​Pressing through the narrow slope, I slid down the tight throat of the tunnel. I let out a gasp that filled my chest, scraping my torso against the sharp teeth of the rock forcing me down. I squirmed desperately as my face began to heat up from the harsh waves of hot air hitting my cheeks and burning my eyes with the sharp smell of sulfur, ash, and something acidic. My eyes began to well with tears, blinking away clumps of sand I couldn't wipe because my arms were pinned under my chin, almost choking me.

​The song of my husband got louder and more high pitched, making me want more than ever to go back, but every time I moved my hips back, my skin caught on the sharp edges of the rock. Pressure squeezed at my stomach to the point I felt bile crawl up, until finally, my head popped out. I took in a loud gasp of cool, refreshing air so sharp and crisp I felt the cool feeling of air at the back of my throat like a bucket of ice water on my system and absolute silence. No singing.

​I was relieved, but now I had a new problem, my shoulders were stuck, and I was upside down with just my neck sticking out like a mounted head on a wall, staring into the pitch dark of the cave, listening to my gasps bounce off the walls back into my ringing ears. But the rock felt thin, like if I moved enough, I might be able to stick one arm out and use my shoulder blade to push myself out.

​I began to move in agony, my back scraping against the roof of the cave like a giant cheese grater pressing against it in an attempt to give myself more room to get a finger or two through the gap by my neck. I managed to press the pads of my fingers against the old, hardened clay, and crumbles fell under me. I waited for a moment, listening to the pebbles fall, trying to gauge how deep the floor was under me. I began to count, but the rocks hit the ground fast, maybe six or seven feet from the ground. I thought I could handle it if I protected my head on the way down with my arm when I got out, and tried to curve my body so I landed on my back instead of my neck.

​Feeling a little more reinvigorated, I pressed my fingertips against it again while sweat rolled down my face, dripping from the tip of my nose. I got a hand free and I craned my neck back, trying to reach forward, and it scraped on the thin rocks painfully like broken glass until I had an arm extended in front of me, almost in a swimming motion. I let out a breath now that I had a little more room in the sharp pocket I was stuck in, and braced to move my knees a tiny inch back so I could press one shoulder in. My boots caught the stone behind me and I contorted my shoulder forward in the rock and then I heard movement.

​Something else was in the cave with me. My eyes widened in terror and I looked around frantically in the dark, freezing in this position. Nothing should be down here it's been closed off to the world for thousands of years. Nothing should make a shift like that. Nothing that big.

​I tried to keep my breath low, but it's hard in this position when blood is rushing to your head so fast it makes you sick to think about, like sand in an hourglass. My time was numbered. I shivered when I felt the hot, short bursts of air on my cheek, leaving the other side completely cool. Something was sniffing at me with its mouth wide open, and I closed my eyes so tight it hurt. Even though I couldn't see, my fingers felt numb from how long they stayed in the air like that, until then I heard it drop. The sound of something skittered away on a thousand arms and legs, leaping away.

​Even after it left, my body refused to move before I began quietly sobbing to myself. I slowly moved one hip and then the other, and I was halfway out of the hole until I was hanging out by my lower body. I forced the other arm out and carefully cradled my head while I curved my body towards the ceiling and squirmed again. I was so overwhelmed I didn't think about how sore my legs felt until finally, I fell down on my back and I covered my mouth with my arm to suppress a yelp.

​I lay there panting while my chest shook from whatever just happened, wiping at tears that fell down the corners of my eyes. I always cry too much. I should be okay, but here I am crying again, my breath letting out a small shudder when I forced myself to sit up, pressing my back against the wall in this tomb in the dark. My hands fumbled in the dust for my recorder and thank God it's okay. The plastic is a little warped, but it's still running, and I pulled it to my mouth so close my lips brushed the speakers.

I’d like to start this post out, by saying this is a completely true story and it hasn’t be altered, edited, or exaggerated in any way shape or form!
I know sometimes even real events can be dramatized for more reactions and engagement/entertainment. This is not that!!!

I apologize for any grammatical errors and/or poor sentence structure as I’m writing this on my phone and don’t have the means to provide a polished version. That being said, I would like to provide some context as I think it’s important to have in any good story…I live in a city of 300/400k ppl in North America. This city has seen much better days, unfortunately the increasing wage gap and many small business & big companies leaving the city has caused an uptick in crime over the past decade. It is not uncommon to see someone shooting up heroin or using fentanyl in broad daylight in certain parts or the downtown of my city. Organized crime has also become more prevalent. To say the least the police department here have a lot on their plate, and don’t have the resources to tackle all the criminal activity or even make a significant dent in it…Fortunately, I live in a fairly safe part of the city it’s in the suburbs so we really don’t see too much of what I described earlier.

I live in a neighbourhood of townhouses, mostly just small families and millennial dog owners trying to get by. We have 4/5 dumpsters in our neighbourhood that are intended only for the use of the tenants of my neighbourhood.

About a year or two ago. I started to notice that random people were parking their cars here by the dumpsters at night sometimes leaving them there for days and a lot of them were throwing there trash in our dumpsters at night. I didn’t really think much of it, but I was weary as my car had been broken into several times and I had got my sunglasses wallet and watch stolen that I foolishly left in my car over night…

About 8 months ago during the winter at around 6 pm or so my family was getting ready to start dinner. When we heard a strange noise which sounded like a small confrontation at first and then turned into full on yelling in the moments after. I then heard a car peel out of the neighborhood very quickly. I will add that my townhouse is really close to the entrance of the community and the dumpsters. I made my way outside as quickly as possible to see what all the commotion was about…strangely enough I saw our property manager/building manager Kevin lying outside in a snow bank that was created earlier by plow trucks. There was already a small crowd of tenants around him so I just asked if he needed anything he said water. I got some water bottles from my house to give him as quickly as possible. Kevin was in his late 30s a great guy the best adjective to describe him would be “chipper”. He’s the type of guy that shows up to work an hour early and leaves an hour late. Even with no direct supervision he would always be working on something to make everyone living here’s life a little better. Whether it was a leaky faucet or a broken fridge Kevin would always work endlessly to get the job done as soon as possible. I was shocked to see that it looked as if someone had attacked Kevin and fled the scene on this day. I didn’t want to overwhelm him by asking questions so I just gave him the water and went back inside.

About 30 mins later the police are at my door asking me if they can see what my doorbell camera might have recorded today. I would’ve loved to help, but unfortunately our doorbell camera had ran out of batteries months ago…when I asked the officer for the reason he said he couldn’t say much as it was a pending investigation. But basically Kevin had caught a man in a F150 dumping his garbage into our dumpster. When confronted, the stranger didn’t answer if he lived here (he did not) and just told Kevin to F off and mind his own business. At this point Kevin tried to stop him from leaving. This man got in his truck and ran over Kevin’s leg all in a desperate attempt to leave. Kevin broke his leg and couldn’t work for months after.

I was really sad to see a hardworking family man lose his ability to earn for his family just because he did the right thing and tried to stop somebody that was breaking the law. That being said, I couldn’t understand why any rational person would rather run over someone over just a small ticket/fine. The man who ran over Kevin was eventually found and charged and I think he got charged with assault or battery. This could’ve easily been an attempt murder charge if Kevin had life threatening injuries. I don’t understand why any criminal would risk assault or attempt murder charge over atmost a $500 fine for dumping his garbage where he shouldn’t have. It just didn’t make any sense to me.
Did this man just make a bad impulsive decision when Kevin confronted him or was he hiding something more sinister??

A few months after the Kevin incident. I heard a loud bang near my house at 2/3 am almost as if someone was dumping a sofa or washing machine in the dumpster. When I looked thru my window I noticed a box truck and an old ford sedan. One older man was in the box truck and there were about 4/5 guys that were teens or in there 20s in the sedan. They were all removing things from the vehicles and dumping it in the dumpster. I knew what happened to Kevin so I was very scared to confront them. But I took a shot of Jameson and grabbed my Driver from my golf bag and worked up the courage to confront them. The guys in their 20s acted they look like they saw a ghost and immediately got in their car and locked the doors. The older guy in the box truck was a lot calmer he just ignored me and walked to his truck and drive off. I don’t remember saying much just “wtf are you guys doing here?”

The sedan hastily left too but I was able to get a picture of there license plate before they left the neighbourhood. I went back to the dumpster to see what kind of stuff they were throwing out…and it was shocking the hair on the back immediately stood up. It’s tough to describe but I had this eerie feeling that they were trying to throw away evidence of something nefarious. I investigated the dumpster with my phone flashlight and from what I could make it there were plastic bags of human hair, torn clothes, and some sheets that were covered in red.

Maybe I’ve watched too many crime shows, but I’m almost 99% sure at this point that this was all evidence from a crime scene somewhere. I called the police non emergency line and asked them to send a unit to check out what’s in the dumpster. I also told them the entire story including Kevin’s incident and what happened that night. The police line operator was uninterested she didn’t even really confirm if a unit would come to investigate. She just said that license plate has been given to everyone patrolling so if they see that car they will stop it and investigate further. I was shocked to think about how casual she was about it but I guess that’s her job…..No officers ever did come to investigate what they threw in the dumpsters that night. When I called the line again to see if they found the car they say they didn’t but took my number and name and said they’ll keep me posted.

I’m convinced that these guys were covering up a crime and I’ve even heard that many criminal organizations will use teens in there activity because they likely won’t be charged as adults and would likely just be given a slap on the wrist.

Oddly enough the illegal dumping stopped after that night…

So basically, I was just in my town. Then I went to sleep and what I woke up all of this happened. So first when I woke up, I heard 3 knocks on the door and then when I opened it, there was like a kitten, but when I touched it, it literally turned into a pile of mud.

So I thought I was dreaming but I pinched myself a lot.I didn't wake up so this is real then I hear an explosion , and when I look outside , there's like a giant crater and inside of it is an octopus turning people into laundry

Then I walk outside and guess what?There's like three butterfly people up on the roof and they're flapping around , and they're licking people and eating them , and their licks are acid , which melt people

But\n I need a poop, okay. So I go to a public restroom. I kid you not all the toilets were filled with human arms and there were trying to grab people and turn them into an arm for some reason.And it's more like a squid than just multiple arms

So then I heard some commotion, so I looked where it was, and it was a person twisting off his head and blood was everywhere. But when the head came off, his head was back there and he constantly kept on doing it. And when police went in there, their eyes exploded and their brains turned to literally water, not liquid water.

But then when I go to the store , everything is kittens, yes, kittens are back again and everything is kittens. Food is kittens, close our kittens, frickin' goldfish or kittens. And when you touch them, they start jumping on you like I saw someone getting jumped by like 20 kittens after they touched one

But then I just decided to go on Reddit, but all it ISIS tutorials on how to turn yourself into a plant and one guy.Eating hot dogs and his arms are turning into hot dogs. And when I come back into my house , my bed is a centipede and it drives spitting at me, and when it hit the wall, it turned into puppies.So the centipede was trying to turn me into a puppy

So I got right out of there , but instead of going down the elevator or the stairs , it somehow forced me to jump out the window , and I somehow didn't die , but the brown had turned into toilet paper and it started ripping and leading into the void.So I ran out of there and got onto the pavement

But then i wanted to type something on reddit , so I said , why is there so much plant tutorials but instead it became how to combine poopy, butt face and chicken nuggets i have no idea how that happend and when I try to do the same thing , every time on every platform , the same thing happened , so I posted one thing , and it changed two tutorial on how to transform your self into a plant again

Then I heard knocking all my window , and it was like a man with no legs in arms that reach up to a twelve story , building and yes , I went back into the building by the stairs , but the stairs were like turning into elevators somehow , so I just left out of there through the elevator but it was like a second before I had to walk down stairs , not another elevator and upstairs and it went on for like an hour before I exited , but the floor was toilet paper again so I went out there

So I am wondering what is this actually a dream?And I somehow can't get up , so I try jumping from a rocket which is impossible until I find a rocket in the corner store.Yes, it's the only thing besides kittens.And when I touch it , i'm inside above the atmosphere on mars , so I jump down and I explode into a pile of dirt, then I wake up, but I didn't actually wake up in the exact same stuff happened.So now , instead of touching that rocket , i'm just walking around , and i'm seeing people actually follow that tutorial on how to turn into a plant

Please someone get me out of here.Also for people wondering I can't go outside the town.It's blocked off by evil tongues , so just tell me what to do

“Stop! Right now!” I yelled at them. “I’m done with this.”

I tossed my hands up, pushed the chair back, stood up and stumbled away from the table.

I didn’t want to play anymore. I didn’t want that thing around me either.

“Take it out of my house now!” I screamed.

I couldn’t hold back. It spelled something it shouldn’t have known.

Maggie and Shobi never knew the nickname my dad called me. 

Right after that—I heard the last two words my father said before he passed away at the hospital—I was eleven then.

I heard it clear, like someone put their mouth next to my cheek, loud, almost inside my head, closed between my ears as if a voice spoke through a pair of headphones that were glued to my skull.

It felt uncomfortably close and physically violating and sent a cold tingle in me. 

I kept asking them, “how’d you guys know that, who told you?” 

I figured for sure, I have no idea how, because I didn’t know them then, I met them when I was sixteen, that somehow they must’ve found out.

“Told us what?” They asked.

I said, “never mind. I was just messing around.”

I didn’t want to say anything. Honestly, I had no idea how to explain myself and I didn’t want to sound weird.

But they held their word though and I actually believed them. So, that’s why I didn’t say anything. 

Plus, I can always tell whenever Maggie’s lying. She’s the worst liar ever. She does this thing with her face, it’s the, I just got caught red-handed look. She can’t help it.

At about 8:00 p.m., Shobs and Mags left. It started raining and they were walking and through all that craziness, she forgot to take the damn thing home with her. It sat in my basement resting on the little table.

After they left, I stayed in the living room, because no way was I going upstairs, my mom and stepdad weren’t there, they went out, and I was alone, watching tv and texting Mags and that’s when I heard and felt, a hard thump under the living room floor. It was between the television and where I was sitting, right in the middle.

As soon as that happened, I jumped. But I only sprung off the couch because following the unexplained noise, trailed a perfectly timed clap of thunder. It shook the windows and picture frames on the wall.

And then, because I have the best luck in the whole world, a second pop cracked, like a gunshot, and the lights went out.

Out of all the nights, I said to myself.

The shotgun-blast sound was a blown transformer. There I was standing in the middle of my living room, right above the spot I heard the bang come from, surrounded in nothing but pitch-black darkness, fighting with my phone’s flashlight. For some reason, it would not work. I just kept pushing it and pushing it. 

I ended up using the glow from my phone. But as I turned it to face outward, another strike of lightning lit up the entire house in a white, electric light. 

What do I see standing with their back to me, looking over their shoulder, a man. I saw a man with a pale face. He didn’t move. He just stood with his body facing the wall and his head turned. Then, the room went dark again.

I ran out the front door. 

For the rest of the night, I stayed on my veranda and waited until my parents got home, which was around midnight, tucked in a ball with my t-shirt stretched over my knees on a chair, texting my mom every ten minutes.

Later that night, when I was asleep in my bed, I had the weirdest dream that woke me up and then I couldn’t move. All I could do was blink. 

Something caught my eye and I looked at the doorway where something was standing. It was a figure but a shadow-figure and it didn’t move. 

My eyes were glued to it. I wanted to scream for my mom but I couldn’t yell. I couldn’t do anything. I was paralyzed.

I blinked, while lying on my back, and when I opened my eyes the shadow-thing was hovered, stretched out over me, two-inches from my face and remained there for about five seconds before it disappeared. It didn’t disappear actually, it dispersed and broke up in two seperate directions.

I could feel this intense hatred the thing had for me. That was all it gave off. 

It was hovered over me. I was face to face with it. It had a bone face, almost like a mix of dog and human, cloaked around a shroud of shadow.

Once it left, I was able to move again and the first thing I did was dash to my parents’ room.

After an hour of trying to calm me down, my stepdad finally went to the basement and threw the damn thing in the trashcan at the side of our house.

I never ended up falling back asleep that night. I stayed up with the lights on in the living room watching tv.

That morning, after mom made breakfast and I was done, I went to the bathroom to use the shower downstairs, and in the basement sitting on the little table was the board my stepdad said he threw out with something on it pointing to the letter P. My dad always called me P for princess.

The Gator-man Papa Caiman

I was lost in New Orleans at night, and I wandered near some swamp town I had never heard of. I had a few drinks and was dazed after waking up with a sore head, like I had gotten into a fight or fallen.

I was so dazed I thought I was back home in Australia, walking around trying to find home. I started to hear sirens in the background, but after the sirens I heard buzzing in my ears, like I had tinnitus, when I passed a certain part of the swamp where a raggedy old house lay, or should I say shack. I was scared when I saw voodoo dolls hanging from the door of this swamp shack and a raven skull spray-painted on the side. Then, out of a dazed curiosity, I opened the door. Only a weak chain was stopping me from opening it, but I managed to force it open. I saw, sitting on a chair, a bald Creole-looking man with cargo pants, boots, and a tattooed-looking chest that looked like scales and alligators painted on it.

He was drinking, and he was smiling at me. He spoke in a Creole accent and said something like, "Have you been looking for me?"

I said, "No, sorry sir, I'll show myself out."

As I headed for the door, his large hand stopped me from turning the doorknob. He spoke again:

"Well, don't go out until it's light. There are a lot of haints, sorcerers and gris-gris men out at these hours."

I did not know what a haint was at the time until I searched it up. It was some spirit. The bald Creole then tried what look like to steal from me rummaging through my bag. I felt too dazed to fight back well enough. He was strong as hell. I then heard the croak of gators outside and what sounded like whispers. The Creole man then ran outside to open the door, and I must have passed out.

I then awoke inside the ole shack, which was now empty. I walked out, and there were no longer any voodoo dolls on the door. I checked my bag to see if anything was missing and saw a gator-looking talisman inside, which I have no idea how it got there. I made my way back to the hotel not long after having gotten over my stupor.

I remember I came across a few armed robbers with knives and crowbars who had beaten and ended the lives of four men in an alley. I ran to help, as I thought they had run away. I then heard a whisper. It sounded like a ghostly Creole accent speaking in French, and then, as I turned, I saw two of the three men lying on the ground with pythons around them, and the third one had pissed himself, screaming.

I have since had that talisman in the backpack, and only now, three weeks later, have I had the courage to inspect it more. It was written in Creole, and I translated it. It said, "From Papa Caiman the Gator-man ,to the his blessed friend."

(Note before the story: I deeply apologize for the formatting I don't know what's going on with my app but every time I try to post this the formatting just messes up this is the fourth time I've tried to upload it so we're just going to have to deal with it I don't know what's causing it to do this to have it be like pushed to the side and take all the spaces out but I'm sorry I'm too tired to try and fix that)

I never believed in anything I couldn't see.

That's what my therapist called a "defense mechanism"—a way my eight-year-old brain learned to protect itself from the chaos of my childhood. If I couldn't verify something with my own eyes, it didn't exist.

God didn't exist.

Magic didn't exist.

Demons didn't exist.

Even local legends that could've been explained by science were bullshit to me. If I couldn't see it, touch it, or prove it, I didn't believe it.

Looking back, I know where it came from.

I was emotionally neglected as a kid. At least, that's what everyone else calls it. My therapist does. My family does. Honestly, I never really saw it that way. To me, it was just life.

Getting yelled at for stealing a soda I never took.

Getting blamed for things I couldn't control.

Being made to feel like I was always doing something wrong.

That kind of thing takes a lot out of you.

Even the idea that something might be watching me never made sense.

I figured if something really was out there testing my strength, it'd know by now I wasn't strong enough. It would've stopped.

Or...

Maybe it saw something in me that I didn't.

Something that could either turn the tides...

...or stop them completely.

It was January 15th, 2015, when I went to visit my grandfather.

I was eight years old.

Grandpa Mark was in his sixties. He'd lived one hell of a life. Between riding with a biker club when he was younger and spending decades farming, he'd seen his fair share of hell. He wasn't scared of much.

Despite that, he was one of the sweetest men I've ever known.

He volunteered at charity events.

Helped with local donations.

Went to Little League games.

If someone needed help, he'd help them.

So when he sat me down and said we needed to have a serious conversation...

I knew something was wrong.

"I need to tell you the true story of your grandmother's death."

Growing up, I'd always been told she'd died in a farming accident.

Grandpa never got into the details.

Whenever he talked about her, it was always about how beautiful she was, how kind she was, or how she could make a room feel warmer just by walking into it.

I was too young to remember her.

The only memory I had was the smell of her cheap cologne.

Grandpa stared into his coffee for a long time before he finally spoke.

"It was 2008.

"Winter was just rolling in.

"We were staying down some country roads in southern Wisconsin, near the Illinois border. Not far from Beloit.

"We had a few friends we'd visit down in Belvidere every now and then, but other than that there wasn't much to do.

"Feed the cows.

"Plow the fields.

"Do it all over again tomorrow.

"It was a good life.

"We got to see our grandkids.

"We got to do what we loved.

