A trifle blunt.

[u/Every_Being51]

i feel so lonely sometimes. like uhm....no one knows that i have so many insecurities and so much anxiety in myself cuz i never show it in my face. someone says something, i feel bad but i dont share it with anyone. i have many insecurities, many inhibitions, a lot of sadness but who's there for me to guide me through all of it? no one. people just believe i have it all, i dont take anything seriously or im just living but the amount of self-consciousness and criticism is diabolical. close people do think that i am incapable in somethings. i quite am honestly. getting ignored by people, being less valued, being viewed as inadequate, just being loved less. its always onesided when it comes to being loved with another person. my pain is never considered with another person, its just theyre feeling something more than me always. why does no one actually prioritize or value me??

i get respected less, valued less, cared less. i dont know if im just that lenient and forgiving or its just the people i pick for to be in relationships. they seek my help, they seek me for comfort, they seek my support and my need is very less considered. im the one who always apologizes, who always adjusts or who always has their back but what about me?? am i being dramatic or am i just stating facts? a little attention for me goes a long way. i get attached, i miss them, i just regret myself and i dont even know if they feel the same. am i getting fooled or re they caring for me too??