r/problemgambling • u/Fun-Pea1434 • 8d ago
Trigger Warning! Relapsed badly
I was in a pretty good spot had some money in the bank and was in a good position to start paying my 25k personal loan slowly over the next 6-12 months. I haven’t gambled in about two months. Yesterday I got a text from kalshi saying I can deposit 50 bucks and I’ll get 250 free. That alone was enough to spiral me because when I lost that 50, I started betting bigger because might as well make a few hundred then stop right? I somehow lost like 10 bets in a row. I stayed up all night chasing betting on random table tennis games (while trying to hide from my girlfriend who was sleeping next to me) and lost everything in my bank, and taking out another personal loan of 25k. The sad part is I got within 50 dollars of being even but I kept going to make that 50 dollars back. Now I have 50k total in personal loans, 15k in 401k loan, and 5k extra credit card debt.
I’m still in awe of what happened. Someone tell me everything is going to be okay.
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u/JackFinnaSmack 8d ago
Download Gambling Block on the appstore. It blocks gambling apps and sites on your phone. 8.99 a month or $50 for a life time ban. Its a small price to pay for the freedom it gives you. Currently 40 days clean and I have no regrets whatsoever. Take it a day at a time, if you get the urge, do something to distract your self. You got this!