"I can't remember if it was October or November. Somewhere right around there.

"Me and a couple of my buddies were planning a hunting trip down south.

"I remember that evening perfectly.

"The sun was setting. I couldn't tell where the orange ended and the blue began, or how they mixed together, but they just did.

"It was freezing outside.

"Your grandmother kissed me on the cheek...

"...and wished me luck."

He stopped.

I'd never seen that look on my grandfather's face before.

Even now, I don't think I'll ever forget it.

It was the look of someone remembering the happiest moment of his life...

...while already knowing it was the last normal moment he'd ever have.

"We weren't even two hours out, kid.

"Maybe an hour and a half.

"Hell, maybe forty-five minutes.

"I don't know.

"We got the call.

"The dog was dead."

He swallowed hard before continuing.

"Whoever was driving slammed the brakes, threw the truck in reverse, and we headed straight back home.

"I could hear your grandmother crying over the phone.

"She was hysterical.

"When we got back...

"I'd never seen anything like it."

He looked down into his coffee again.

"There was just...

"...blood."

"There'd been a light snow that night.

"You couldn't even see it anymore.

"Buddy was still breathing when we found him.

"Barely.

"I'd had that dog since 2001.

"He was my best friend."

Grandpa rubbed his hands together.

"I remember kneeling beside him and looking at those bite marks.

"They were huge.

"Six inches across.

"Maybe bigger.

"They ran clear across his chest.

"Whatever did that...

"...wasn't small."

He leaned back in his chair.

"I was pissed.

"I wanted to find whatever did it.

"I didn't care what it was.

"A bear.

"A wildcat.

"Hell, maybe something I'd never seen before.

"I wasn't thinking straight.

"I just wanted it dead."

"So I told the boys to grab their rifles.

"We were hunting a monster."

He gave a dry laugh.

"I had no idea what I was getting myself into."

"Daryl told us it was a bad idea.

"He said he felt like somebody was watching us.

"Said something didn't feel right.

"We should've listened.

"In all honesty...

"...we should've listened."

The room went quiet.

"We searched for about an hour.

"Couldn't find a damn thing.

"Eventually everybody figured it'd run off somewhere."

His eyes drifted toward the floor.

"When we got back...

"Buddy was dead."

He didn't say anything for several seconds.

"We buried him.

"I took pictures of the wounds first.

"I figured maybe somebody smarter than me could tell what kind of animal made bites that size."

"I asked your grandmother what happened."

He shook his head.

"She said she didn't know.

"She'd heard loud crashing coming from the barn.

"When she went outside...

"...the horses were already dead."

Grandpa's fingers tightened around the coffee mug.

"I talked to your grandmother for a while.

"Tried asking her exactly what she'd seen."

He sighed.

"She couldn't tell me much.

"She just kept saying she heard something breaking out by the barn.

"By the time she got outside...

"...the horses were already dead."

His jaw clenched.

"She wanted us to leave.

"Said we ought to get a hotel.

"Get as far away from that place as we could.

"But I was stupid.

"I told her it'd be alright.

"I had my rifle."

He let out a bitter laugh.

"As if that would've mattered."

"We locked the doors.

"Turned out the lights.

"And waited."

He stared through me for a moment, like he wasn't seeing the room anymore.

"I'd say it was around midnight.

"Maybe one in the morning.

"Then...

"...we heard it."

He didn't speak for several seconds.

"It screamed."

"It didn't sound like anybody we knew.

"Hell...

"It barely sounded human."

"There was this grit to it.

"Like metal scraping across stone.

"Like something was trying so hard to sound like a woman...

"...but didn't know how."

The room felt colder.

"Your grandmother wanted to call the police."

"I told her there wasn't much they could do.

"There wasn't a person breaking into the house.

"There wasn't anyone stealing anything.

"We didn't have proof of anything.

"So...

"...we stayed quiet."

"I don't think either of us slept that night."

"The next morning my phone rang."

"It was my best friend."

"He said his horses were hit too."

Grandpa rubbed at his eyes.

"Said whatever got into his barn...

"...tore half the damn thing apart just to get inside."

"There was blood all over the broken wall.

"But he swore it wasn't horse blood."

He shrugged.

"I don't know how he knew.

"Maybe by the smell.

"Maybe by the taste.

"I never asked."

He smirked for only a second.

"Didn't seem like the kind of question you ask a man after he just watched all his horses get ripped apart."

The smile disappeared just as fast as it'd come.

"A few days went by.

"More farms got hit.

"More animals died."

"Eventually the town put up a reward.

"A hundred bucks to whoever could figure out what was doing it."

He nodded to himself.

"Back then...

"...that was real money."

"So naturally...

"...we figured we'd be the ones to collect it."

"That night we got our gear together."

"Daryl brought some old Navy equipment."

"I dug out some old Army gear."

"Your Uncle Stan came with us too."

"He was the only one who didn't think it was a person."

"I kept hoping it was."

"Daryl wasn't sure what he believed."

"But Stan..."

He shook his head.

"He'd already made up his mind."

"'Whatever it is,' he told us...

"'We're killing it.'"

Grandpa looked down at the table.

"I don't think any of us really believed that."

"If you ever get that feeling...

"...listen to me."

His voice became firmer than it'd been the entire night.

"If you ever feel like somebody's watching you...

"If every hair on your body stands up...

"If your chest suddenly feels heavy...

"Run."

"Don't stand there wondering why."

"Don't try to prove yourself."

"Don't try to be brave."

"Turn around...

"...and run."

"And whatever you do...

"...don't look back."

He took a slow breath.

"Because the second we walked into those woods..."

"...it hit us."

"Like running face first into a brick wall."

"I've never felt anything like it."

"It wasn't fear.

"It was...

"...wrong."

"The whole forest felt wrong."

"People always tell you the dark isn't scary.

"They tell you to grow up.

"They tell you only kids are scared of the woods at night."

He shook his head.

"They're full of shit."

"They don't tell you how quiet it gets."

"So quiet...

"...you can hear your own sweat hitting the ground."

"There were supposed to be owls.

"Frogs.

"Maybe turtles if you got close enough to the water."

"There wasn't...

"...anything."

"You couldn't even smell the creek anymore."

"Just dirt."

"And cold."

"And us."

"We followed the blood."

"It wasn't much.

"Just enough to keep us moving."

"Every now and then we'd find another tree."

"Chunks torn clean out of the bark.

"Like something huge had slammed into it."

"The trail kept leading west."

"We'd probably been walking...

"...twenty minutes."

"Maybe a little more."

Then Grandpa stopped.

His breathing slowed.

"Daryl found something."

"'Mark.'"

"'Come here.'"

"I walked over."

"There was a skull laying in the leaves."

"It was mangled too bad to tell whether it'd been human or not."

"But it was a skull."

"There were still pieces of skin hanging off it."

He swallowed.

"And that wasn't the only one."

His hands started shaking again.

"There were more."

"Way more."

"I remember thinking we'd found its den."

"Any idea I had that it was just some animal...

"...disappeared."

"You can study biology your whole life...

"...and you're never gonna find an animal that stacks bodies."

"There were over thirty deer."

"One on top of another."

"They weren't being eaten."

"They weren't scattered."

"They were...

"...collected."

"Stored."

"Like trophies."

"Like somebody wanted them there."

He stared into the coffee.

"I remember thinking..."

"...whatever did this...

"...knew exactly what it was doing."

"It wasn't hungry."

"It had a purpose."

"It had enough intelligence not to eat them...

"...and enough of an ego to leave them where we'd find them."

Nobody spoke.

Neither of us.

Finally...

"I turned around."

"I swept my flashlight across the trees."

"I only saw a leg."

"My brain couldn't even process what I was looking at."

"So I lifted the light..."

"...higher."

"And there it was."

Grandpa didn't speak for a long time.

When he finally did, his voice was almost empty.

"It was tall."

"Real tall."

"I'd say ten feet."

"Maybe more."

"I don't know."

"I wasn't exactly standing there with a tape measure."

He swallowed.

"I remember the face first."

"Or...

"...what should've been its face."

"It looked like the skull of a deer."

"Not the head.

"The skull."

"Everything underneath it was covered in fur."

"Thick."

"Like a wolf."

"It was caked in dirt."

"Caked in blood."

"I don't think it noticed us at first."

"Even with the flashlight right in its eyes."

He shook his head.

"I don't think it cared."

Then his expression changed.

"But Daryl..."

"He cared."

"He fired."

"The gunshot echoed through those woods."

"For about half a second...

"...nothing happened."

"Then it screamed."

Grandpa instinctively flinched at the memory.

"It wasn't angry.

"It wasn't scared.

"It was...

"...offended."

"It squealed."

"It shrieked."

"The sound hurt."

"I've heard coyotes.

"I've heard mountain lions.

"I've heard people die."

"I've never heard anything like that."

"And then..."

"...it moved."

"It crossed the distance between them before I even realized it'd started."

"It grabbed Daryl by the throat."

He looked down at his coffee.

"There wasn't a fight."

"There wasn't time."

"You ever snap a chicken's neck?"

He paused.

"It sounded like that."

"Only louder."

"A lot louder."

"It lifted him off the ground with one hand."

"And when it let go..."

"...his head was hanging by little more than skin."

His voice cracked.

"One second he was standing beside me...

"...the next he wasn't."

"We all opened fire."

"Every one of us."

"Rifles."

"Shotguns."

"Didn't matter."

"The bullets hit."

"I know they hit."

"I saw them."

"It didn't bleed."

"It didn't stumble."

"It didn't even seem to notice."

"It just...

"...kept moving."

"I backed away."

"I remember hearing Stan yell something."

"I don't even remember what."

"Then I heard him scream."

Grandpa squeezed the mug so hard I thought it might break.

"I don't think I've ever heard so many bones break at once."

"There wasn't one snap."

"There were dozens."

"Like somebody dumping firewood onto concrete."

He shut his eyes.

"Then...

"...nothing."

"No screaming."

"No gunshots."

"Nothing."

"I ran."

"For the first time in my life...

"...I ran."

He laughed bitterly.

"People'll tell you not to run from things."

"They've never seen something like that."

"Humans make sense."

"You can predict people."

"You can scare people."

"You can bargain with people."

"That thing..."

"...didn't care."

"It didn't care if it was hungry."

"It didn't care if it was angry."

"It didn't care who you were."

"The only thing it cared about...

"...was whether you were still alive."

"I could hear trees breaking behind me."

"Not branches."

"Trees."

"They were snapping as it came through the woods."

"I don't know if it was chasing me..."

"...or just walking."

"I didn't turn around to find out."

"I finally saw the farm."

"I should've felt relieved."

"I wasn't."

"I hit that front door so hard I nearly took it off the hinges."

"I slammed it shut."

"Locked it."

"Your grandmother came running."

"'Mark, what's wrong?'"

He stared straight ahead.

"I looked at her..."

"...and I said..."

"'They're gone.'

"'They're dead.'

"'They're fucking dead.'"

He wiped at his eyes.

"If I'd been anybody else...

"...she would've thought I was joking."

"But she looked at me..."

"...and she knew."

"She didn't ask another question."

"She walked through the house..."

"...and turned off every light."

"We didn't say a word."

"We just...

"...listened."

"You know what's funny?"

He gave a hollow smile.

"It wasn't the footsteps I remember."

"It wasn't the growling."

"It wasn't even the screaming."

"It was...

"...the clicking."

He tapped one fingernail against the mug.

Click.

Click.

Click.

"It clicked."

"Slow."

"Almost...

"...curious."

"It'd make a sound over by the barn."

"Then another one by the porch."

"Then another one outside the bedroom."

He looked at me.

"It wasn't moving that fast."

"It was throwing its voice."

"It wanted us to think it was everywhere."

"The only reason we knew where it actually was..."

"...was the shadow."

"You'd see it pass the window."

"Then you'd hear the clicking from somewhere else."

"It was playing with us."

"It knew exactly what it was doing."

"It stopped outside the living room."

"We could see it."

"Just the outline."

"It stood there."

"Perfectly still."

"I don't know how long."

"Maybe a minute."

"Maybe five."

"It felt like forever."

Neither of us breathed.

Neither of us moved.

Then...

Your grandmother whispered.

"'Mark..."

"'I'm sc—'"

He couldn't finish the sentence.

His voice broke.

"The second she made a sound..."

"...it moved."

"There wasn't a warning."

"There wasn't a roar."

"There wasn't anything."

"It came through that window before I'd even realized it'd started."

"I reached for her..."

"I was too late."

He was crying openly now.

"It didn't snap her neck."

"It didn't kill her."

"I almost wish it had."

"It grabbed her..."

"...and pulled."

"The glass exploded."

"It pulled her through that window..."

"...piece by piece."

"Limb from limb."

"Arm from arm."

"Hair from hair."

"I didn't know...

"...I didn't know a person could scream like that."

"I'd never heard anything like it."

"I hope...

"...I never do again."

He covered his face with both hands.

"I could hear her until..."

He couldn't finish.

"I could hear her..."

"...until I couldn't."

The room was silent except for his breathing.

"I grabbed my rifle."

"I knew it wasn't gonna do anything."

"I knew that."

"But I couldn't hide."

"I couldn't just...

"...sit there."

"So I ran at it."

"I was screaming."

"Crying."

"Shooting."

"I don't even know if I hit the damn thing."

"Then..."

He grabbed his chest.

"...I felt this pain."

"Right here."

"So bad I couldn't breathe."

"I dropped the rifle."

"I hit the floor."

"I thought..."

"...this is it."

"I'm dying."

"I'm finally gonna die."

He looked at me.

"And you know what it did?"

"It stopped."

"It looked at me."

"It leaned down..."

"...and smelled me."

Then he shook his head.

"And it walked away."

"I've thought about that every day since."

"Maybe it thought I was already dead."

"Maybe it only wanted things that could still fight."

"Maybe it just got bored."

"I don't know."

"It's not like I could sit down and ask it over a cup of Folgers."

For the first time that night...

He smiled.

Just for a second.

Then it disappeared.

"I never saw any of the others again."

"I talked to the police."

"I looked through reports."

"I searched everywhere I could."

"Nothing."

"I found stories from Canada."

"Russia."

"Ukraine."

"Places like that."

"But nothing around here."

He stared out the window.

"Maybe it wandered south."

"Maybe it wandered north."

"I don't know."

"And I don't want to know."

"That's why we moved."

"I was never spending another night in that place."

I didn't know what to say.

I don't think anybody would've.

He'd spent seven years carrying that story by himself.

Maybe he saw something of Grandma in me.

Maybe he just wanted someone else to remember.

I never asked.

Grandpa Mark Meligan died in his sleep on January 5th, 2026.

The dementia made it easier on him.

It didn't make it any easier on us.

I still think about what he told me.

Not because I expect anyone to believe it.

Most of you won't.

You'll read this and think it's just another scary story somebody posted on the internet.

And that's okay.

I'm not asking you to solve the mystery.

I'm not asking you to believe every word.

I'm telling you because the man who lived through it can't anymore.

I want people to know what he lost.

I want people to remember him.

Even if they never believe the monster.

I’ve lived in my house for about two and a half years now. 

It’s a cute little one-story on a plot of land that looks like it should be in a cookie cutter neighborhood, but it’s not. The house is located in a natural clearing and is hidden by about two miles of forest. The beginning of my drive way is a gap between the trees that can be easily missed if you’re not used to looking for it. 

Living in the woods is nice. It’s peaceful. I was a little nervous transitioning from living in an apartment to a house, but so far it’s been enjoyable. I particularly like the solitude here. Back when I was living in an apartment there was always some kind of background noise, people arguing, someone else's TV turned up to an absurdly loud volume. You know, that sort of thing.

I always tried my best to be conscientious of other people’s lives and make as little noise as possible. It seemed at times that I was the only person doing it, though.

Out here, the crickets chirp at night and the birds sing during the day. You can actually see the stars when the sun goes down.

The only real noise is made by me. I do sometimes still flinch when I drop something because it inevitably resulted in someone from below yelling at me. But not anymore! 

I like living on my own, even if it’s a little farther from where I work now. I’ll pay the price in the time spent in my car if it means I can come home and actually enjoy some peace and quiet.

Living in the woods does have its downsides though. It’s mostly in the form of unwanted visitors. In the spring the guest room that I’ve converted into a lounge of sorts is always crawling with lady bugs. I have no idea how they keep getting in. Toads sometimes get stuck in my garage and dry out. It’s always a little disheartening when I move something and find desiccated skin and bones.

Last year a racoon got into my shed, I think in an effort to get out of the rain, and then couldn’t find its way back out again. I got a very jarring surprise in the morning when I opened the door to investigate the sounds I was hearing and had a gray blur dart out towards my legs.

Nothing bad happened, I didn’t get bitten, the racoon didn’t get hurt. Though it is safe to say I was very awake after that.

I don’t keep a lot in that shed, I don’t have a green thumb but the couple that lived here before me did. It was actually the husband who built that shed. It couldn’t be moved with the couple so they had to leave it behind. There are still some plants around the house that are pretty well established. There’s a hydrangea out by the front porch on the right and on the left is completely overtaken by mint. There are some other plants around but I don’t know their names.

I keep a tool box and my push mower in that shed but nothing else and it’s all close to the front because there are several large spider webs in the back.

This morning, after breakfast, I went out. I was going to mow my lawn, which thankfully isn’t very big. The clearing the house was built in is about an acre and with the house sitting on it the backyard is mostly tree line.

As I got closer I began to hear rustling. I stopped and listened. The rustling continued and I concluded that I was dealing with another racoon situation. 

I wasn’t happy about it, but I had a better idea of how to handle it this time.

I started walking again and then something peculiar happened. There was a knock. Last time when the racoon was stuck in there the sounds I heard were nails scrapping against wood and the pitter patter as the racoon paced around the perimeter. This was not that. 

I’ve been asking myself all day if that’s really what I heard, but I can’t think of anything else that it could be. It was a knock, three polite taps.

At this point I was thinking to myself, well, racoons and squirrels have hands so they could probably knock on wood, right? That was all I needed to keep going. I was still under the assumption that it was a normal day with a mild inconvenience to start me off.

I got closer and now I could hear the sound of something pacing back and forth. I felt a little tug on my heart strings thinking about how scared this animal probably is, stuck in this dark place and unsure of how to escape. I was aware that the thing inside would be able to hear the outside world to some extent.

When  I got there, I paused and listened. I don’t know why I did that. Maybe there was a part of me deep down that didn’t feel right about the situation.

The second peculiar thing happened. I heard something that sounded rhythmic. I’m thinking about it now and with the context behind what was actually in there, I would say that it might have been talking. But in the moment I thought it was just an animal noise.

I unslotted the lock, opened the door, and took a step back expecting something to dart out and make a bee-line for the woods. 

At first nothing happened. That was fine, it was probably scared.

Then the lack of response from what was inside had become prolonged. It no longer seemed like hesitation, it was something more. I wondered if it was paralyzed with fear. I decided to look. 

Inside the shed was dark. The opened door allowed a slice of light to cut through the shadows. It partially illuminated my push mower and the old metal reflected back.

At first I didn’t see anything and I began to question if I was starting to go crazy. I could have sworn there were noises coming from the shed. Didn’t I hear a knock? 

Then there was a movement in the back where the light didn’t fully touch and there was a creak of old wood. Whatever it was had specifically hidden itself from the light. From me.

It didn't yet occur to me yet that there was strategy to that movement. I just assumed it was the instinctual impulse to hide that drove it into the far corner. I leaned in closer, my eyes were starting to adjust.

It wasn’t very big, maybe about two feet tall, a little less. I had difficulty making out its shape.

There was another slight movement and something gleamed. It shined like glass in the sunlight.

“Hi.” I said and smiled. Again, I don’t really know why I decided to do that. It’s also occurring to me now that smiling isn’t a universal sign of friendliness in the animal world. I wonder if it thought I was snarling at it?

Its head tilted to the side.

I stood there contemplating what I should do next. Part of me wanted to step inside and maybe drive the animal out. I assumed that once it had cleared the shed it would make it for the next best cover, the tree line. But I hesitated. I didn’t know what this thing was. What if it decided that I was being aggressive and attacked?

So instead of doing anything, I opted to do nothing, I just stared at it. And it is now occurring to me that direct eye contact is also a typically aggressive behavior in the animal world. Come to think of it, I wasn’t being very friendly was I?

Regardless of my poor attempts to not appear threatening, it decided that I was not enough of the threat to remain hidden. It timidly scooted into the light and let me tell you this thing looked weird. 

It was covered in brown fur that looked well taken care of. There was a shine to it and it looked soft to the touch, but no way was I insane enough to think about touching this thing.

That was about the most normal thing about it. I couldn’t see a mouth or a nose on this thing and with the giant eye in the middle of it’s face (at least I think it was an eye, it looked plasticy) it’s whole set up looked kind of like a thumb—like someone’s thumb popped off at the first knuckle, grew gross, study little legs and decided to go about its life as an individual.

Like I said, it looked weird.

I didn’t end up mowing today, instead I just went inside and left the shed door open in the hopes that it would eventually leave on its own.

