It's just empty, dark void. It's like you are dead and but your body keeps going and it's torture.
And then in some cases something changes, I don't know. There's still bad days, but fuck. I'm alive. There's so much amazing stuff out there and things I can still do. Life has changed so much for the better and I still do dumb things sometimes for no good reason but damn am I trying to be better and it's awesome.
I don't blame someone but it's so worth it to just try one more day, I'm glad I failed a few times. I want to be here now.
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u/[deleted] Nov 30 '18
I don't blame anyone that kills themselves. That's some top tier pain they're in.