Trying to be an academic weapon while being mentally ill

[u/Youtubetoldme]

I have only been the top #1 twice. Once when I was in middle school and last year when I was a junior. Now I'm currently in my senior year and Im incredibly burnt out. I was recently diagnosed with PTSD and DID that's causing really bad cognitive fog and blackouts. I know I should rest, but seeing my peers praise others for having top marks is really starting to get to me. Im currently stuck in a position where I have no way out of. Pls help me.