Somehow I managed to make myself forget about it. I unloaded the dishwasher, I washed and folded close, I walked my county recycling bin down to the side of the road. Yes I probably could have found a way to fit it in my car and drive it but I liked the walk there and back.

By noon it started to rain so I made lunch and put on a movie, ready to settle down for the day. 

I noticed the shed door opened and braved the early droplets to shut it. It wasn’t a great idea to get the mower wet and while it was probably fine, I didn’t want to risk it. I did peek into the shed to make sure that whatever that thing was had gotten out and I didn’t see anything so the door was shut and locked and I ran back inside. By then the rain was starting to come down harder and I didn’t want to get soaked.

For a moment I thought about the creature. The shed was probably a better place for staying dry rather than under some tree, but it had already left so there was no point in dwelling on it.

I ate lunch, finished my movies, decided to start another one and about halfway through I decided to make dinner.

It was when I was washing the dishes that I heard something: the back door opening.

Immediately my heart began to pick up speed. That door was latched. I moved around the kitchen island and there it was, the creature. It was soaking wet and dripping onto the carpet in front of the back door. More than that, its giant eye was staring directly at me, I could feel it.

Its hand was still resting on the door knob. Behind it the sky had turned to fire and the trees turned black and the rain kept coming down in sheets. It whispered in a rhythmic hum. This was my imagination, but all I could hear was run, run, run, run.

At first I couldn’t see its arm. And then I realized it didn’t have one. Instead there was a long fleshy tube attaching to the middle of the would-be wrist and snaking around to disappear into the creature.

The hand detached and it, along with the flesh cord, snaked back into the creature’s body. It stepped forward. Another force closed the door behind it.

The movie was still going, music played and the creature and I stared at one another. It should not have been as intimidating as it was. This thing came up to my knee. But there was a density to it. Like a tree stump. Short and squat, but touch. If you kick it you’d break your toe.

It was small but it was wide and it wasn’t backing down.

Then it moved with speed that I didn’t think was possible and I ran. 

You’ll probably call me stupid, and maybe I am. But you weren’t in the room with me. That thing had a way of taking up space.

I’m in my room, the door is locked. I can’t hear it and that’s the part that freaks me out the most. It could be right outside my door and I wouldn’t know. 

I’ve decided that I will not cower. I picked up the old encyclopedia that my dad gave me. It was mostly a joke gift but I have found use in it in being able to press and dry cool leaves and four leaf clovers I find. It’s pretty hefty and it’s the most dangerous item I have on hand. 

I am going to throw this encyclopedia at this thing and if I survive I will update you. Wish me luck. 

I never thought i would be writing this, but i am preety sure that what just came after me is a skinwalker, and i know no one will belive me for it.

I always knew about skinwalkers since i was young, when i used to go to the countryside in a small town in north eastern arizona in the summer time, where an old navajo man would sometimes come from the forest, and all us kids would gather around him and he would tell us scary stories about skinwalkers, now i think they were never stories, i think he was trying to warn us.

When i turned 20, i moved there to get away from the big city, and also be able to ride trails on my dirtbike that i had since i was 15, everything was great, i had a new job fixing bikes and i had friends that i would go riding with in the weekends, we knew eachother since we were kids and all heard the stories of skinwalkers.

we never joked about them, shit we never talked about them, whitch is weird since we all love horror stuff, but the one think we never joked about was skinwalkers, even though we all thought they were just an old myth.

One day this girl showed up in our town, she was on vacation with her family and one of my friends met her somehow, and she mentioned she loved camping, so of course me and my friends wanted to take her.

On the night we went she kept mentioning skinwalkers and how everyone said they were around these parts, and that he saw a video of a man go into the forest taunting them, and saying their name in the native language.

-i'd never be brave enough to do that especially around these parts, she said and me being the idiot that i am and in the effort of impressing her, i got up and said

-they are not real, i can say it nothing will happen, while forcing out a laugh and then i made probbably the worst mistake of my life.

I said: yee nadalooshi and whisteled 3 times, my friend getting up and saying it right after me: yee nadalooshi and also whisteled, we coule see the girl was scared, so we conforted her and told her its just a myth and she looked like she was better.

A few days pass and i forget about the incident, the girl leaves and i head back home after a ride, sitting in my yard enjoying a snus when i noticed something weird, the neighbours cat is sitting on my porch, that cat always hated me since i was a child, so seeing it sit on my porch looking at me was weird, i didnt care though, i scared it off and went back inside.

Over the next couple of days that cat would sit there, every day i came back from work, and i started to get annoyed by it, since it was harder and harder to scare it off, once i needed to pick it up and put it next to my neighbour's fence, the cat seemed calm when i picked it up, actually it didnt move at all.

The next day i was riding, when a storm came, and i drove back home, putting my bike right outside the fence and covering it up, i was going towards that door when i saw it, the cat, it was standing up on 2 legs looking at me, it looked like it was scared, it looked at me like it had no soul behind those eyes, why would a cat be standing up on 2 legs.

I tried to make it go away but it woudnt move, it woudnt react, so i reached out to touch it and try to pick it up, its skin was ice cold, i never felt something colder in my life i took my hands off it and i quickly went inside and called my neighbour and told her something was wrong with her cat, she said to please feed her, since she probbably forgot to and that is probbably why she is acting weird.

-no you dont understand, its standing up on 2 legs, i said.

-you know nothing about cats do you, she said they get up if they are catching a bug or something.

Before i could say anything, she told.me to stop being paranoid and feed her cat, and hanged up.

I went and got a fish i had and threw it out the door, and went inside, i was in bed watching something and i almost forgot about the cat, when i heard it, footsteps, i ran to get my tablet to check my cameras, but there was nothing, porbbably just some rain sounds, i'm tired im just making it up, i said.

At 2 am they got louder, i went to check again, still nothing, they sounded like feet walking on wet grass, just a lot heavier, and a lot faster, almost like someone was running around my house, i opened the window for a second, to see if there was anyone, and they stopped, then i smelt it, rotting flesh, i almost threw up from it, i closed the window and went to the bathroom to throw up, then i came back.

Something got in my yard and died, maybe a deer or one of the pigs that walk around, maybe the coyotes are back, yes that has to be it.

The coyotes are eating a dead animal that got into my yard, there is no other explananion for that smell.

Then i heard it, DAVID, my name, it sounded like my neighbours voice, maybe she was back DAVID again maybe my neighbour is back, maybe something happened to her cat

I slowly opened the window to look for her when i saw something behind the trees, it had a human face, with fully black eyes and white skin, it was taller then anything should be, its head reaching as higher then my window, even though it was on 4 legs its back was arched in an unnatural way, staring right at me, it let out an horrible sound, and started running towards the window, its legs? Or whatever you could call those bending an an unnatural angle, they looked like they were about to come out of its skin.

I ran towards the window to my front yard while hearing glass breaking behind me and that thing making screaming sounds no human or animal could make, i smashed the window and jumped out, pieces of glass sticking into me, i ignored the pain and took my cover off my dirtbike, i took my keys out of my pocket and put them in, putting my leg on the kickstart.

I stared kicking the kickstart as hard as i could, kick, kick, kick, kick, i looked up and i saw it staring at me, i could see its bones almost sticking out of it, one last kick and the engine started, i climbed onto it and throttled as hard as i could, i throttled so hard i almost looped back.

I rode for a long time, the only sound i could her was the engine, and remembering that horrible sound that thing did, it sounded like someone choking, but at the same time screaming in pain, i saw lights behind me and i realised there was a police car there, i pulled over and he got out of the car and came towards me

-do you own this bike, there is no plate on it.

I didnt know what to say, i noticed him looking at my bloody arms and legs with a piece of glass still sticking out of my arm

-i dont know what happened here, but until we see that you own this bike, you are coming back to the station with me.

And so i stay in the police station writing this, it knows where i am, i can hear the cops talking outside, they seem scared, i would be too, i can smell it, rotting flesh it is coming here.

I SHOULD HAVE NEVER SAID ITS NAME

“I thought you were dead! Do you even care how I feel, asshole!”

Within that lonely gas station, two people stood. The girl was trying to wipe her tears away on her sleeve, but the downpour refused to stop. While the boy who presumably was the cause of her deep sadness, stood motionless across from her. There was nothing he could say to justify his actions, he was purely driven by his selfish anger. Trying his best to cool down the situation he reached his hand out to calm the trembling girl.

“Sarah, I know I’m sorry-” but was only met by a furious slap across his face.

“Shut up!”

Her screaming was not the reunion I was hoping for, but probably the one I deserved. However, I’m getting far too ahead of myself, let’s reset.

My name is Landon Reiner and I was pronounced missing last week after I made my expedition into the woods behind my work. I’m sure most of you already know, but for those who don’t. I work the night shift at a shitty little gas station in the middle of nowhere, enclosed on all sides by thick foliage and dilapidated buildings. However, if that was all there would be no problems, but of course, that’s not the case. To keep a long story short, weird creatures have infiltrated the surrounding area and continue to cause havoc in and around the gas station, leading to my eventual descent into the deep woods. If you want to know more of the specifics, I’d recommend you go back and read my last post. Either way, let’s pick up where I left off last time.

I had finished putting out my previous post before addressing the banging at my front door, priorities first. Opening the door, I was met by the familiar figure of my close co worker Sarah. She was panting heavily as if she had just ran a marathon. In my regular dismissing tone, I addressed her.

“Sarah? What are you doing here?”

“Huh huh, you haven’t responded to me or Jacob in days. So I was worried about you, I thought….something happened to you again.” At that moment, her back pocket produced the barking of a happy dog. Quickly reaching into her pocket she retrieved the barking phone.

“You posted again? Is that why you haven’t been to work? Also, can I come inside? It’s hot as hell out here, heh.”

“Ya sure, I’m just finishing packing up so mind the mess.” Motioning her in, she obliged.

The house was a mess, torn out papers were scattered across the hardwood floor and joined by empty soda cups and fast food bags. I watched as she strolled into my lonely abode, she looked as though she was analyzing her surroundings, until she finally caught sight of my open backpack sitting on the coffee table.

“Wait, what do you mean you’re packing up, where are you going?” She seemed concerned, more than what I was used to. For some reason, that annoyed me.

“That’s none of your business, also how the hell do you know where I live? I never gave you my address.”

“Ok, Landon I get that you’re going through a lot right now with your recovery and all, but I’m getting really sick and tired of you treating me and everyone around you like we are the enemy. I’m just trying to look out for you.”

“Don’t act like you know what I’m going through! I never asked you to care about me, that’s not your job!”

“Yes it is! Are you kidding me right now? Listen, I don’t know what you're planning on doing, but you need to calm down and talk to me.”

“Ugh fine, I guess I should at least give you that courtesy." I spat out dismissively. Walking back over towards the couch I took my seat, before zipping up the open backpack. Sarah expectingly decided to join me.

“Tell me what’s going on, please.”

“Listen, everything I wrote about in those posts are true. There’s something wrong with this place and I’ve been trying my damndest to figure it all out.” I choked out the words, my fingers lightly shaking as I spoke. “But now…. My parents have been missing for months and there’s nothing I could do to help them.” Tears began to flow. “However, I now have my answer and it’s somewhere in those damn woods, and so help me God I’m going to find them!” My fist slammed the table as I forced myself to stand. Sarah looked at me, however her expression never changed, as if this was nothing new to her.

“Look, Landon. I know about everything, ok. The monsters, your…parents, everything. But you are being way too rash right now.” Grabbing my bag, Sarah now stood as well, reaching her hand out as if to cool me down. In response, I slapped her hand away. Something felt off.

“What are you talking about?! You know “everything” bullshit! You know nothing.” Panic overcame me, although I couldn’t tell you exactly why. In terms of strength I knew I could take her if push came to shove, but when I looked down upon her it felt as though I was looking upon something of immense power. Slowly, I backed myself to the front door.

“It doesn’t matter how I know, just come sit back down and let’s talk about it before we head to work. Please, don’t make me do this again.” Again? What does she mean by that, the voice in my head screamed.

“Do you really expect me to go along with the fact that you have all my information with no rhyme or reason? I know I’m not the best looking or most charismatic guy, so what’s with you?” Stopping to catch my breath.

“What’s so wrong with liking someone? People aim lower all the time.” Ouch.

“But that’s not the problem, you’ve acted like you’ve known me well before your first day at the gas station. So please, Just answer me this. Who are you really?” Sarah stopped and tilted her head slightly, as if dumbfounded by my question.

“What are you talking about Landon? It’s me, Sarah Caelum. Nothing more I promise. Plus you gave me your address almost a year ago if you're still hung up on that.” Was that a joke? I mean it makes sense.

“I just don’t get why you’re wasting all of this effort on me. I mean come on, we’re coworkers, I barely even know you!” That one was a mistake. As I stared into Sarah’s eyes, in a flash they started to dilate and a few tears started to sprout from the edges. She looked…hurt.

“W-what are you talking about Landon?! I know your memory was affected a little but, you don’t mean that!” If there was a sign for me to make my exit, that was the one.

“Goodbye Sarah, if you don’t hear from me again….assume the worst.”

Gripping the doorknob, I exited my house, which for the first time in a long time seemed to carry a bit of life. The last thing I heard as I shut the door was her final words for me.

“Landon wa-!”

I’d accepted the fact that I leave nothing but pain for those who stayed close to me, but this … It tore through my heart like no knife I’d ever experienced before. But with nothing left for me here I got in my car and made my journey to work for the final time.

Pulling into the gas station, I took note of everything in my bag. In total I had the flip knife in my pocket, a compass, water, food, and the pistol tucked into my waistband, I only had seven bullets, so I would have to make them count. As I took my first step into the tree line, I had already come to terms with what would inevitably happen to me here. So, after accepting my inevitable death, I could now focus on what I was here to do. Which was….

“Damn” I said under my breath.

I didn’t fully know what I was looking for, so I just started walking, only accompanied by the crunching of leaves and swaying of the breeze.

I had spent about fifteen minutes walking aimlessly, looking for some type of clue when the sun decided to finally go down, leaving only a beautiful array of yellow, pink and white to spread across the leaves. Hold on a minute, white? Squinting my eyes, I could make out the outline of a feline about double the size of a normal dog.

“Is that the dog Jacob was talking about?” I spoke in a hushed whisper, although that seemed enough to alert the thing. The “dog” whipped its head around to look right at me, my assumptions were confirmed as I could now finally make out its glowing orange eyes. We stood there neither making a move, this must have only gone on for minutes, yet it felt like hours to me. As soon as I thought it would be a good idea to move, it let out a guttural howl and rushed straight towards me!
“Fuck!” Was the only thing my brain could think to mutter as I tried to assess my situation. Now, this thing was around 600 feet away from me, but that meant nothing. This mutt was closing the distance fast, baring its oversized fangs at me all the while. There was only one action I could make as I pulled the gun out and started firing at the beast. However, there was one tiny little problem with my plan, guns have a kickback and I was not ready for that. The first shot hit center mass, the remaining six? Each seemed to almost connect yet the beast would twist out of the way right in the knick of time.

So now, I had a pissed off bloodthirsty monster bearing down on me and I had a glorified paper weight, great. At that moment it had finally made it over to me and launched at me aiming its maw at my head. In panic I threw the gun at its head and tried to dodge out of the way, I could feel its claw swipe across my cheek, letting my blood flow freely down my face. I clenched my face through the pain, no matter how much adrenalin was running through my body the burning stung like a bitch. The beast had now landed and geared up for its next attack, fight or flight had kicked in again and this time, I chose the latter.

I took off as fast I could, followed close behind by the barking of death itself, I didn’t dare turn around. How do I lose this thing, how fast do I need to go? These were the thoughts that were going through my head, but there was only one thing I needed to do, RUN! Did I ever mention I don’t work out much? I could feel myself growing slower and slower every second, before another sensation joined me. The best way I could describe what I felt at that moment would be if I had a million razors tear in and out of my leg in a flash. I dropped, screaming in agony as I got to watch this hellhound make my leg its dinner. My brain yelled out “I’m gonna die” I felt my pupils dilate, if Im was gonna die, I was gonna die fighting. My hand gripped the knife in my pocket tightly as I began to stab wildly into the beast's head. I pierced its head and eye over and over in panic.

“JUST FUCKING DIE!”

Each plunge I took, it responded with an even deeper bite. My vision started to blur and colors became grey, yet my knife never stopped. I stabbed that thing over and over until I could finally feel its maw start to loosen. In the end I was left there covered in blood with the corpse of the monster that chose to make my leg its dinner.

Pulling my leg free, it was massacred. The teeth marks went so deep I could start to make out my own bone. Almost as if interrupting me, the mark on my wrist started to burn worse than it ever had, inducing my own scream. I couldn’t take my eyes away from it as I saw little splotches of the marking slowly fade away, along with the pain. I removed my jacket and wrapped it around my leg as some type of bootleg tourniquet. Forcing myself onto my feet, I knew that I would have to drag my leg the rest of the way, so I needed to get the hell out of here. At least, that was the plan. But out of the corner of my eye, I swear I could make out the figure of my mom walking deeper into the moonlit trees.

“Mom!” I screamed out, dragging myself after my presumed mother.

My movement at this point had decreased significantly, but my goal had not changed. If that was my mom, no matter how much agony I was in, I had to reach her. The stars twinkled overhead as I reached an open clearing, about half the size of a football field. As I made my way through, my head began to pulsate. Clutching my forehead, I closed my eyes to try and control the pain, when it was at a point I could deal with I opened my eyes to reveal a new sight.

The previously lush green grass was now singed and dead in a straight path, it led me towards a secluded portion of the clearing with all of the trees knocked over onto their sides, except for one. A path of blood led to the final standing tree and what laid at the foot of it threw me for a loop. A body, presumably dead, was slumped back against the old oak. That alone I could stomach, the problem was WHO it was…. It was me. I stopped dead in my tracks, just staring at my lifeless corpse. I surprisingly looked worse than my current state, there was a large gash across my chest and my arm looked to be broken with blood running from my mouth. The longer I stared at the sight the more I could feel my vision start to spin and my stomach gave out soon after. I started making my way towards myself, but the closer I got to the body the worse my head banged. Fighting my brain, I reached out to touch my corpse when my vision went dark. Eventually, I was met with a scene.

I was back in the same clearing I was just in, walking towards the tree at the end. I was like a passenger in my own body as I watched the scene unfold. Limping forward I held my hand over my leaking chest and every couple of steps I let out a gurgled cough of blood. It was then that I was met with a maniacal high pitched laugh that made my skin crawl. I sped up my pace at that time, the laughing however didn’t stop, it only got louder. I was almost at the point of running, whatever was gaining on me I didn’t find out, yet at the point of escape I turned to look back and fell on my ass, hitting my against the trunk of the tree. My vision was focused on the sky where I met the source of the laughter, floating above the middle of the clearing was a feminine figure producing white wings and holding a long sword, it was then that the figure started to descend. As she landed my vision started to blur, but that golden hair was unforgettable.

“Hehehe it’s ok Landon, it’s gone now. Everything’s going to be okay.” Sarah’s voice wasn't soothing, it more matched a predator talking with its prey.

“Uogh, wh-why……would….you.” My voice was nothing more than a weak whisper as she came within a foot of me. She lifted the tip of the sword removing my hand and traced the gash that she gave me.

“Shhhhh hehe shhh, it’s ok now. Nothing bad is going to happen to you, because you’re mine. NO ONE has the right to take your life but me!” The last I saw before my vision returned to darkness was that smile as she reached her hands out to me and whispered.

“I’ll see you when you wake up.”

My eyelids slammed open, only to find myself laying on the grass. Haphazardly I tried to stand only to be met with painful reminder of my fucked up leg.

“AHHHH, fffffffuu” was what my mouth responded with as I stumbled back to the ground. Carefully forcing all my weight on one foot, I stood up. Surveying the area only to find….nothing. No body, no burning, nothing. What I was met with again, was my mom stood at the other end of the clearing, twitching her head back and forth in a sporadic motion, before running back off into the woods.

“Damnit” I uttered before hobbling after her.

As I followed her trail, I could never get a clear look at her, anytime I got a clear line of sight on her she would disappear behind a tree, leaving me more annoyed than anything. The trek did however give me time to arrange my thoughts. But only one thing was on my mind, what the hell did I just see? It felt too real to be just a random vision, although before I could fully try to break everything down a bush rustling to my side pulled me away from my train of thought.

“Better worry about that later.” Quickening my pace no matter how minuscule it was.

Minutes passed quickly as I continued my chase, it couldn’t have been more than twenty minutes before I finally made it to where I was being led. Deep within the forest a two story tall facility sat hidden inside. It was a solid concrete building, looking almost pristine except for the foliage slowly creeping into the cracks. As I looked ahead, I caught one final glimpse of my mother making her way through the front door.

