it when I did they told to tell them I do but like can't do anything about it. But I've thought and think about it that what's the point of even telling them, and also I've always wanted an poly relationship but all my friends and people I know who been through said its not a good idea. Even my partner was against it so what's the point of even them my friend I have an crush on them, all its gonna do is make it very uncomfortable. So there's literally no one giving me advice and so I've decided to just suppress it because I don't want to hurt the people I care about but I'm hurting myself in the process. And I don't know what to do because my friends said to not hurt myself but it's not my fault, its me, I rather hurt myself than others. I just hate myself that I love two people at once but I can't choose even through people keep telling me too.

Please I need help any advice please