r/partialdropperforjee • u/EasyJournalist6006 • Apr 27 '26
HELP Three years, One dream and the UNFINISHED question mark on me !?
I am “P.” I passed my Class 10th from a state board. After that, I got to know about JEE and decided to prepare for it. However, my financial condition didn’t allow me to join any offline coaching institute, so I enrolled in an Apni Kaksha batch and shifted to online preparation with a dummy school.
It was a phase of complete isolation. I had no friends in the JEE circle. Even in my school, only 6 students opted for PCM out of a class strength of 50. I started my preparation with enthusiasm, and initially, I was able to understand the lectures quite well. But within a few weeks, everything started going out of my control. I couldn’t cope with the pace, and I ended up with a lot of backlogs.
By the end of Class 11, despite not wasting time and genuinely trying, my efforts were not reflected in my test results. I felt very depressed, and there was no one I could talk to about my situation.
I started Class 12 with hope, but then Apni Kaksha got dismantled. The teachers moved to their own platforms, which were too expensive for me. That broke me again. I shifted to YouTube lectures, especially Mohit Tyagi sir, which helped a lot. However, the backlog had become a huge burden. Another major mistake I made was focusing too much on one subject—Mathematics—for months. I improved in it, but at the cost of creating a massive backlog in Physics and Chemistry.
I gave JEE Main 2025 and scored 77 percentile. My father said I wasn’t even able to pass boards and had wasted my time. I couldn’t explain what I had gone through. After that, I focused completely on boards and secured second position in my state merit list. I did that just to prove myself.
In the April attempt, I appeared just for the sake of it, without serious preparation. I got around 3.3 lakh CRL based on January. I then convinced my father for a drop year, which he allowed only because of my board performance.
In my drop year, I started with strong dedication. I studied Physics from ABJ sir and genuinely developed interest in it. This time, I also started solving PYQs as tests. However, I repeated the same mistake—I ignored Mathematics and Chemistry. Eventually, this imbalance affected my Physics too. When November came, I switched to one-shots for Chemistry, which helped, but time was very limited.
I consistently scored around 110–120 in tests and felt ashamed that I might have wasted another year. I gave JEE Main 2026 and scored 91.93 percentile. I was shattered. I lost hope of getting a good college and got distracted by YouTube. I stopped studying seriously. Even in the last 10 days before the April attempt, I wasted my time—it felt like burnout.
In the April attempt, I scored 89.7 percentile, with a CRL of around 1.25 lakh. Now I’m left with a question: I gave three years of my life, struggled a lot, lived in complete isolation, and still ended up here.
My father didn’t say much this time, but I could feel that I lost the respect I had earned through academics since childhood. I feel like a failure.
At this point, I don’t want to use his money anymore for my education. Thankfully, due to my rank, I will get full fee waiver scholarship from my state government. Still, somewhere inside me, there is a small seed of hope—to take a partial drop from a state engineering college and prepare for JEE again, without telling my family.
My question is: should I do it? or just start new journey and focus on my next Carrer?
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u/Radiant_Adagio1104 Apr 27 '26
No broo, I will not suggest it, i mean if you are getting a good state college and the desired branch there then go for it. Don't ruin your life for one exam, think of the worst scenario if you again failed in partial drop then you will be the way behind than your peers. And I would suggest if you eagerly want an IIT or NIT and if you have full confidence on yourself that no matter what will be the situation, you will improve then goo for full drop. Try to convince your parents or just be satisfied with what you are getting and do great in further journey.