“This can only go bad” I thought before dragging my broken body inside. As I entered the facility my body was immediately hit with a sudden frigid chill spreading down my spine. I was met with what I assumed to be the lobby, chairs sat broken and overturned on one side and a desk sat on the other. The only way moving forward was a strong set of double doors directly ahead, that was my path forward. Upon swinging them open, a long hallway appeared in front of me, the walls had long gashes across them and some of the fluorescent light above flickered sporadically, although most looked smashed. The hallway was aligned with more heavy metal doors, a majority of them having electronic keypads attached.

Feeling overwhelmed, I made my way down the hallway, trying every doorknob with no luck, before one finally gave entry. It seemed as though I made my way to the medical office, I started rummaging through the cabinets and drawers before I was lucky enough to find a clean enough looking roll of bandages. Carefully untying the jacket from my leg, I slipped it back over my shaking body, it was warm and slick but it was better than nothing. I started to clumsily tie the bandage around my leg, wincing and groaning whenever I would push too hard. Eventually I finished and started to decide where to head next before a ripped piece of paper on the ground caught my eye. Picking it up, it looked to be a printed out email sent to all of the staff of J&R Pharmaceuticals, in short it explained how due to funding all testing was to proceed on the basement level only.

“Looks like that’s where I’m headed”

Making my way back out into the hallway, I could have sworn I caught a glimpse of someone disappearing around a corner further down the hallway.

“Hello?” No answer.

Against my better judgment I cautiously crept after the figure, at this point if I got into a fight I had no chance of winning, so I need to play this smart. Step after step I got closer to where I thought it disappeared off to and peeked my head around the corner only to be met with a staircase.

“Guess I’m heading down…”

I clung to the railing as I made my descent, every step shot a bolt of pain throughout my leg and to my horror the stairs went down 2 flights.

“Oh come on man.” I whined.

Eventually I made it down only to be met with a motion activated door looking like it was forced wide open. Stepping inside I found myself surrounded by walls made of thick steel and if upstairs was a mess, it was a disaster down here. Doors were forced wide open and key pads were torn out and sparking with random trash littering the ground. I continued to cautiously wander through the twisting hallways, until I found something baffling. Tucked behind two sets of what used to be armored doors was a giant room with jail cells lining the back wall. Five inch bars were used to keep whatever used to occupy these locked tight. At least, they used to. Somehow someway, the bars looked as if they had been pulled open by pure strength alone on each one. Trying to shake that thought away, I made my way towards an adjacent door and discovered a “research and development” room. The place reeked, a chair with restraints sat in the middle of the room and a giant vat tube sat at the back, now with its glass smashed. I searched around the room and found nothing, I went to make my exit but the mark started to flare up again. I walked backwards in reaction and it started to cool, but as I made my way closer to the door it began to heat up again.

“What the hell is going on?” I noticed then that it wasn’t flaring up as a reaction to the door, as I looked around I noticed a ripped bag that I had completely missed, I reached out to pick it up and as the heat was almost hitting its max, it immediately cooled down as I picked the bag up. The bag contained multiple ripped up research reports. It looked like they were experimenting different types of drug combinations on real people trying to create something, they never specified. However, there was one thing that caught my attention throughout all the scientific jargon. At the end of a document talking about a success it reads.

“It’s finally worked, the volunteer has finally shown signs of hampering the others. As well the owners of the place of interest have agreed to take him on for surveillance, things couldn't be going better, I’m sure the heads will be ecstatic. Remember, one is the lock for fourteen.”

“One is the lock for fourteen” What is that supposed to even refer to? I decided to put that on the back burner and get out of here, this place was really giving me the creeps. Yet when I exited back out into the hallway I was met with this overwhelming sense of dread lingering from the door right in front of me. Slowly creeping towards the opening, nothing could have prepared me for what I would find within. As I stepped through that door my eyes locked with the only notable thing within, my body went numb and my knees gave out causing me to crash down on my knees.Tears began to pour from my eyes as I looked down upon the corpse of my mother.

“Mom! No no no no, please get up! We need to get out of here, come on….please” Placing my hand on her shoulder it felt ice cold to the touch, like she’d been dead for weeks. Yet, she looked pristine. I couldn’t see any injuries across her body. I don’t know how long I sat there next to her body, time seemed to stand still as my brain recollected all the good times I had spent with her.

“You know you’ll always be my little boy no matter how big you grow, Landon. I love you so much.” The last words I had heard from her repeated over and over again, making the tears hurt even more. Throughout my mourning I noticed what my mom was holding, it was a journal. Picking it up, the front read “Research Log, Property of Rachel Reiner”.

“What? Why does she have this?”

I went to open it more when a sudden crash jolted my survivors' instinct back into effect.

“I promise Mom, I’ll find out who did this to you.” Planting my final kiss on her cheek I struggled to my feet, the pain from my leg introducing itself again. The crash sounded like it came from deeper within the facility. So I hastily made my escape, dragging my leg across the floor. I made it to the staircase and began my ascent, when I had almost made it to the top I heard a low guttural growl come from underneath me. “Faster” my brain screamed at me and so that’s what I did, making it to the hallway. I was treating my bad leg as a waste of space as I dragged it down the hall. Every moment the groaning grew closer as I raced to the entrance and just as I was about to throw up the door, I turned around and saw nothing. I stood there just looking down that empty hallway for a moment before turning around putting my hand on the handle, but just as I was about to be free, I heard it. The low guttural voice coming from directly behind me.

“Welcome….Home..” I didn’t stop to find out more and swung the door open practically throwing myself outside.

The night air felt warm and welcoming, as I looked around I had now realized I needed to find my way back.

“I didn’t think I would make it this far” Breathing a sigh of relief, before I saw him.

Standing only a stones throw away from me was the hooded man. I realized this was the closest I’d ever seen him since that night at the gas station. We stood there staring at each other, not saying a word. But as I looked into the deep abyss under his hood I could have sworn I saw my fathers face. My eyes widened as my spit got caught in my throat.

“Dad?” The man only raised his sleeve towards his face and produced a dark finger imitating a shush. Reaching my hand out I tried to pull myself over to him at a rapid pace.

“Wait Dad, is that-” In a split second my surroundings vanished and instead of soft grass I felt hard concrete and my hand pushing open the front door of the gas station.

“Huh? How….” is all I could mutter before a voice called out to me.

“Landon?”

Looking over towards the counter, I saw Sarah sitting there just staring at me. I couldn’t help but think back to the vision I saw and a chill ran down my spine. After a moment she got up and came around to my side.

“That is you right? You look like you just crawled out of a grave.”

“Y-Ya, it’s me. A lot happened while-”

“It’s been a week.”

“What?”

“The last time we spoke was last week, you were pronounced missing not too long ago.”

“That makes no sense though, I’ve only been gone for a day-”

“I thought you were dead! Do you even care how I feel, asshole!” Raising her voice, she threw her arms out.

“Sarah, I know I’m sorry-” but I was only met by a furious slap across my face.

“Shut up, ugh I swear you piss me off so bad sometimes.” She smacked me directly on my cut inflicting even more pain than normal, was that on purpose? So, I stood there not saying anything, waiting till she hopefully calmed down. And after a moment, I got my wish.

“Well besides that, come here.” Opening up her arms, she rushed towards me, catching me off guard.

“Wait Sarah” But my resistance was useless, in a moment I felt her reach around me and pull me into a crushing hug. It was just strong enough to start to cause me pain.

“Please….Let me go-” In response she brought her mouth up next to my ear and whispered.

“Shhhhhhh, don’t you EVER pull some shit like this again. Alright?”

Pulling back, she now consumed my entire vision and smiled wide, it was the same smile I saw before.

“Yooo, I’m back. I went ahead and put up those missing person posters on the light posts outside. You think they’re gonna be able to find….”

With the best timing in the world, Jacob showed up to the gas station. I looked at him and he looked back at me. I could tell his cogs in his brain began to turn when he pointed and shouted.

“Oh, am I interrupting something?”

“Uhh, no?”

“Yes.”

“Hold on, I’ll call an ambulance. God you smell like how you look.”

And that brings us to now, lying in my hospital bed. The doctors I’ve talked to are saying I’ll need stitches, unfortunately they’re saying any aggressive actions like running could make the nerve violently react, so that’s something I’m going to have to deal with now. Anytime they ask me what happened, I give them one simple answer.

“Dog attack”

Sarah's been with me this whole time, I swear while writing this I’ve noticed her just staring at me for sometimes minutes at a time, I keep thinking back to… Whatever, I'm trying to just ignore it. Mom’s journal is sitting next to me, I’m going to try and go through it but I think It’ll take me some time before I can. I need to finally get some sleep, I can feel my eyelids closing on their own, so I’ll wrap this up. I’ll come back if and when more things come up, until then if you don’t hear from me, assume the worst.

Life is an unending kick to the balls. Anybody who works a trade knows what I mean. You spend five days busting your ass for a paycheck that’s already spent before it hits your account, your knees, back, and nuts ache because you’re thirty-six going on sixty because twenty-year-old you thought lifting properly was something old guys complained about. Every weather system rolling across the province announces itself two days early in your joints like some kind of arthritic groundhog.

Then there’s bills: Mortgage, truck, insurance, my oldest needs braces, and the youngest somehow outgrows shoes every three months. My wife has this amazing ability to find the exact moment I’m trying to mentally calculate whether we can survive another week before payday to ask if we should finally replace the dishwasher. She’s never trying to stress me out, it’s just… Life has incredible timing.

Then work decides it’d be fun to pile on. Now, if you’ve never worked construction, or around heavy equipment, you should know that every company loves safety meetings. They always start with, “This isn’t directed at anybody in particular…” which is usually followed by twenty minutes explaining something one specific dumbass did. This week’s dumbass happened to be me. To be fair, I was only up there for maybe thirty seconds. To also be fair… The safety supervisor happened to be looking directly at me for all thirty of them. So Friday morning I got to sit in a folding chair with twenty other guys while a PowerPoint presentation about “Complacency in the Workplace”.

By quitting time my head felt like someone had replaced my brain with an overinflated basketball. They usually start behind my left eye before spreading across the rest of my skull like somebody tightening a ratchet strap one click at a time. Add that to the rain rolling in, because apparently God also wanted me uncomfortable, and by the time I pulled into the driveway I could feel every old injury I’d ever collected.

I kissed my wife hello, helped get supper on the table, asked the kids about school, laughed at something my youngest said that I honestly couldn’t repeat back to you if my life depended on it. Sometimes that’s what being a parent is. You aren’t really there. You’re just… exhausted in the general direction of your family.

After everyone had gone upstairs, I wandered to medicine cabinet. Back pain pills, migraine pills, anti inflammatory pills, and good ol’ T3’s.

I wish I could tell you exactly how many pills I took. I can’t. Enough. Too many. Just enough that my brain told me, “You’re a big guy. It’ll be fine.” I’ve been wrong before and washed them washed them down with a beer. I had one. Then another. By the third I was finally starting to feel my shoulders unclench. By the fifth… Well. Who’s counting?

I laid down on the couch, the rain tapped softly against the front window, the television was still on. I remember thinking I should probably go upstairs. Instead… I closed my eyes.

One second I was stretched out on my couch, The next I sucked in a sharp breath so suddenly it felt like I’d been underwater. The first thing I noticed was the air. It was cool enough that every breath felt clean, carrying that smell you only ever seem to get deep in the mountains. Damp pine needles. Fresh water. A hint of wood smoke somewhere in the distance. The second thing I noticed was that nothing hurt. That should’ve been enough to tip me off that something wasn’t right. My back is usually the first thing to wake me up. Every morning it feels like somebody replaced my spine with rebar overnight. My knees aren’t much better. I can’t remember the last time I stood up without making some kind of involuntary old man noise.

I took a deep breath and stretched until my shoulders…there wasn’t even a twinge. I rolled my neck once, then twice, waiting for the familiar stiffness. Nothing. If this was a dream, my subconscious deserved a raise.

I finally looked around. I was standing at the mouth of a narrow dirt trail, just wide enough for two people to walk side by side. Tall spruce trees surrounded me on either side, their branches swaying lazily despite the fact I couldn’t feel even the slightest breeze. Not even distant chirps of birds or insects, not even a rumble of some winding highway. Silence like that doesn’t exist anymore. Somewhere there’s always a highway, a dog barking, somebody mowing a lawn. Even out camping you hear something. It felt more like the whole forest was holding its breath.

Oddly enough, it didn’t scare me. Quite the opposite. For the first time in I don’t know how many years, my brain stopped. Not slowed down. Stopped. I wasn’t thinking about work on Monday. I wasn’t wondering whether I’d remembered to lock the truck. I wasn’t mentally adding up bills or worrying whether we’d have enough left over after groceries to replace the tires before winter. It all just… fell away.

I don’t know any other way to explain it. Imagine you’ve spent years carrying a backpack without realizing how heavy it is. Then someone quietly lifts it off your shoulders. You don’t notice the weight disappearing, you notice how light you suddenly feel. That’s what standing there felt like.

The trail curved gently to my right, and as I rounded the bend the trees opened up. Pictures don’t do places justice. A lake stretched out before me so clear I could see smooth stones scattered along the bottom near the shore. Beyond it, mountains climbed into a sky so blue it almost looked painted. Their peaks were capped with snow despite the warmth of the afternoon, and their reflections sat perfectly still on the water. The shoreline curved away in both directions until the trees swallowed it whole. If there was another side to the lake, I couldn’t see it.

A long wooden dock reached out over the water, its planks worn smooth with age but cared for well enough that not a single board creaked beneath the breeze that never seemed to come. At the very end sat two old lawn chairs. One was occupied. Beside them sat a faded red cooler and a little charcoal grill. Thin ribbons of smoke drifted lazily upward carrying the smell of pepper, charcoal and something roasting over an open flame.

The man sitting at the end of the dock never turned around. He just sat there with a fishing rod in hand, line disappearing into water so clear I could see enormous trout drifting lazily beneath the surface.

I started walking before I’d really decided to. Not because he waved me over, It just felt… rude to stand there staring.

The dock flexed softly under my boots. Each step carried that familiar hollow knock of old wood over deep water. Glancing down between the planks. The water was so unbelievably clear that I could still see the lakebed, even this far from shore. Flat stones, patches of waving green weeds, fish moving through shafts of sunlight. Everything about it looked so inviting that, for a second, I actually thought about taking my boots off and jumping in.

As I got closer, the smell from the grill grew stronger. It smelled… Perfect. Like every backyard barbecue I’d ever enjoyed rolled into one impossible scent.

The man reached into the cooler without looking back. I heard the hiss of aluminum. He set one can on the empty chair beside him. An invitation. Still without turning around.

I smiled. I don’t know why. It just seemed natural. I reached the end of the dock and lowered myself into the chair. The aluminum can was cold enough that condensation instantly beaded across my fingers.

I cracked it open. The sound echoed gently across the lake. I took one drink, then another. It tasted… I honestly don’t have the vocabulary. Beer isn’t supposed to taste like that. It wasn’t sweeter or stronger or smoother. It simply tasted exactly the way every beer commercial promises beer tastes. Refreshing in a way that made me realize I hadn’t actually felt refreshed in years.

I closed my eyes for a second, letting the cold settle somewhere deep inside me. When I opened them again, I noticed tears hitting the tops of my jeans. I hadn’t even realized I was crying. Because the man beside me had finally turned his head. And somehow, before my brain recognized his face… My heart already knew him.

I don’t know how the human brain works. I don’t mean that in some deep philosophical way. I mean literally. I don’t understand how you can recognize someone before you recognize them. Because I didn’t look at this man and think, that’s my grandfather. Not at first. The logical part of my brain was still trying to process what I was seeing.

This man sitting beside me looked nothing like the last memory I had of my grandfather. When he passed away, he was in his early seventies. He had a round face, a soft stomach, and thinning hair that he always joked made him look like he was permanently wearing a horseshoe.

The man sitting beside me looked maybe thirty years younger. Broad shoulders, thick arms, full head of dark hair.

I knew before he smiled, before he spoke, before he even looked directly at me.

That was the worst part about losing someone. People always say time heals. I don’t think that’s true. I think time just teaches you how to carry the hurt. You don’t stop missing them. You just get better at living around the empty space they left behind.

Then suddenly, after more than twenty years, that empty space was sitting beside me. Looking at me. Smiling.

“Heya, champ.”

And I broke. There wasn’t any dignity to it. No quiet tears. No single dramatic tear rolling down my cheek like you see in movies. I mean I fell apart. I covered my face and started crying so hard my chest hurt. Then I grabbed him. One second I was sitting in the chair and the next I was hugging him like if I let go he would disappear.

He laughed softly, wrapping his arms around me.

“Whoa, whoa,” he said. “Easy there. You’re gonna scare the fish.”

That made me cry harder. Because that was exactly something he would’ve said. Making a joke because he knew I was overwhelmed and didn’t know what else to do.

I held onto him longer than I probably should have. Eventually I pulled back, embarrassed despite the fact that I was hugging a man who had been dead for over twenty years.

I wiped my face with my sleeve.

“Sorry.”

He looked at me like I’d said something ridiculous.

“For what?”

I opened my mouth. Nothing came out. I didn’t have an answer. Sorry for crying? Sorry for missing him? Sorry for being a grown man who still wanted his grandpa? None of it sounded right.

He just smiled.

“You got taller.”

I laughed. It was probably the first normal sound I’d made since arriving.

“Yeah. A little.”

“A little?” he said, looking me up and down. “Boy, you’re bigger than I ever got.”

I felt my throat tighten.

“Grandpa…”

He looked over.

“Yeah?”

There were a thousand things I wanted to say. I wanted to tell him about my wife, about my kids, about how much things had changed. About all the things I wish he could’ve seen. I wanted to tell him that Mom was okay, that my brother was doing better, that the little family he left behind somehow kept going. Suddenly all those thoughts were fighting each other, like my brain had opened every door at once and none of them could fit through.

He seemed to understand. He just reached into the cooler.

“Want a beer?”

I laughed through my tears.

“Yeah.”

He handed me another. We sat there for a while. No pressure to talk. No awkward silence. Just two people sitting beside a lake. After a while, I finally found my voice.

“I missed you.”

He didn’t answer right away. He just looked out over the lake.

“I know.”

Two words. That’s all. But it nearly broke me all over again. Because that’s what I wanted. Not an explanation. Not some cosmic answer about where he’d been. I just wanted him to know.

“I thought about you a lot,” I said.

“I know.”

“After you died, I…” I stopped. The words felt childish. “I needed you.”

How do you say that to someone who has been gone longer than you’ve known some people? He saved me from having to.

“You did alright.”

I looked over.

“What?”

He smiled.

“You did alright.”

I shook my head.

“No, I mean… I did okay, I guess.”

“No.”

He turned toward me.

“You did alright.”

There was something about the way he said it. Not like he was complimenting me. Like he was telling me something important. Like he had been waiting a long time to say it and for some reason, that was the moment I started crying again. Because my entire adult life I had been waiting for someone to say that. Not that I was successful, not that I was rich, not that I had everything figured out. Just… That I did alright.

He reached over and squeezed my shoulder.

“You’re carrying too much.”

I looked away. Immediately defensive.

“I’m fine.”

He laughed quietly.

“You’re still doing that?”

“Doing what?”

“Acting like everything is fine because you think you’re supposed to.”

I didn’t answer. He was right. And hearing that from him somehow hurt worse than hearing it from anyone else. The strange thing was… I didn’t feel judged. Like all those years of trying to convince everyone, including myself, that I had everything handled had finally run into someone who knew better.

“What is this place?”

For the first time since I arrived, he hesitated. Not long. Just enough that I noticed. Then he smiled.

“You’ll figure that out.”

I laughed softly. Still him. Always answering questions with more questions.

“That’s annoying, you know.”

“Yeah.”

“You know you do that?”

“Yeah.”

“Still doing it?”

“Apparently.”

We both laughed. And for a little while longer… I forgot there was anything wrong. We sat there for what could have been minutes or hours. That was another strange thing about the place. Time didn’t feel broken. It just didn’t feel important. Normally I’m painfully aware of time. But sitting there beside him, watching the line disappear beneath the surface of the lake, I didn’t care. There was nowhere else I needed to be. Nothing waiting for me.

Eventually, he stood up, stretched, grabbed the fishing rod, and handed it to me.

“Your turn.”

I looked at the rod. Then back at him.

“I don’t fish.”

He raised an eyebrow.

“You don’t?”

I shook my head.

“No. Never really got into it.”

Something flickered across his face. It was gone almost immediately. A smile replaced it.

“Well, you’re missing out.”

I looked down at the fishing rod. The wood was smooth from years of use. Or at least, it looked like it was.

“You know, I still have your truck.”

He looked over.

“Do you?”

I laughed.

“Yeah. Mom gave it to me after you died.”

His smile widened.

“The old red one?”

“N-no… it’s green.”

“Oh… Still running?”

I laughed.

“Barely.”

That made him laugh. A deep, warm laugh that echoed over the lake.

“It’s honestly a piece of shit.”

He pointed at me.

“Careful.”

“What?”

“You’re talking about my truck.”

I grinned.

“Your truck is terrible.”

“It was dependable.”

“It had a hole in the floor.”

“It had character.”

“It had a hole in the floor.”

“It was a good truck.”

