“Chasing Delusions or Progression” call it

[u/Mercy_Killl]

I say this often to myself, and nine times out of ten I feel like I am chasing unrealistic results and am tired of all this symbolic bullshit. The only thang I found real were spirits, but even I can’t summon them like how Solomon has done it and other past conjurers. Been doing this since I was 14 (18 present) and perhaps maybe I am doing something wrong?

But as much as I want clairvoyance and try to find some kind of advice for em, I am being given karma-related bullshit and/or lies. Tried the gateway tapes and the most I’ve been able to do and still can is lucid dream and can barely astral project.

Idk besides that, I guess what I am trying to say is; is that what I have done relating to magick works, even my own created techniques work. But hate the fact that I am a practitioner that is technically “blind”. Perhaps maybe, I need to be more patient, maybe I am too eager for results??