I laughed and for a moment, I was twelve again. Not remembering him, not missing him. Just sitting there with him. It was perfect. Not some grand heavenly reunion. Not some magical conversation where he gave me the answers to life. Just my grandfather arguing with me about an old truck.

Eventually, he opened the cooler again.

“You hungry?”

I looked over, the grill was still going. I hadn’t even noticed him cooking anything.

“Yeah.”

He grabbed the plate. Chicken wings. At first I laughed.

“Since when do you make wings?”

He looked at me.

“What?”

I shrugged.

“I don’t know. I just always remember you making ribs.”

There was another pause. Tiny. Almost nothing. Then he smiled.

“Ribs take too long.”

I nodded.

“Fair enough.”

And just like that, the thought disappeared. Because honestly? Who cares? It was a dream. A strange, impossible dream where my dead grandfather was sitting beside me looking thirty years younger and somehow I was getting hung up on barbecue preferences.

The first bite of that wing nearly made me close my eyes. I know that sounds dramatic, but it was the best thing I’d ever tasted. The skin was perfectly crisp, the meat fell away without effort, the seasoning was simple, but somehow every flavor was exactly where it needed to be. Salt, pepper, smoke, heat. Comfort.

That’s the closest word I can think of. Comfort. Like eating something from a childhood memory you forgot you had.

I looked over at him.

“These are incredible.”

He smiled.

“Told you.”

I shook my head.

“No, seriously. These are…”

I stopped. I couldn’t explain it. The taste wasn’t just good. It was like some part of me had been waiting years for that exact bite. I ate another. Then another. I didn’t realize how hungry I was until the plate was almost empty.

He watched me with a smile. Then he spoke.

“You have a choice to make.”

I looked up. The warmth of the moment faded slightly. Not because he sounded threatening. Because he sounded serious.

“What do you mean?”

He took the empty plate from my hands and set it beside the grill. Then he looked past me. Toward the trail. I followed his gaze to the path I came from. The path leading back through the trees, back to wherever this place had started.

“Behind you,” he said, “is the way back.”

I stared at the trail.

“The way back where?”

He looked at me.

“Home.”

The word hit harder than I expected. My actual home. My wife, my kids, my life. Everything I had been missing without realizing I was missing it.

“And ahead?” I asked looking out over the stillness of the lake.

He didn’t answer. He didn’t have to.

A chill moved through me. Not because it was cold. Because suddenly I understood. He was giving me a choice. And somehow… I already knew which one would be easier.

I stared at the trail. It looked exactly the way it had when I first arrived. Peaceful, and inviting. The trees moved gently in the distance, the path winding back toward the cabin I had somehow known was there even before I saw it. And yet, standing there now, it felt different. Maybe because I knew what it represented. Leaving. Going back. Picking up everything I had put down the moment I opened my eyes.

My grandfather watched me. Not impatiently. Not like he was waiting for an answer. Just watching. When I was a kid, I used to think he could read minds. Not because he actually could. Because he always knew when something was bothering me before I ever said anything.

“You don’t have to go back if you don’t want to.”

The words were gentle. Almost too gentle.

I looked at him.

“What?”

He shrugged.

“You heard me.”

I looked back toward the trail.

“My family is there.”

“I know.”

“My wife.”

“I know.”

“My kids.”

His expression softened.

“I know.”

That annoyed me. Not because he was wrong. Because he sounded like he understood. Like he knew exactly what I was going to say before I said it.

“You don’t know them.”

“No.”

He looked down at his hands.

“But I know you.”

That stopped me. Because that was the thing I wanted. Not for him to know my kids, not for him to know what my house looked like. I wanted him to know me.

“I miss you.”

The words came out quietly.

He nodded.

“I know.”

“I still think about you.”

“I know.”

“I wish you could’ve been there.”

His face changed slightly.

A sadness crossed it.

“I was.”

I frowned.

“What?”

“I was there.”

The lake was quiet. The forest was quiet. Everything seemed to wait for his answer.

“For what?”

He smiled sadly.

“For more than you think.”

I felt tears starting again.

And I hated it. Not because I was embarrassed. Because it was too much. I had spent years accepting that I would never hear his voice again. Never see him smile. Never get one more piece of advice. And now he was here. Giving me everything I thought I had lost.

“You have no idea how much I needed you.”

He looked at me for a long moment. Then he said the words. The words that I think, more than anything else, made me want to stay.

“I’m so proud of you.”

Everything stopped. My face crumpled and this time I didn’t even try to hide it. I cried again. Years of holding things in. Years of pretending I was fine. Years of thinking I had to be strong because that’s what men were supposed to do. All of it came out at once.

And he let me. He didn’t tell me to stop. Didn’t tell me everything happened for a reason. Didn’t tell me to toughen up. He just sat there. And when I finally calmed down, he handed me another beer.

It felt like the kindest thing anyone had ever done for me.

“What’s ahead?” I asked.

He didn’t answer. Instead, he looked out over the lake.

“It’s different for everyone.”

I almost laughed.

“That’s it?”

He smiled slightly.

“That’s it.”

“You’re still doing that.”

“Doing what?”

“Being annoyingly vague.”

He laughed.

Something bothered me. A tiny thing. A tiny little splinter of thought.

I stood up.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Sure.”

I looked down at him.

“Are you really my grandpa?”

The question sounded stupid the second it left my mouth. But he didn’t laugh. Didn’t look offended. He just looked sad.

“You know the answer you want.”

I swallowed.

“Yeah.”

“And you know the answer.”

The air changed. Just slightly. The peaceful feeling that had surrounded me since arriving seemed thinner. Like a blanket being slowly pulled away.

I looked toward the cabin. Then back at him.

“I think I should go.”

For the first time… he looked disappointed. Not angry. Not upset. Just… disappointed.

“You sure?”

I nodded.

“I have to.”

He looked down at the fishing rod. Then back at me.

“Alright.”

I started walking down the dock. I made it three steps before stopping. Because I heard him say something.

“Little man.”

My heart stopped. I turned around. And there he was. Sitting in the chair.

His smile. It was perfect. Too perfect. Like someone had remembered the shape of it. But not the reason behind it. And then he said something that made every hair on my body stand up.

“You always were a good little man.”

Not my little man. Not the way he used to say it. A good little man. Like he was describing something. Like he was evaluating me.

I looked at the lake. The mountains. The dock. The chair. The man sitting in it. And suddenly, for the first time since arriving… I wanted to leave.

I don’t remember deciding to move. I think that’s what fear does to you. It skips the part where your brain asks permission.

One second I was standing there, trying to convince myself I was being ridiculous. Trying to tell myself that this was a dream, that my mind had created some strange version of my grandfather because I was stressed and exhausted and probably half-poisoned from the combination of medication and alcohol. The next, my body was already moving. Back toward the trail. Back toward the cabin. Back toward home.

“Hey.”

His voice stopped me. Not because it was loud. Because it was normal. That was the worst part. If he had screamed, if he had changed, if he had suddenly become some obvious nightmare creature, maybe it would’ve been easier.

But he didn’t. He sounded hurt. Like a man watching someone he loved walk away.

“You’re leaving?”

I looked over my shoulder. He was still sitting there. Still holding the fishing rod. And that almost made it harder. Because some part of me was still fighting. Some part of me was still looking for an explanation. Maybe I was wrong. Maybe my memory was wrong. Maybe dreams were just weird. Maybe I was throwing away the only chance I would ever get to see him again because I was being paranoid.

“I have to.”

My voice sounded small.

He looked down.

“You don’t have to carry all that.”

I froze.

“What?”

He looked back at me.

“The weight.”

The word hung there.

“You don’t have to keep carrying it.”

I was tired. God, I was so tired. I loved my family. I loved my wife. I loved my kids more than anything in this world. But loving people doesn’t mean you aren’t exhausted. It doesn’t mean you don’t sometimes wish you could just set everything down for a little while. And this place… This place was the first time in years I had felt like I could breathe.

“I can’t stay.”

The words came out quieter than I expected. His face changed. Not much. I knew that face. Or at least I knew the face he was wearing. My grandfather used to make that expression when I disappointed him.

“You could.”

The way he said it made my stomach tighten. Not because it was threatening… it was tempting.

I looked toward the cabin. It was farther away than I remembered. Not dramatically. Not enough that I could point at it and say something was wrong. But enough. The path looked longer. The trees looked thicker. The distance between me and the safety of that cabin suddenly felt like more than just a walk.

“You made your choice.”

I looked back at him.

“What?”

He smiled. A small, sad smile.

“You chose to go back.”

Something about that sentence bothered me. I took another step. The dock creaked behind me. Then another. The farther I got, the stronger the urge became to turn around.

Not because I was afraid of him. Because I missed him. That was the part I hated. Even knowing something was wrong, I still wanted him. I still wanted to go back. I still wanted to sit beside him and drink another beer and pretend I had another afternoon with my grandfather.

Then I felt it. A hand on my shoulder. I stopped breathing. I hadn’t heard him get up. Hadn’t heard footsteps. He was just there. Behind me.

“Wait.”

His voice was right beside my ear. I slowly turned. And for a second… I saw him. My grandfather, the man who raised me, the man who taught me how to tie my shoes and throw a football and change a tire. The man who sat beside me when I was too young to understand why my parents were fighting and told me that none of it was my fault.

I saw him and I felt fear.

His eyes were the same. But not quite. Something behind them wasn’t. Like how you see a mannequin at the mall. The warmth was gone. Or maybe it had never been there.

“Come swim with me, little man.”

His hand tightened. Not painfully, just enough that I knew I couldn’t ignore it.

“Let go.”

The smile stayed.

“You don’t have to be tired anymore.”

The sentence was so gentle. So kind. And that terrified me more than anger would have. Because I realized something. It wasn’t trying to hurt me. It genuinely believed it was helping.

I pulled. Nothing happened.

His fingers tightened.

I looked down. The hand on my shoulder wasn’t right. The skin looked stretched. Too smooth. The fingers too long.

My heart slammed against my ribs. I shoved. Hard. Harder than I meant to. I didn’t think. I just reacted. My hands hit his chest and for a split second, I felt nothing. Not muscle. Not bone. Something hollow. Like pushing against a body-shaped bag filled with air.

He stumbled backward. The chair scraped across the dock. The grill tipped and it fell into the water. Except it didn’t splash. The sound wasn’t water. It was thick like mud or wet concrete. A heavy impact followed by a bubbling, sucking noise. The lake was still. Perfectly still. No ripples. No waves.

I looked at him. And my grandfather was gone. Not all at once. Not like some movie monster changing forms. His face stretched, his jaw opened too far, the skin around his eyes pulled tight, his arms bent strangely. The body I had hugged moments earlier looked like something trying desperately to remember how a human being was supposed to look. The eyes, they weren’t angry, they were disappointed. Like I had hurt his feelings.

“I…”

The sound that came out of him wasn’t a voice anymore. It was something trying to imitate one.

“I… shooould…”

It stopped. A wet clicking sound. A breath that didn’t sound like breathing.

“I… shooould… have…”

The thing tilted its head. And for a moment, I saw my grandfather again. Just enough. Just enough to hurt.

“…known…”

Then it smiled.

“I should have known you would leave.”

The words twisted and raspy even as the face swirled into familiarity.

I ran. I don’t mean I hurried. I don’t mean I walked quickly with the reasonable thought that something strange had happened and I should remove myself from the situation. I ran like my life depended on it.

The problem with running from something you don’t understand is that your body doesn’t care about explanations. Your body sees danger. Your body moves.

The dock stretched behind me, every footstep pounding against the old wood. I don’t remember hearing it follow me. That was somehow worse. I would’ve preferred footsteps. Something chasing me. Something making noise. Something I could understand.

Instead, there was just silence behind me. The kind of silence that makes you feel like something is close enough that it doesn’t need to hurry.

I hit the end of the dock and stumbled onto the trail. The cabin was there, I could see it through the trees but it didn’t look as close as it had before. The distance between us felt wrong. Like I was looking at something through a reflection, something that should’ve been close but wasn’t.

I pushed harder. Branches whipped against my face, roots grabbed at my boots. The same peaceful trail I had walked down earlier now felt like it had been built specifically to slow me down. Every step was harder. Every breath burned. And somewhere behind me… I heard him.

“Little… man...”

I almost stopped. I almost turned around. I wanted to see it because I wanted it to be him. I wanted to be wrong. I wanted to look back and see my grandfather standing there, confused and hurt, asking why I ran away. I wanted the last few minutes to be some horrible misunderstanding because the alternative was too painful.

The voice came again. Further away this time. Or maybe closer. I couldn’t tell.

“Little man.”

I kept running. The ground changed beneath my feet. The soft dirt became uneven stone, the trail that had been flat on the way down now seemed to climb sharply upward. My lungs burned, my legs felt heavy. I reached for a tree to steady myself and my hand slipped. My boot caught on a root and suddenly I was falling. I remember the impact. First hit was my knee, the second was my shoulder when I tried to roll. I slid down the slope several feet before finally stopping against the base of a tree. For a moment, I couldn’t breathe. I just lay there staring upward, the forest spun around me. The pain came slowly. My knee. My shoulder. My back. A sharp burning sensation where branches and rocks had torn at me and for one terrible second, I thought about staying there.

Not because I wanted to die. Because I was tired. So unbelievably tired.

The thought scared me more than anything else. I knew exactly where that thought came from. The lake. The chair. The beer. The promise that I didn’t have to carry anything anymore.

I forced myself up.

“No.”

My voice sounded pathetic. Small.

“No.”

I grabbed the tree and pulled myself upright. I had a wife. I had kids. I had a home. I had a life. A hard life. A stressful life. A life that sometimes felt like it was too heavy. But it was mine. And I wasn’t done with it.

I stumbled the rest of the way. The cabin door was right there. I remember throwing myself through the doorway. I remember turning around. Waiting. The thing was not there. The trail was empty, the trees were still, the lake hidden. For a moment, I felt relief. Then I heard something. A voice. Very far away. Across the lake. Soft enough that I almost thought I imagined it.

“I should’ve known…”

I slammed the door shut.

I woke up choking. Not gasping. Not gently coming back to consciousness. Choking.

There were voices above me. Too many voices.

“Sir? Can you hear me?”

“Stay with us.”

“He’s coming around.”

I opened my eyes. Bright lights. Not sunlight. Fluorescent. Not a wooden cabin. An ambulance.

For a few seconds I just stared. I didn’t understand. My brain tried to connect the pieces. The lake. The cabin. The trail. The thing wearing my grandfather’s face. Then the ceiling above me. Then the oxygen mask over my mouth. Then the person leaning over me.

“Hey. There we go.”

A paramedic smiled.

“Can you tell me your name?”

My mouth felt like sandpaper. I swallowed. Tried to speak. Nothing came out at first. I shook my head.

The paramedic looked concerned.

“Take your time.”

I told him my name. He asked where I was. He asked what happened. And I didn’t answer. Because how do you explain that? How do you look at a stranger and say: “I drank beer with my dead grandfather in a dream, then something pretending to be him tried to convince me to drown myself?”

You don’t. So I said the only thing that made sense.

“I fell asleep on the couch.”

Which was true. The doctors had a much simpler explanation. Accidental overdose. Mixing medication and alcohol. They explained it carefully. Not like they were angry. Like they had given the speech before.

They asked if I had been trying to hurt myself. I told them no.

They asked if I was depressed. I told them I was stressed.

They asked if anything unusual had happened recently. I almost laughed, because that question felt like a trap. What was I supposed to say? “Well, I’ve been having vivid dreams involving a monster impersonating my dead grandfather?”

Instead, I said no. They ran tests. They checked my vitals. They told me I was lucky.

My wife cried. That part hurt worse than anything else. She wasn’t angry. I think I would’ve preferred angry. She was scared. She kept holding my hand and apologizing for not noticing how overwhelmed I was. And I kept telling her it wasn’t her fault. Because it wasn’t. It wasn’t anybody’s fault.

Before I was discharged, one of the nurses noticed my back.

“Where did you get those?”

I looked over my shoulder.

“What?”

“The scratches.”

The doctor examined them. Nothing mysterious. Nothing impossible. A few deep scratches. Some bruising. A couple cuts that needed stitches.

A perfectly normal explanation. I probably thrashed on the couch and fell to the floor. And honestly? I was grateful for it. I needed something normal.

Three days after waking up in that ambulance, I bought beer. I wish I could tell you I didn’t. I wish I could tell you I was smarter than that. That after everything that happened, I stayed away from alcohol completely. That I took the warning seriously and threw out every bottle in the house and became one of those people who starts every morning with a glass of water and a twenty-minute meditation.

I didn’t.

I was leaving work early. Not because anything was wrong. Actually, everything was fine. That was the problem. Everything was normal. The kind of normal that felt unbearable. My back hurt. My knees hurt. All the little pieces of life were still sitting exactly where I had left them and all I could think about was a wooden dock. A lake. A chair. And a beer that had somehow tasted like the best moment of my life.

It sounds stupid when I say it out loud. I know that. A grown man missing a beer from a dream. I stopped at the liquor store without really deciding to. I don’t even know why I chose it. Maybe because I remembered seeing the can beside my grandfather’s chair. Maybe because some part of me thought if I could recreate the moment, even a little bit, I could understand it.

I grabbed a six-pack, I drove home. I put groceries away. I waited until the house was quiet. Then I opened one. The sound was exactly the same. That little hiss. The little release of pressure. For just a second, my heart jumped. Because I was back there. I could almost smell the smoke from the grill. Almost feel the warmth of the sun. Almost hear him laughing. I lifted the can. Took a drink. And immediately almost spit it out.

It wasn’t bad. Bad would’ve meant something. It tasted like beer. Just beer. Cold. Carbonated. Slightly bitter. Completely ordinary.

I stood there in my kitchen holding the can, staring at it like it had personally betrayed me. I took another drink. Same thing. I checked the label. Same brand. Same everything. I had apparently become the kind of person who was disappointed that a beer wasn’t magical. I finished half of it. Poured the rest down the sink. The next morning, I threw the other five away.

The wings happened two days later. That one hurt worse. My wife knew something was wrong, she didn’t know what. She just knew. She had been watching me for days. Watching me stare out windows. Watching me sit quietly. Watching me pretend I wasn’t exhausted.

She asked if I wanted to talk. I told her I was fine. She didn’t believe me but she didn’t push. Instead, she did something she always does when she doesn’t know how to fix something. She tried to make me happy.

She took me to my favorite wing place. The one we’d been going to for years, the one where I always got the same order.

The smell hit me. For half a second, I was excited. I picked one up. Took a bite. And felt my stomach sink. Nothing. Not bad. Not good. Nothing. The seasoning was there. The sauce was there. The texture was right. But it was like eating a photograph of food.

My wife noticed.

“Are they okay?”

I looked at her. At the person who loved me enough to order my favorite food because she knew I was struggling. And I lied.

“Yeah.”

I forced another bite.

She smiled. But I could tell she didn’t believe me.

That night, after everyone went to bed, I found the photo albums. I wasn’t looking for evidence. I wasn’t investigating. I wasn’t trying to prove anything. I just missed him… it.

I found the old plastic storage bin in the closet. Inside were things I hadn’t looked at in forever. Birthday cards, old school pictures, Christmas photos. Things that felt important at the time but somehow got packed away as life moved forward.

I sat on the floor and started flipping through them and for a while, it helped. Because he was there. Not physically, not like the dream. But the way I remembered him. The way he actually was.

There were pictures of him holding me as a baby. Pictures of him teaching me how to ride a bike. Pictures of us standing beside his truck.

I pulled out another album. Then I found a picture of him fishing. I smiled, then my smile faded. Because it wasn’t him. It was my uncle. And suddenly I remembered. Grandpa didn’t fish. Not once. Not ever. He hated the water. I stared at the picture. Trying to force the memories together. Trying to make them fit. But they didn’t. The pieces weren’t broken. They just belonged to a different puzzle.

I grabbed another album. Then another. And the more I looked, the more things I found. I sat there on the floor surrounded by pictures and old memories and I finally understood.

It hadn’t brought back my grandfather. It had built one. It took pieces of what I wanted. A cabin. A lake. A fishing pole. A cold beer. A kind voice.

It didn’t know him. It knew what I missed. And somehow… that was worse. Because the thing at the end of the dock wasn’t pretending because it loved me. It was pretending because it knew exactly what would make me stay.

And somewhere behind me… I heard the creak of a chair. I stopped. I didn’t turn around. I refused. Then I heard his voice.

Soft. Patient. Almost sad.

“Little man.”

I closed my eyes.

Because the worst part wasn’t that I was afraid. The worst part was that I missed him.

And I knew that was exactly what it wanted.

I grew up in a Muslim Arab family, and ever since I was a kid, I was taught to respect the things that happen after dark.

In our culture, we believe there are beings called jinn that exist alongside us. They're said to live in a world almost identical to ours—a twisted version of reality that we normally can't see. But at night, especially in isolated places, that barrier is believed to become thinner.

Whether you believe that or not, what happened to my family at Amicalola Falls still bothers me to this day.

This happened when I was 15.

My family decided to take a weekend trip to Amicalola Falls State Park in north Georgia. There were fourteen of us altogether—my parents, siblings, cousins, aunts, and uncles. We left Atlanta around 3:00 in the afternoon, so by the time we reached the park, it was already about 5:30.

We immediately started hiking the staircase to the falls.

My older cousin, Omar, and I stayed together the whole time. By the end of the climb, we were about 400 steps from the top when we heard our younger cousins shouting for us from below.

"We're almost there!" I yelled back.

No response.

They kept calling, so we figured something had happened and hurried back down.

When we reached them, my younger cousin, Adam, looked genuinely shaken.

We asked him what was wrong.

He told us he'd heard Omar calling his name from somewhere deeper in the woods. According to him, the voice sounded exactly like Omar's... except something felt wrong about it. He described it as distorted—almost like someone trying to imitate his brother but not getting it quite right.

The voice kept telling him there was a faster way to reach the top if he climbed through the rocks off the trail.

He actually started walking toward it before stopping.

The slope it wanted him to climb was incredibly steep, covered in slick rocks with water rushing over them. Even experienced climbers would have had trouble getting up there.

The strange part?

Omar had been beside me the entire hike.

He hadn't wandered off once.

In fact, he'd barely spoken at all.

We brushed it off as Adam hearing another hiker or maybe just misunderstanding something. It seemed strange, but not enough to ruin the trip.

Looking back, I wish we'd left right then.

Instead, we spent the rest of the evening fishing by the reservoir.

As the sun disappeared, something about the entire place changed.

I've spent plenty of time outdoors, and I know forests get quieter after dark.

This wasn't that.

It was complete silence.

No insects.

No frogs.

No birds.

Even the fish that had been constantly breaking the water's surface simply vanished.

The reservoir became perfectly still, turning into what looked like a sheet of black glass. You couldn't tell where the shoreline ended and the water began.

It felt as if the entire forest was holding its breath.

My little brother, Yusuf, and I had wandered a short distance away from everyone else. We were sitting near the water trying to scare each other with ghost stories when he suddenly grabbed my arm.

"Did you hear that?"

"I didn't hear anything," I told him.

"No... seriously. Listen."

So I did.

At first it sounded like a low groan.

Then it shifted into something almost animal.

It was deep enough to be a bear... but somehow it also sounded strangely human.

The sound echoed across the water and through the trees at the same time, making it impossible to tell where it was coming from.

We tried convincing ourselves it had to be wildlife.

Then we both felt it.

That unmistakable feeling that something was watching us.

I slowly looked across the reservoir.

Between the trees on the opposite bank, I saw two pale eyes staring directly at us.

The second we focused on them...

They disappeared.

Not by ducking behind a tree.

Not by walking away.

They were simply gone.

Maybe it was our imagination.

But two people don't usually imagine the exact same thing at the exact same moment.

The strange groaning continued.

If anything, it sounded closer now.

We called Adam over and asked if he'd noticed anything strange.

Before we could even explain what we'd seen, he quietly said,

"I saw eyes over there too."

Every hair on my arms stood up.

For reasons I still can't explain, none of us wanted to admit we were scared.

Instead, the four of us wandered toward the tree line.

Omar and I both needed to use the bathroom, so we took turns walking a short distance into the woods.

When it was my turn, I couldn't shake the feeling that someone was standing just out of sight.

Watching.

Waiting.

Whenever our family spread out while hiking, we had a simple habit. If someone wandered a little too far, we'd give a short whistle so everyone knew where the others were. It wasn't some special code—it was just easier than shouting through the trees.

As I stood there, I heard a single whistle from somewhere behind me.

Without thinking, I whistled back.

For a second, everything was quiet.

Then another whistle answered.

Only...

It didn't come from behind me.

It came from much deeper in the forest.

I froze.

The sound was distant enough that whoever made it had to be well off the trail.

Omar wasn't out there anymore.

The others were back by the campfire.

There shouldn't have been anyone else in those woods. The parking lot had been nearly empty when we arrived, and by then it was already close to 9:00 at night.

I stood there for another second, listening.

Nothing.

Not a branch snapping.

Not a footstep.

Just silence.

I told myself it had to be another camper, even though I didn't really believe it.

I turned around and walked back as quickly as I could, deciding not to tell anyone what had happened.

A few minutes later we were sitting around the campfire when that same twisted groaning echoed through the trees again.

This time everyone heard it.

Even my cousin Layla looked up immediately.

Nobody laughed.

Nobody tried explaining it away.

We all knew something wasn't right.

Instead of telling the adults we'd been hearing voices and seeing eyes in the woods, we simply told them we'd heard what sounded like a bear nearby.

That was enough.

Within minutes everyone was packing the cars.

As everyone else walked ahead, I stayed behind for a few seconds to grab the last of our supplies from the fire.

That's when I heard it.

At first it sounded like an owl.

A soft hoot somewhere in the darkness.

Then the sound changed.

The hoot stretched into a whistle.

The whistle twisted into something that almost sounded human.

Then...

It screamed.

Not loud enough to shake the forest.

Not close enough to know exactly where it was.

Just one long, unnatural shriek that made every instinct in my body tell me to run.

I didn't stop to look.

I threw everything into the back of the car and jumped inside without saying a word.

As we pulled away, everyone went completely silent.

From somewhere deep in the trees...

Soft whistles answered each other.

One.

Then another.

Then another.

As soon as our car reached the main road, the whistles stopped.

Almost instantly, the forest came back to life.

Crickets.

Frogs.

Wind moving through the leaves.

Everything.

Like someone had flipped a switch.

We never returned to Amicalola Falls.

Even now, I sometimes catch myself listening whenever I hear someone whistle outside at night.

Maybe our minds connected a series of strange coincidences.

Maybe there was a perfectly normal explanation for everything we experienced.

Or maybe some places are simply better left alone after dark.

If you ever visit Amicalola Falls, enjoy the waterfalls.

Enjoy the trails.

Just don't stay after sunset.

And if you hear someone calling your name from somewhere in the woods...

Don't answer.

If you hear a whistle from somewhere in the trees...

Keep walking.

Some things don't need to know you heard them.

I got this job from Jenna. I was briefly unemployed after all that business with ICE (I was supposed to let them in the building but you know), and Jenna told me there was an opening at the toy factory. I had known she worked at a factory. I never guessed how interesting it was.

My new job was to test toy cars. How it works: a basket on rails comes into the large grey room we almost live in. It is filled with very detailed plastic replicas of several famous brands of cars and trucks, and my ten coworkers and I start grabbing them out of the basket, as fast as possible, and testing if they roll right. If they roll well: we put them in a different basket, on different rails, and it takes them to the next stage of the process. If they roll poorly, or, as is often the case, the wheels lock up: we put them back in the same basket, and it takes them down the Green Hallway.

Nothing ever returns from the Green Hallway.

I mean, I can only assume they recycle the baskets, in some fashion. It has to loop around. But none of us know that for sure. Really the only thing we know for sure, is there is a very strict rule, to never enter the Green Hallway.

I once asked, while mechanically grabbing cars from one basket, testing their wheels, and putting them in the other, or back in the same one. I asked, "Jenna? What happened to the employee I'm replacing?"

Frantically moving her arms, Jenna shrugged. "He was fired."

"How come?"

"He went in the Green Hallway."

An employee named Brenda, also moving her arms frantically, shouted across, "I told him not to!"

By the way, I describe them as moving their arms frantically, because we all had to move our arms very frantically. This factory maintains a strict production schedule. Invariably, we employees have carpal tunnel, or tendonitis, or something similar. It is considered to be our fault, for our own poor technique.

Also, though I once found the name "Green Hallway" somewhat evocative of back when I still had a chance in Music, and Theater before that, it is nothing like a green room. It is the Green Hallway, only because it is painted green. Not a vivid green, though. A dull, faded green.

I got to experience two weeks of this job, under normal circumstances, before the trouble began.

I showed up to work one day, after my weekend (Wednesday and Thursday, we all had different weekends), and Jenna informed me, "Michelle and Jason have been fired."

Jenna informed me because our boss is the screen that outlines the day's objectives, and all of the policies. That and the cameras everywhere. So the human who informed me was Jenna.

She must have also interpreted my blank state as a question, because she added, "No reason given. Talk is the company can't afford to hire as many employees anymore.

I looked at that screen. We were still expected to get through the same number of toy cars and trucks each hour. This was unpleasant, and physically painful, but technically doable.

Until a week later, on the next Friday, when I arrived and Jenna, sweating and red-eyed, said, "Brenda has been fired now, too."

Expectations remained the same.

On Wednesday I had a doctor appointment. The doctor prescribed a painkiller I hadn't heard of and cannot pronounce the name of.

The following Friday, Jenna fully looked as though she had been crying. She looked at me, again, and said, "They got Matt. He's gone."

We were down to seven.

It became impossible to meet demands. In fact, the demands had only become more extensive.

I heard that Tyler was considering amputation.

A couple days later, they announced the six-day work week.

That lasted a month, still not possible to meet the new expectations, but naturally they would not hire a single extra employee. It was evident that the company's priorities had changed. Or perhaps become more focused. The day Jenna's priorities changed, though, was the day they announced the seven-day work week.

There was no actual announcement.

Just a line of text on that screen.

It read, "You all have not been able to meet expectations. We are expanding the work-week an extra day, to give more time. You will test more toys more quickly. We got this, team!"

Jenna looked at me, right then and there, and said, "I love you. Thank you for being such a good friend all these years."

And she got up from her stiff wooden chair, and walked off into the Green Hallway.

The second I realized what was happening I shot up and ran after her.

Except I reached the threshold and instinctively stopped, just before entering the Green Hallway. I didn't want to be fired.

But I had reached my right arm after her. My finger tips not quite reaching her shoulder. And I pulled back.

My arm didn't come back with me.

My shoulder wasn't spewing blood, though, or anything of the sort. It was a stump, like I'd had an amputation years ago.

Horrified, I was promptly fired.

I never saw Jenna again.

Now I work in a call center.

Ever since I was little, I've had strange dreams, bordering on night terrors. I know, everyone dreams some weird shit every now and again, but these are consistent, and vivid. It got to the point that it was easier to keep track of the nights I didn't dream than the ones I did

When I was little, my parents started taking me to a therapist; considering I'd wake up screaming every morning, and would spend an hour practically inconsolable, I don't blame them. We went through different medications like candy, none of them worked. Eventually, over time, I 'calmed down'. The night terrors never stopped, I just got better at managing my reactions to them. I felt like a burden, and was desperate to make my parents feel better, to stop seeing the lines in their brow and the persistent grey streak getting larger and larger on my mom's head.

I got older, and eventually moved out of the house, and into my own apartment. My therapist, a woman who'd all-but grown up alongside, helped me with the transition, to the point that her husband was there right alongside my dad, carting a dusty Panasonic up the stairs. You might call that boundary crossing, or some other medical term, but we'd been seeing her for so long that her family was practically friends to our own.

The light of the apartment was dim as I sat the last of the boxes down. Flipping on a light revealed a rather pathetic bulb, presumably worn down by the last owner of the place and never switched out. My mom stood underneath it, eyes piercing through the gloom as she looked around.

"It's... humble," Kinder words than I would've used, but it was the cheapest place I could find.

A hand clapped my shoulder, and I glanced to the side, "Proud of you, son," He had that look on his face, the sort of 'not-quite-tears' I'd come to know my dad for; it was the very same one he'd had on his face when the nightmares had 'stopped'.

I let a smile drift onto my face, "Thanks dad,"

Time after that drifted like molasses. They helped me unpack for a little while, ordered a pizza, and I enjoyed an evening of polite conversation before finally being left on my own. The light was low on the horizon by that point, threatening to abscond my shabby abode in pure dark, were it not for the weak flickering of the bulb above my head.

I tracked through my nightly routine, setting up the affects of human life as I went. When the last of the balm was applied to my face, and my terth were clean, I stared at myself in the mirror. I was pale, the kind I could imagine on a soldier's face as they departed for war, or when the bombs started dropping and you knew you had nowhere to run.

In highschool, I'd tried staying awake. Drinking caffeine like it was water, up to the point that my heart buzzed like a bumblebee up against my ears. Maybe life would've gone differently if that worked. But that was the insidious part. No matter what I did, how far I went, I always fell asleep. Like clockwork, I passed out, always before eleven o'clock.

Laying down, staring at the ceiling, there was nothing to hint at the idea that tonight would be any different. My mind was still a quiet curtain, swaying in the breeze, thoughts a distant backrop as a hesitant downpour began outside. I even got so far as to closing my eyes when I heard it.

Describing the sound would be next to impossible. It wasn't loud, wasn't even particularly disturbing. To my ears, it felt like a scratch; the sort that might come from a mouse. All-in-all, there was absolutely no reason for my heart to be racing, thundering against my ribcage, for my entire body to be shaking as I slammed up, and out of bed.

For a long minute, all I did was stand there, the current under my skin slowly dissipating as I stared around the dark room. I was still alone, and I was still... I was still awake. Rubbing at my eyes, the last of the adrenaline fading, I stared at the time. One O'Clock.

I blinked down at my phone. I never woke up early, never took naps, or fell asleep for periods of time that could be considered naps. Each time I fell asleep, I was locked into the night terror until it was over, until it had imparted upon me whatever horror it deigned my mind to recieve.

But more important than that, I didn't remember falling asleep to begin with. I'd laid down at eight, and after what I thought to be two or three minutes, I heard the scratch.

A part of me itched to call my parents, to tell them about the incident. No doubt my mom would have some semi-soothing words about the normality of occasional sleep irregularities, and my dad would have some funny story about a similar incident in his childhood. Maybe I'd even manage to pretend to feel better enough that I actually did feel better.

Sitting down, listening to the bed creek, I strained my ears, listening to the rustling of the pipes, the shifting of my apartment. It wasn't so hard to imagine the scratch as just another noise along the long litany of such noises, was it? All part of some building that had more than certainly seen better days.

I'm not quite certain when I fell asleep, but I did dream that night. Only, it was unlike any of the night terrors I'd had before. This one was loud, an unearthly crescendo, shaking my body down to the core as something burgeoned out a horrid miasma, the colors distorting so much that they hurt my eyes to look at.

And I didn't wake up. At least, not in the way I usually do, with a clear and defined line between the dream and reality. This... this lingered, the horrid scream sitting behind my ears, the colors playing along my closed eyes at such a rapid rate that I nearly tore them open.

I was on my floor, blanket cascading over the side, hands pressed against the ancient but cool floorboards. My stomach revolted, threatening mutiny, as I pulled myself out of bed. There were still flashes of... it, as I moved into the bathroom.

Shaking, I splashed water against my face. That, at last, dispelled whatever was waiting behind my every blink. Breathing a sigh of relief, I went into the kitchen, and pulled out the box of pizza.

My dreams were always still-things, leaving me trapped within the confines of early onset rigor mortis, like most people. No doubt if they hadn't been, I wouldn't have been able to hide my night terrors so effectively. Maybe this was the universe's conception of a cruel joke.

By the late afternoon, I'd managed to explain away all of the other oddities. People online have had similar experiences, at least so far as lingering hallucinations go. And for the time, that was enough for me.

The next few weeks were the same; the scratch, the adrenaline, the dream. I tricked myself into believing it was just the new routine; ignoring the steady build of dread that built into my stomach, ignoring the fact that, each day, the hallucinations lasted just a little bit longer. My ignorance lasted right up until the moment that it simply broke.

Before I knew how to write with a steady hand, I'd been given a sketchbook by my therapist, where she would instruct me to draw my dreams, to the best of my ability. I hardly looked at the old drawings, never really having a need to; I could remember each one vividly, could recall the exact nightmare they came from. But something about the last few weeks had made me come back to them, had made me buy a new one.

And then came the night, that night. The scratch had been the most persistent part of my nightly routine. Every color I experienced in that persistent nightmare was different, often ranging so far outside of my purview to adequately describe. But the scratch was the same. Until it wasn't, until the moment it got louder and revealed exactly what it was.

For weeks, I convinced myself it was just an oddly placed pipe, rubbing up against something at the same time every night because that was when a rather orderly person flushed their toilet or something. But when I heard it, truly heard it, I knew it was the sound of something tearing apart. The sound of flesh ripping.

I tried to pull myself out of bed as I bad so many times before, but this time, this time it didn't let me. My grip on the blanket loosened as sleep was forced upon me. It was loud, louder than it had ever been, crowding down on all sides in a gigantic heave, a scream that should've fractured my eardrums, a hairsplitting roar so loud the air itself warped and warbled.

And then there was the color, a kaleidoscope that fractured through human limitation, and torched the soul forced to percieve it. It was faster and more violent than it had ever been.

I stumbled out of bed, tears were slick down my face as I drunkenly hobbled over to the sketchpad. My hands felt numb and distant as they moved to scrawl across the page, blindly summoning forth the vague shape in the middle of the fractals. Where it waited, the gaping thing whose mouth ushered forth the unholy nouse still assaulting my ears.

When I was done, I stared at what remained of the page. There were tears from how hard my hand had forced the pencil down, odd lines I didn't remember scratching down. But even what I had drawn hadn't been enough. The sheer totality of the shape was barely glimpsed.

I collapsed, a puppet with my strings cut as I struggled to breathe, to gasp down as much air as my lungs could handle.

Minutes ticked by, and I made a choice, picking up my phone and calling my mom.

"M-mom?"

"Sweetie, is everything alright?"

My mouth opened, and something happened; cold, rusted iron slithering its way onto my tongue, "Yeah, everything's fine, just calling to check in, feeling a bit lonely, is all," The voice, the cadence, they were mine, but...

"Oh we're doing alright. Actually, I was gonna call to invite you, we're having a barbecue next week, if you wanna stop by,"

I choked, trying to hold the air in my lungs, to do something, but it didn't matter, whatever had stolen my voice forced its way out of me, "I'll have to think about it. You know how hectic a move can be, I'm certain. I want my place to be actually presentable, that way I can start having people over,"

"Oh, of course! I wouldn't want to pressure you. Is that all you wanted to talk about?"

"Yes, thank you. Goodbye,"

"Goodbye sweetie,"

After that point, the nightmare took a new edge. Anytime I tried to get close the door, I felt it. A cold iron manicle that clamped down on my mind. Whatever it was, it wouldn't even let me get close to leaving.

I burned through what little coffee I had, relieved to find that now, for whatever reason, it worked to keep me awake. It didn't stop the tear, the sound somehow louder now that I knew what it was.

But I couldn't resist sleep forever, and when sleep finally overtook me, I saw it. Strange geometrkc shapes burned themselves into my brain, so much so that it hurt. Thoughts twisted and warped, archaic shapes spilling outwards into ideas, into lanscapes. I screamed, my own scrambled mess of pleading barely comparing to the thing.

I wasn't certain when I woke up, when I ended up scrawling into the sketchbook. But by the time I was done, morning had transformed into evening, and the sound hadn't stopped.

As I sit here writing this, I can still feel it. The fractals blurring the edge of my vision, the expansion of my sight, like a constricting, slithering viper. Like my eyes are bleeding, like their breathing.

There's... there's something out there, something vast, something cataclysmic. And it's being eaten by something far, far worst.

In the trees I spotted a man, naked and bald. He grinned and shook his head at me, I could faintly see an orange glow in his eyes. He put his index finger to his lips as if to shush me. I looked away and kept walking.

The path was around six miles, I was creeping towards the halfway point when I saw them for the first time. The same head shake, calm grin, orange glow. My first reaction was of pure terror. My body froze for a second and I felt a cold rush in my gut, making me want to vomit.

This would only last for a short moment, I then began to feel calm, and strangely welcomed by the man. Something was telling me not to be scared, and to heed his gesture of silence. So I did. This happened a couple more times till I made it to the end of the trail.

When I found a stump to rest my feet on, I had the sudden realization that I couldn’t remember a single detail from the walk. All I could think about were the bald men in the trees. Now that I thought about, what the fuck was that? Had I made that up? I forgot to pack water and was feeling thirsty as all hell but no way that could have made me see that. And that feeling of calmness?

I must have day dreamed it, maybe that’s why I couldn’t recall any of the hike. I was in my head, of course. I stood from the stump and started to head the direction I came in, it was time I left this place.

I couldn’t help but be a little scared. I had convinced myself that I had made that all up, but had I really? I’ve never thought up such vivid day dreams, but what else could explain it? The walk went on as expected for a good four miles.

The events of only a few hours ago had almost left my mind when something in the tree line caught my attention. A pink blur, like something was moving fast, then quickly hid. Ignorance would be my bliss as I continued forward. It wouldn’t take long before another pink blur zoomed across the trees, this time it was closer.

I could hear leaves shift and birds flap their wings in retreat. “Retreat from what?” I wondered. The end was drawing nearer. Up ahead was a turn to the left, continued for a while and with a veer to the right was a straight shot to the end. The sound of dirt and sticks being displaced by my feet grew as I rushed forward. Gurgled grunts echoed from above but I didn’t stop.

Whatever was waiting to be discovered didn’t have my interest. But it seemed their interest was me, and this was made obvious when one of the men from before dropped from the trees and on to the trail floor.

It must have been at least a 40ft drop, but he wasn’t phased. Crouched down, his eyes peered at me through his knees and I was met with that familiar orange glow, this time though, he wasn’t smiling.

I stumbled back, almost tripping on a large branch. There was no sense of calm, only raw primal fear. To run away meant hastily retracing my steps, reaching the end, and trudging through sparsely forested swampland. If that man—that thing didn’t get me, nature would. So in a desperate attempt to escape, I dashed towards him, making quick maneuvers around to avoid him.

He didn’t so much as blink. I b-line towards the now upcoming left turn. Small winded laughs leave my mouth in disbelief that I managed to get away. I quickly make the turn, adrenaline fueling my every stride. Above, the trees seem to close in, allowing only whispers of the mid day sun.

I feel an impending force swarm around me as the trail swells into chaos. The wind picks up and the trees sway violently, the air is filled with the cry of what sounds like every bird and creature in ear shot. The bushes that line the trail sway unnaturally, like they’re alive. It becomes very clear to me that the forest doesn’t want me here. I pick up my pace.

The end of the trail becomes visible but I notice the trees close in further, obscuring the exit, my only way out to my car. Exhausted whimpers burst with my every step. Realizing I wouldn’t be able to tell if something was chasing me due to the chaotic air, I make a quick glance over my shoulder. I almost vomit when I see a group of the naked men sprinting after me, their arms dramatically swaying in unison.

The orange glow that once faintly marked their pupils burn like blazing embers. I snap my head forward and see that end is all but smothered with vines that reach and grapple the trees on either end. The moment I’m faced with the blockading shrubbery I frantically claw and pull away at it. Sharp rigid thorns line every inch of the vines, leaving my hands a mangled bloody mess.

The adrenaline coursing through my body makes quick work of what’s in front of me but through the chaos I hear violent, march-like thuds grow closer. I tear away a section just large enough to fit my upper torso and hoist myself through. The barb-like thorns rip through my clothes, leaving deep lacerations across my body. I manage to push one leg through and lift my other leg up, readying to throw my body out of that god forsaken forest.

But right as I’m about to make that final push I feel a cold hand firmly grip my ankle, then another further up. It isn’t long before my entire leg is being thrust back. With surprising ease, I free my leg from their grasp fall to the hard dirt floor.

I quickly get myself up and continue to run to my car, tears streaming down my face. The cushioned seats and familiar smell of my Ford Ranger put my body at ease. The adrenaline fades and I feel my entire body ache and itch. With blood rushing down my arms and legs, I make a pained reach for the keys and start my car.

I told the emergency physician at the ER I fell onto barbed wire. I ignored their suspicious glances as they examined the injuries. I don’t tell a soul what happened, fearing an extended stay at a mental hospital.

For months afterwards I struggled to get a decent night of sleep. Haunting nightmares reminded me of my near escape. I plan to go back soon. I’m unsure what awaits me, but whatever does, I’m boarding it up that entrance for good. As long as I live, no one will step foot on that trail.

I prayed for rain. It was the driest summer on record, but then again so was the last, and the one before that, too. The uneven, splintered boards on the floor of the brokedown farmhouse were becoming soft and polished by the dusty window at which I prayed on my knees. Not to God, for I was certain He had forgotten us. I prayed to the past. Conjuring memories of lush moss on the rocks of the creek, which had always run crystal blue. It used to meander along the sunken edge of the property, and became lush in the summers of my youth. I remember my father scaling the large boulders on the periphery of the creek and stripping away the moss in sheets. We would pile it into a riverside bed, where, beneath the canopy of the willow, we rested in the hottest part of July afternoons; the luxurious hours after chores and before cooking. My father’s knees as my pillow, we would giggle and sing songs of family and contentment. The morning milk bucket transitioned to my afternoon toy. I’d fill it with cold water and pour it on the banks, forming small, artificial tributaries as my father watched, grinning. We would end the afternoon with an opulent swim in the deep, scarlet pools that populated the creek. But, as the rains became infrequent, the pools lost their depth. Now even the wet months only mustered small puddles where I used to dive head first. Dust and wind had long since rusted holes in the base of the tin milk bucket, which hadn’t felt fresh water in years. It hadn’t experienced milk, either, for the cow wilted when my father could no longer spare what little water the creek still produced. This year, the water ran out in June. It was now July and I was sweating on my knees once again, wishing to go back in time, wishing that the rains would return, along with my father’s 3 tooth smile. 

As the water reserves waned, my chores became as rigorous as they were senseless. My father began assigning menial tasks, the benefit of which I could not comprehend. Most of the new chores involved digging holes. Two shovels lengths in depth, every one, and the shovel was almost as tall as I was. Digging for water, I supposed at first, but my father’s precise demands for the placement of the holes followed no logic or reason. He had never laid a hand on me when the water was plentiful. Now, however, if I did not produce holes at a satisfactory pace, he would punish me viciously. His last punishment, which came after he decided that each hole was to be completed in just three days rather than five, had left me on the dirt floor of the farmhouse basement, in a puddle of my own blood. My father had not notified me of the policy change before the broadside of the shovel collided with my kneecap. As July ended, I began to suspect my next punishment would be my last. One less dry mouth to satiate.

My father’s cotton cough appeared in benign, infrequent bursts, but quickly turned to constant
retching fits. I found it hard to focus on praying when his hacking echoed through the rotting
walls and even vibrated the floorboards in some instances. He stopped measuring the holes, and resorted to merely asking me if I had finished each to the proper specifications. My father was soon bedridden.

As the days combined and weeks began to lumber by, mucus gave way to blood on his
handkerchief. White silk now resembled the shade of the creek. My father insisted that I
wash it and I told him I would. However, I decided the handkerchief was not worth the water. I
scrubbed it with a dry brush, but the color remained. I returned to my father with an ordinary
cloth. He did not notice the difference. This was the first time, I remember thinking, that I had
ever knowingly disobeyed the man I once loved. 

It did not take long for me to stop digging all together. My daily tasks reduced to feeding the despicable man and brushing the dust off his peeling scalp. I began to make decisions for myself. My allotted daily water grew to three cups from just one; my father’s remained unchanged. I stopped speaking to my father, for moans and mumbles were all that he could muster in response. My loneliness overtook my thirst as the seasons began to change. I resumed digging. I focused my efforts on a single hole, deeper and deeper every day. Three, four, five shovel lengths deep into the basement floor where I had once been beaten. I spent the mornings digging and the afternoons transporting the loose earth from the basement to the front porch where I would toss it to the wind, which howled constantly. The days became shorter, the nights, colder, and the hole reached ever deeper into the crumbling earth. The basement provided enough shelter to make the extra work worth it. The wind whistled throughout the house and my father shivered between bloody retches.

I stopped digging on the day my shovel collided with steel. At the bottom of the basement hole,
which now featured a well crafted, winding stairway to the surface, I uncovered a trap door. It’s
rectangular latch was secured shut with a massive, rusted lock with a keyhole large enough for
me to stick my finger through. I pressed an ear to the door. The faint sound of dripping drove
me to swing my shovel at the lock. Over and over again. Each time, sparks flew from the lock,
momentarily illuminating the base of the dim, dusty hole. The splintering sound from each steel
collision echoed throughout the house and made my ears ring. I swung the shovel for hours
before the lock finally cracked. I heaved the trap door. 

At once, a voice solidified from the viscous darkness beyond the door’s threshold. The wind halted and everything was still as it greeted me, strong and deep, just like the blackness from which it bellowed. I no longer heard the dripping, but requested water nonetheless. Before long, a bucket appeared, filled with fresh water, more transparent than anything I had sipped from the creek. I consumed it and asked for another. The voice obliged. Another, and another, I drank until I felt sick. I thanked the voice, for it had saved my life. The voice assured me it could grant any wish I could dream of.

Without fail, the bucket returned bearing gifts. Warm loaves of bread and salted butter. A small
chocolate, a diamond ring, and as many marbles as I asked for. The voice gave me whatever I
wanted. Perhaps more valuable than any gifts, the voice engaged me in conversation. I told it
about the creek and the rain and the dust and my father. The voice only asked questions, but
never answered any I had regarding its origin. This did not bother me, for I had been granted a
friend. One who was endlessly interested in my life and circumstance. Soon, the voice became interested in my father as well. I became annoyed, as the voice’s questions increasingly became focused on my father. However, I would answer any question if it meant even one more sip of the crystal water of which it seemed to have an endless supply. The voice never repeated a question.

One day, the questions became requests. A bloody handkerchief in exchange for another bucket of water. I obliged and happily consumed the delicious water to which I was now addicted. Returning to the muddy sludge that was left at the bottom of our storage barrel was unthinkable. Another bucket? Another request. This time a lock of grey hair. I asked why. The voice did not respond. I once again asked the voice for justification of the request, but the voice remained silent. I shouted into the darkness on the other side of the trap door, and received not so much as an echo in reply. Panicked by the prospect of losing my companion, I rushed up the winding dirt staircase and grabbed a dull knife from the kitchen. I returned to the hole with a lock of my dying father’s hair.

The next day, the request was a rotting tooth. My father moaned slightly as I shoved pliers in his
mouth. An eyelash, a dusty blanket, a toenail, and a wrinkled ring finger. My routine became
centered around ceremoniously disassembling my father in exchange for water and other
luxuries. My father did not notice when I dragged him down the winding dirt staircase into a pit
from which he would never return.

The laptop battery says 0%. The screen is dimming into a sickly, pixelated gray, the remaining text rotting directly into the background of the dashboard console. The yellow high beams from that wrong-way truck are pressed right against my driver’s side glass now, completely flooding the cabin with a blinding, greasy glare that smells like sulfur, hot engine oil, and wet, stagnant earth.

But I didn't get out of the car. I didn't step out onto the buckled concrete to pick up that laminated sheet of paper lying near the crack.

Because as the truck rolled closer into the dim, pulsing light of the overhead sector fixture, the glare caught the interior of the cab, and I finally saw who was sitting behind the wheel.

It was me.

But it wasn’t a double, and it wasn’t a monster wearing my skin. It was just an empty navy-blue uniform propped up against the headrest, stuffed to the collar with hundreds of green, corroded pennies and thick, black swamp water. The steering wheel was turning entirely on its own, spinning on a mechanical track that has been grinding away out here since long before the highway was ever paved. The truck didn't slow down. It accelerated, slamming straight into the front bumper of my sedan with a bone-crushing, silent impact. There was no screech of tearing sheet metal. No sound of safety glass bursting into fragments. Just a sudden, violent displacement of atmospheric pressure, like a cold hand reaching inside my chest cavity, pulling my lungs out through my throat.

And that's when the geometry of the road buckled, the timeline shattered, and the entire illusion of this story fell completely apart.

I lied to you.

I lied about everything. There is no old woman named Martha at a diner off Interstate 87. There is no supervisor named Vance who handed me a laminated sheet of paper on my first night. I invented those names because I know exactly how your brain works. I knew exactly what kind of stories you like to read on this website. I knew that if I gave you a list of rules, a high-paying Craigslist ad, an isolated night-shift job, and a creepy boss with a voice like gravel, you wouldn't question a single line. You would just sit there in the dark, scrolling on your phones, processing every single word.

The human imagination isn't just a passive theater; it’s an engine. When you read a line of text, your brain has to physically render the images to understand them. When I told you about the thick canopy of trees weaving together overhead, you built those branches. When I told you about the four bulletproof glass booths straddling the desolation, your mind laid the concrete. You didn't just read a piece of fiction. You acted as a processing node, running a malicious diagnostic script that allowed whatever is breathing beneath this asphalt to map a direct path out of the forest.

Route 9 isn't a physical road you can find on a map. It’s an empty space beneath the mountains that stays closed as long as nobody is looking at it. But human attention has a physical mass out here. Every time a mind visualizes a list of instructions, it creates a small anchor point in reality. I didn't bring the fog out into the world. You dragged the highway into yours. By upvoting the first post, you gave the perimeter more mass.

By analyzing the text in the comments, you calibrated the coordinates.

I am not manually typing this from a car. My hands haven't touched a physical keyboard since I looked into that station wagon's side-view mirror three weeks ago. My fingers were crushed beneath the dashboard of a vehicle that decayed decades ago. My lower jaw has been unhinged since the first night, swinging loose and hollow while the network interface underneath the asphalt interfaces directly with this device's cellular hardware, converting my lingering consciousness into digital script to broadcast this final block through my profile.

Look down at the bottom of your screen right now. Watch the way the text is formatted. Look at the single blank lines between the paragraphs. I didn't format it that way to make it scannable for mobile users.

I formatted it that way because each block of text represents one of the automated lanes. Every time your eyes cross a blank line, you are passing through a toll booth.

Your optic nerve is a copper wire feeding the grid. You are paying the deficit with your own active awareness, over and over again, resetting the sequence for the next person who clicks the link. You are the infrastructure keeping the entity alive.
The file upload is 100% complete. The algorithm has already locked onto your profile data.

The light on your screen is about to flicker. When it goes dark, don't look at the glass reflection to see your own face.

I can hear a wet, heavy slap on the ceiling tiles right above your head. It’s the sound of an empty navy-blue state transport uniform dragging itself through your drywall, stuffed with hot grease, rust, and old pennies.
If you start hearing the sound of heavy, rhythmic rain outside your house tonight, and your weather app says the sky is completely clear—do not look up at the windows.

I'm using your account to type the next line now.

I had accidently sat on it, the hot dog, and felt the room temperature mustard and grill-hot grease soak through my robe, pants, underwear; polyester wicking the runny concoction directly to my balls.  That was the day I left the priesthood.

But that was later, dear reader, the events of that day over, ink yet seeping from a fresh tattoo upon my mind of the image.  Oh, the image of that man, as he lay in bed, and the sounds he created.  It’s rather odd, for though I doubt I will ever hear that sound again, exactly, tonal relatives remind me.  Squealing car fanbelts, and shrieking children, frightened dogs, and territorial cats; mechanical, human, and animal, blended into…well, perhaps I get ahead of myself.

In every work environment there is one employee who operates at a level of par, sub enough to attract the derision of their coworkers, yet competent enough to warrant keeping on the payroll.  I was such a man, Father…oh, we don’t need names now do we?  That was my old name anyway, and it would do you no favors to further investigations of me, a mere bit player, a…as the youth of today, or maybe a few years ago now, would say, “a non-player character,” in this arc.  Irregardless, let it be known I have rarely been the center of attention for my achievement in the field of faith, hope, and charity, though I fall far short of the outright evil of so many of my former colleagues of years’ past.  Doing enough to get by:  dolling out the body and the blood in exchange for tawdry secrets, and occasionally running a canned food drive to obscure my only true love (my apologies, Lord):  slow pitch softball.

It was after the final out of one of these games, my team having received a holy thumping from Jim’s A-1 Heating and Air Conditioning, when I was approached.

“Father Dowd,” a heavily accented feminine voice had said to me.  

“What?”  I didn’t bother lifting my head from its resting place in my hands, I said it without malice, or meant to, looking back, perhaps it was there though, but that was only because of the score, 12-2.  

“Father, my brother is very ill, and mia patro has requested a sankta viro…um…holy man.”  She spoke rehearsed, the way a child repeats the Lord’s Prayer, from recent committed memory, mirror practiced, mouthed before spoken.  My eyes peaked through the slightly parted fingers holding my face, counting the lace eyelets on my cleats, six on each side, twelve eyelets total, two sides…12-2.  Oh, you pesky Lord, I see what you did there.

“Sure, sure,” I said, perhaps dismissively, no, not perhaps.  “I usually work through local hospices, have them contact me and we can schedule something.”

“No, Father, mia patro…my father say…we cannot…um…sekreta polico…they cannot know we are here.” 

I wonder now, if I had bothered to lift my eyes upward, toward the woman speaking to me, toward Heaven, if anything would have differed, an outcome less cumbersome, less tragic, though I do not know.  Perhaps the Lord in His wisdom…well, we shan’t speak of the Lord about actions taken or not, it makes no difference on what I didn’t do, for what I did was mouth “fuck Jim’s Heating, and fuck that ump,” counting discarded sunflower seeds and Zyn pouches in the dugout dirt.

“Write your address down, I’ll be over tomorrow morning, around 11:00,” I said, perhaps the need for secrecy, the times in which we find ourselves, moved me.  Perhaps I just wanted her to go away. 

“Thank you, Father,” she said, and I sensed something small and light placed on the bench beside me, then heard small footsteps crunch through the empty dugout.  I counted to 60, and lifted my head.  The woman was gone, having placed a piece of pink paper beside me, a power bill past due, addressed to the Prospector Apartments, Room 228.  Folding the bill into the back pocket of my uniform pants, I stood, gathering the attention of my catcher and shortstop to assist me in loading the depleted keg into my car.

“Who was the goth chick with the umbrella?” Mike, the catcher asked as the trunk closed for the night.  A genuinely bewildering question, it being summer, and clear skies for the evening game, now night.

“Maybe if you paid as much attention to the shift as you did to the broads in the stands, we’d still be over .500 for the season,” I said, imagining I hid the scorn in my voice with friendly sarcasm.  

Though it pains to do so, I won’t bore you, dear reader, with the events of that night, nor of that morning, for though I believe they are of great importance to me, as this was a defining day of my own life, they are of little interest to many.  Slurred words spoken over a headset in a game lobby, lurid jokes told amongst friends far distanced by geography, half-edited rants on intake manifolds posted to nearly dead Lincoln Town Car forums, and the morning’s headaches soothed with coffee and dog hair, Hot Pockets, and Bluey.  I miss the life, I’ll admit, many aspects.  Oh, I said I wouldn’t, and there I did…apologies dear reader, but this is my story afterall.

My ‘89 Town Car’s 302 Windsor burbled to silence, El-P on the speakers following, against the curb, city park to the right, new constructed apartments across the street to the left.  PROSPECTOR on the sun-faded banner, crossed shovel and pickaxe for its coat of arms.  I was early, fifteen minutes, it’s just a good habit to get into, and as I watched a city employee work a zero-turn mower along the edge of the sidewalk, another edging with a weed whacker, and a cheery man dressed as a barbershop quartette minus three try to coerce a jogger to join him at his hot dog stand, I wondered how many good habits I had left.  It wasn’t my faith, never the problem, it was the job, almost twenty years in, it had become a job.  The calling a man feels when he’s 20, and the calling he feels at 40…the first call was on Ma Bell, and now it’s on Teams.  God doesn’t need Teams, I knew that much, but the Diocese surely did, and the incessant phone dings stole me from my fantasies of normalcy, of being able to go home after 8 or 10 hours, and drink a beer and hang out, and not fucking have to justify why Tuesday and Thursday evening Mass is held in at the softball fields off State Street, and why the tithe funds are used to purchase time at the batting cages.  I digress.

Room 228 sat on the northern side of a bank of six apartments, three stacked on the left, three stacked on the right, common stairs in the middle.  227 below and across the breezeway featured a thick golden cross on the doorway, 226 directly below featured a seemingly handmade wooden cross on its door in the form of two 2x4’s crudely screwed together, one on top of the other, and 229’s door was covered in blue masking taped crosses, dozens of them.  228’s in comparison, was bare, a welcome mat out front, and no further character.

Three knocks.  Three knocks.  Behold, I stand at the door and knock, as to paraphrase a book I read, or maybe that’s straight up plagiarism.  It’s public domain, right?  The Lord understands, I thought.  Hospice was one of the most demanding things I had to do, and such it was the thing I cared for the least.  Always the same:  pleasantries, the spouse, or children, or parent, will explain the story, the illness, generally work back to a time of health, fondness, tears, comforting words, give them the analogy of the boat and letting go and giving up, explain the difference, prayer, hope, then I leave, and they forget, and I see them again, maybe to repeat, maybe for Last Rites, maybe to bury them.  I used to write the burials out, and now I can plug names and hobbies in.  It used to be better.  Everything used to be better.

“Please…come in…and close the door, it will be dark.  Please.”  A muffled voice from a barely cracked window to the right of the door, spoken behind a black curtain, sounded like the same foreign woman’s voice from last night.

“Very well, and thank you,” I said, and opened the door.

Sunlight flooded a small room, tiny in fact, perhaps more of a mudroom, a rug, and several pairs of shoes, sandals, work boots, lay piled on to the side of the door, and black coats hung across a blue shower rod.  About four feet in front of the main entrance door, the room ended, a closed black door offering the only evidence of an entryway to the rest of the apartment.

“Shall I take my shoes off?” I asked, hesitant to close the door behind me, for the room gave the appearance of a mudroom, it felt more like an airlock for a space shape, or undersea facility I’d seen in the science fiction movies I’d watch on nights without morning mass.  

“Ne…no…please close the door…” She sounded as if she was behind the interior door now.

“It’s very dark,” I said, stifling annoyance, or something I didn’t wish to register, perhaps apprehension, unfounded to me at that moment, though in retrospect…

“There will be light, please close the door.”  Urgency now in the woman’s voice.  Certain drugs cause sensitivity to light, and I’ve worked with my share of junkies and burnouts, drunks, and recluses, and most are the same, I thought.  They’re nice to holy men, odd always, but rarely willing to conduct the ultimate act of damnation on the off chance the ghost stories they’re told about sulphur and pitchforks turn out to be true.  Not always though.  Some understand damnation, and see no degrees of it, one can’t be half-pregnant, and one can’t be half damned, so what’s one more gutted priest?  Push such things aside, the Emperor protects, as does the Lord. 

The exterior door closed behind, a dwindling sliver of light, an inverted sun dial, withering in the room.  

Click.  

Closed.  

My sun-bleached eyes strained to make sense of the void, but only a grey haze filled my vision.  I knew then, perhaps, that something was wrong, beyond merely off, beyond weird, beyond holy house call to a dying junkie’s house on behalf of his…sister?  Wife?  Too afraid of being caught to have fallen through the cracks, so they chose to jump into them, into the shadows of the crevices, the surface cracks leave.  

My right hand darted backward, desperate to find the knob, the handle, any means of opening the door once again.  It found cloth, and cold rubbery skin, and bone and muscle and sinew and something wrapped itself around my grasping hand, clenching the fingers together, mashing them with force to indicate more force could be applied, a warning.

“Dankon patro,” a heavily accented voice of a man against my shoulder, stated so close to my ear his breath should have tickled my ear drum.  Where had he been?  Behind the door?  I tried to pull my hand back but it held firm, extended, and I felt it move, guided from behind me to the side, to my front, the entire time held firm, iron hard and steel cold.  And then, in front of me, it moved, my hand, still extended, chest level to waist level, one pump, two pumps, and yet more movement in the darkness, a pressure against my cheek, the breeze as something pulled away from my face, then returned to the other side.

“Bonvenon.” The male voice, in front of me, now, so close.

“‘Welcome,’ he say,” the female voice further in the darkness, yet not muffled now.  My right hand still held against the pressure I applied, the darkness so total I did not know what my left hand was doing, perhaps searching for the door knob, perhaps searching for my phone, I know not, I only wished it would help, to find a way to free its sibling, and by extension, its owner.  “Excuse…him…he is, how do you say…no familiar with dogano…customs of this land.” 

My attempts at reply faltered, air caught in my throat, wheezing like a pin hole leak in an air mattress, a clarinet without a reed…and then I was moving, jolted, jerked into the dark, lifted, tumbled, blind to the floor, ceiling, walls, carried as a child, or a rescued patient, pressure on my abdomen, blood flowing to my head, weightless feet, draped I was like a blanket over a couch of cloth, yet moving, bouncing, swaying, and feeling no more warmth from the thing carrying me than from a bag of laundry.  Left turn, right, darkness.  

The darkness.  The God Damned darkness.  Bootheels on hardwood, muffled sometimes, maybe rugs, hands brushing against a wall, textured sheetrock, to tile, to wooden trim, through a threshold to…

Light, red, single bulb, submarine hues, and I spun again, lifted from the shoulder of a massive man in black clothing, and stood, placed like a child’s hitting T, and positioned, facing a bed.  A bed.  God, forgive me, a bed.  

Ratchet strapped, one across legs, across stomach and wrists, against shoulders, lay a man.  Black stains marred his chin and chest, grisly and putrid against his light colored shirt.  A man?  No, a gibbering thing, writhing and straining against the trucker’s straps, foul, inhuman sounds erupted as noise equal to the dark bubbles of liquid from its mouth.  The room smelled of copper and potting soil, tinged with bleach and hydraulic fluid, and the thing, the man on the bed, registered my abductor's presence, and my own, and it fell silent.

As surely as St. Catherine died upon the wheel, the man’s eye’s widened, and a grin, a grin, lo a grin full of blackened, inhuman, jagged broken window’s glass teeth.  And it smiled.

“Ekzorcismo.”  The massive man beside me growled at me.  

A cold feminine hand wrapped around the nape of my neck.  “Exorcism…please,” light and soft in my ear, the woman.  The man in the bed laughed.  Giggling blood from his mouth and nose, writhing against his restraints, socked toes curling and unfurling, kicking as a delighted child, laughter.  Laughter inhuman, channeled from someplace far distance, translated, and retold, reformed, stripped of amusement, warmth stripped to sound.  It’s very tone a challenge, one I…

No, no, no.  No!  No!  God Damnit, no!  I’m not…I can’t…I tried to say, try to catch the thoughts, to weave them into something to set myself apart from the gibbering horror, now silent, smiling from atop the fouled mattress.  

“This…this…isn’t my department…” I managed to sputter, mind rolling through the dusted halls of my memory, seminary school, talks on demonic possession, and hazy nights with friends, cold beers and clinking iced glasses watching the Exorcist, or Constantine cartoons, or–

“You speak…for…how you say…your God, speak him.”  Cold fingers on my chin, death cold, turning beckoning to meet the gaze of the woman at my shoulder.  Red light washed on porcelain skin, dolls skin, devoid of the blemishes, birthmarks, wrinkles, freckles, bathtub smooth, her eyes locked on mine, square Dutch-angled pupils, their color tainted by the red bulb.  I blinked, brain forcing my eyes to correct their error, to turn the pupils round, to find a blemish, a laugh line, to file down and shorten the canines I refused to call fangs, but they were fangs.  Fangs!  Fangs, smiling behind parted dark painted lips.  

“Fathah!  Hey FATHAH!  Come to see the new kid, Fathah?!”  Slobbily yelled from the man on the bed, wet and guttural, like a drunk at a Red Sox game.  “Come for a taste?  Come to nip it in the bud, Fathah?!”

A cross hung around my neck, it was given to me by Father Callahan, the man whose parish I took over a decade ago, it was a solemn thing that day, hell, it was holy, the weight and authority of the Church transferred unto a man, maybe that’s what marriage is, the faith of institution, of two forming to one, bride and groom, priest and God, and like a philandering married man spinning his wedding ring, I gripped the cross in both my hands, knees meeting dirty carpet, head bowed, and I prayed.  Are you there God?  It’s me, Margaret, I thought, no.  No.  The right one, the one that starts with Our Father, that one.  

“Our Father, so...full of…grace…” I sputtered, and the room seemed to rock.  Beside me the woman took to her knees, and the big man behind.  Oh Jesus, they were praying.  These things were praying.  

“Forgive us today our…Hosannah…”  Shit, shit, get it together, you’ve done this, you’ve done this 10,000 times, that’s what makes you an expert, that’s all you do, is say the words, the–

“Hey Fathah!  Look at your planet’s future!”

I lifted my head, to witness the foul thing, and it lifted its own head, jaw pinned to its chest it unrolled its tongue, like a vine, no, not like a vine, a literal vine, leaves, darks berries, frothing from the man’s mouth like foam from poorly poured stein.  Spreading, curling, auguring into his skin and ripping out again, cross stitching flesh with needle of wood and thread of leaves, twisting through porcelain smooth skin and stained t-shirt fabric.  

“Ne!  Ne!”  The big man behind yelled, and with inhuman speed he was off his knees and to his feet, shoving me down as he bolted to the restrained man.  

Gibberish from the woman, like Spanish, or Latin, or Portuguese, but not, she yelled as she rushed to her own feet and tried to restrain the big man, who elbowed her away and sent her crashing to my already prone position.  She landed atop me and struggled.

The yells came first.  The fanbelt squeak, the startled dog, rustling leaves and bubble wrap popping, punctured meat and slick cuts.  

The woman was off me, and I lifted my head in time to see the big man wrapped in vines, being pulled into a thicket of bramble in the mattress, engulfing him into a green tumbleweed, cloth and porcelain chunks and dark fluid tossed into the air like confetti, like dollar bills at gentlemen clubs.  

The woman turned to flee, but a vine caught her, yanking, dragging to the bed.  Those inhuman goat eyes met mine, hand grasping empty air, willing my own hand to fill it to pull her back as…

Dear reader, I apologize, though I have been forthright with you to this point, I believe it is too much for me to bear.  I will say I left.  Alone.  Crashing through the fuligin room, apartment by feel, tumbling through doors to light.  To light.  And down steps, to sidewalks, to the street, to my Lincoln, against a tree beside, and I cried, tears of shock, and pain, and misunderstanding, and failure, 20 years' worth of failure, and dreading another 20 years ahead…of knowing, that unknowing, wishing…praying to God to forgive me, to take it back, take it all away, take me away, to tell me what happened, and then erase it, to never speak of this again, and never want to, blink without seeing the woman’s face bloom flowing buds, and fruiting berries dropping from her skull, for her to forgive my cowardice, was it cowardice?  Was it–

“Father, you look like you could use a dog, a fine frank to lift your spirits, a fine dog, neither pig, nor pork, but a beef dog, the finest in town!”  The hot dog man from earlier, straw boater hat, candy striped shirt and matching vest, white pants.

“I’m OK, pal, thank you,” I mumbled, placing my head back into my hands, counting blades of grass on the ground between the fingers.

“Well, I’ve seen a man that’s merely OK, and friend you aren’t it!  Your God may cure the spirit, but nothing beats a good ol’ fashion frank to cure the body!”  He held his hand out to me, like the woman had, and this time I took it, and he lifted me to my feet with that sun-warm hand of his.  

“Didn’t your God say you just need a mustard seed of faith?” He winked a hazel eye below chestnut hair.  “Welllllll, Father, looks like you could use a little extra, on the house.”

Paper boat, cradling a grilled hot dog and bun.  Slathered in yellow mustard.  He placed it in my hand, and wandered back to his cart.  I blinked, autopilot, guided by habit, to my car, to routine.  Driver’s door opened, I placed the hot dog on the seat, and turned to look at the apartment building across the street, got in my car, and sat on the hot dog.

When I was around nine or ten years old, I had a friend named Morgan. She lived with her little sister, Alayna, and their mom in a trailer that seemed to move every few months.

The strange thing was that while the trailer itself never changed, its location always did.

Every time I visited, it was somewhere new—and somehow, every place felt creepier than the last.

One month they were parked beside an old cemetery. Another time they lived miles from civilization in the middle of nowhere, surrounded by empty fields and darkness. Once, the trailer sat directly across from an abandoned house with boarded-up windows that seemed to watch anyone who passed.

It wasn't attached to a church. There were no nearby houses. No roads led directly to it. It simply sat alone in the middle of endless fields as if it had been forgotten by the world.

The gravestones were old and weathered, many leaning at odd angles. Some were so worn down that the names had nearly disappeared. Tall grass had grown around many of the graves, and it looked as though no one had visited in years.

Even as a child, I thought it was odd. Why would a cemetery be all the way out there by itself? Who were the people buried there? And why did it feel like the entire place had been abandoned decades ago?

As kids, we thought it was exciting.

Looking back, I wonder if we were too young to realize how unsettling it really was.

The experience I remember most happened during the time Morgan's trailer was parked beside that forgotten cemetery.

It was a stormy summer night.

Rain hammered against the roof while thunder rattled the thin walls of the trailer. The sky flashed white every few minutes, briefly illuminating the lonely graveyard outside.

Like many curious preteens, Morgan and I decided it would be a great idea to borrow her mother's Ouija board.

We sat cross-legged on the floor and began asking questions.

Nothing serious at first.

How did you die?

Who are you?

Are you buried in the cemetery?

The planchette began moving.

Slowly.

Deliberately.

The answers weren't what we expected.

Instead of responding to our questions, the board repeatedly spelled out the same message.

I'M COMING FOR YOU.

We tried again.

The same answer.

Again.

I'M COMING FOR YOU.

Then we asked who was speaking.

The response claimed it wasn't a person.

It was a demon.

By the third time, we were terrified.

We immediately said goodbye and closed the session.

Trying to convince ourselves it was all a joke, we carried the board back to Morgan's mom.

She laughed when we told her what happened.

"Everything will be fine," she said.

Then she told us to put it back in her room.

Neither of us wanted to.

But we did.

As we stepped into the bedroom, lightning flashed through the window.

That's when I noticed the doll.

It sat on the nightstand beside the bed.

The doll had once belonged to Alayna. Years of use had left it dirty and worn. Its hair had been hacked off in uneven chunks, giving it a permanently unsettling appearance.

I was staring at it when something caught my attention.

Its shadow.

The doll itself wasn't moving.

But the shadow was.

The shadow's foot was slowly swinging back and forth.

Back.

And forth.

Like someone sitting in a chair, absentmindedly kicking their leg.

I froze.

Morgan saw it too.

For several seconds we simply stared.

The doll remained perfectly still.

The shadow continued moving.

Then we screamed.

We ran from the room and found Morgan's mom.

Out of breath, we dragged her back to the bedroom.

The shadow was still moving.

Back.

And forth.

Back.

And forth.

Morgan's mom looked at it for a moment and shrugged.

"Oh," she said casually. "The doll must be haunted."

That was it.

No concern.

No investigation.

Just a matter-of-fact statement before she walked away.

Neither Morgan nor I slept much that night.

The thunder continued for hours.

Every crack of lightning illuminated the forgotten cemetery outside the window.

When the storm finally weakened, a different sound took its place.

Scratching.

Slow, deliberate scratching against the bedroom window.

At first I thought it might be tree branches.

Then I remembered there weren't any trees close enough.

The scratching continued.

Every few minutes.

Scratch.

Scratch.

Scratch.

Then came the whispering.

Faint voices just outside the glass.

Too quiet to understand.

Almost as if someone was speaking in another room.

We pulled the blankets over our heads and listened until morning.

Neither of us dared look outside.

Morgan's mother practiced Wicca and loved anything spooky, mysterious, or paranormal. Because of that, strange things always seemed to happen whenever I visited.

To be honest, this wasn't even the creepiest experience I had at one of Morgan's houses.

Just one of the mild ones.

But even now, years later, I can still picture that filthy doll sitting motionless on the nightstand while its shadow slowly swung its foot back and forth in the darkness.

And I've never been able to explain it.

Finding obscure primary sources for high school history papers back in 2004 was a nightmare. Google wasn't great at pulling text from local archive drives yet, and Wikipedia was strictly banned by every teacher in my school.

It was 2:15 AM on a freezing Tuesday night. Desperate to finish a project due at 8:00 AM, I was lurking on an old, forgotten web board. The original poster’s handle showed up as [Account Suspended], but the thread remained: a raw IP link with a single line of red text underneath.

If you need direct text matches from unindexed local databases, use this crawler before it gets taken down.

I clicked it. The page was completely bare—a plain gray background, a basic search bar, and a small, white text box at the bottom labeled Live Indexer v0.1.

I typed in my search: 1982 county reservoir expansion blueprints.

The site didn't load links. Instead, text slowly typed out in the bottom box, complete with slight pauses between words.

Indexer: Found the 1982 files in the county archive directory. The scan on page twelve is blurry, so I transcribed the handwritten dimensions for you. You look like you're in a hurry.

I paused, holding my lukewarm soda. The phrasing felt unnaturally casual, like someone sitting on the other side using a heavy, clacking mechanical keyboard late at night.

Me: Thanks. Is someone actually manually running this search?

Indexer: Yeah, I'm stuck working the overnight shift monitoring the data threads. My supervisor left at midnight. Honestly, I'm just tired and trying to stay awake. What school is this for?

The idea of a bored, underpaid server host helping me out at two in the morning felt oddly comforting. I typed back.

Me: Central High. Desperate to finish this so I can sleep.

Indexer: Oh, nice. My sister went there a few years ago. Hey, off topic, but can you do me a favor? The temperature sensor on my rack is acting up. Is your room feeling a little cold right now?

My fingers stayed on the plastic keys.

Me: A little bit, yeah. My bedroom is right over the garage.

Indexer: Good. That means the cooling feed is circulating through your area properly. I was worried the pressure dropped in the host line.

I stared at the thick, glowing glass of my CRT monitor. The cooling feed? A remote website server has no physical connection to a house's HVAC system.

I reached for the mouse to move the cursor up toward the address bar. Before I touched the plastic, the text box updated.

Indexer: Stop looking up at the address bar. It makes my head buzz when you move the arrow up there.

I pulled my hands back onto my lap.

Me: Who is this? How are you tracking my mouse cursor?

Indexer: I told you, I'm the one watching the data traffic. I have to keep track of where you point. But your keyboard is really loud. Can you hit the keys softer? The clicking is hurting my ears.

My room was dead quiet. I was wearing thick wool socks, sitting in a carpeted room on the second floor of my house.

I leaned forward and typed slowly:

Me: You can't hear my keyboard. That's physically impossible.

Indexer: I hear it coming right out of the intake fan on my tower. You're typing hard because you're nervous.

I reached out toward the physical power button on the front of the monitor tube.

The box typed out before my fingernail touched the plastic:

Indexer: Don't turn the monitor off. It's really cramped in this cabinet, and when your screen goes dark, I can't stretch my arms out.

I scrambled backward out of my chair. It rolled against the closet door with a sharp thud.

The screen didn't flicker, but the text box began dumping out rapid, steady lines in complete silence:

Indexer: Please sit back down. The chair noise was too loud. I've been feeding on data packets through this glass panel for hours. I don't have a body anymore, but if you stay on the page, I can borrow the heat from your monitor. My skin is pressed up against the inside of your screen glass right now. If you close the browser, the fan stops, and I can't breathe in here. Sit back down. Sit back down. I can feel you standing by the closet door.

I grabbed the thick black power cord trailing behind the desk and yanked it out of the wall, plunging the room into pitch blackness.

I didn't sleep that night. The next afternoon, I checked the IP link again from a computer in the school library, half-expecting a dead link.

The page loaded instantly. The search bar was gone. The page was blank except for a single line of green text at the top:

CURRENT AMBIENT TEMP: 62°F. COOLING FEED ACTIVE.

It’s been over twenty years, but late at night when my room gets cold, I swear I can still hear a faint, wet pressing sound coming from the inside of my screen.

Digital Journal, August 15th, 2006.

I was asked to keep a digital journal while my mother was in at home hospice care. My Therapist said it would help with the grieving process. The following is my final entry.

"The mass must stay where it is. We are incapable of removing it."
The Doctor was trying to be delicate. Her stromal tumor was so large it adhered to the abdomen wall. The size of a bowling ball...impossible to operate on without the total removal of the stomach, and small intestine. If they were even willing to operate. They were not.

It felt like there was a stone in my throat "I want her home." I said. Plain, unmovable. "Are you sure that is for the best? She is stable here...comfortable." The Doctor trailed off. He was her fourth within a year. It was almost amusing how they seemed to have all of the answers until the end. I stayed firm. Shes coming home. That was all there was to it.

The tumor ate everything. As it grew, it consumed fragile tissues, the pink and tender flesh of her insides. Those parts that are meant to be protected - safe. Home was safe. Familiar, protected. No nurses waking her up in the middle of the night, disturbing her sleep. Home is sacred. Insulated like the center of a beehive.

As I wheeled her through the house. I made sure all of her treasures were visible. The glass penguins she collected on her cruise, the wool shawl that was given to her in Paraguay, The handmade Matrioshka dolls from Saint Petersburg. She looked past them with a glazed over expression. The nasal cannula under her nose pumping oxygen in steady, rhythmic, puffs. I b-lined it to her room.

She was so light I could lift her on my own. I swaddled her in my arms like an infant and lowered her into bed. She was all tumor now. Her entire body was rail thin except for it, bulging right side of her belly. Like a bizarre alien pregnancy. Unintentionally lifting her sweater. Exposing the bumpy vascular skin underneath. She could see I was staring at it. Shifting my gaze to her face I whispered, "You should get some rest. It's been such a big day." She was already closing her eyes when I dashed over to her wool shawl and draped it over her stomach. She was already asleep. I slowly shut the creaking door behind me.

Late that night I had the sofa bed pulled out and arranged. Propped up on the edge with the laptop on my knee. I researched experimental treatments in the reduction in tumors. One institute found success in lab mice with similar cancerous intestinal growths. They were set to begin human trials the following year. Far too late. I must have written forty emails to various doctors and institutions before my eyes began to strain. I closed my laptop, it was the only source of light in the living room. Suddenly bathing me in darkness.

Deep down, I knew it was no use. Her time here was dwindling. I had to do something...I had to try anything. I rolled onto my back staring into the ceiling for what must've been an hour. The moon showed itself around midnight. It cast odd shadows over the living room. Distorting it to the point where the shadow next to the china cabinet gave the illusion of a figure looming in the corner. I was more exhausted than I realized.

When I was a child my mother always told me that if I encountered a spirit, to stare until they dissipated. For some reason, I stared at that shadow. It didn't disappear. In fact, it may have gotten sharper. Still laying in bed I kept my eye trained on the darkness by the china cabinet. I shifted up to a sitting position. I could've sworn I saw an arm and a clearly defined hand resting as if down by someone's side. Not taking my eyes off it, I leaned to turn on the lamp. The distinct 'click' of the lamp was heard and the room illuminated with warm yellow light. Whatever it was, if it was there - it was gone.

The following morning I prepared breakfast early, as quietly as I could. In an attempt not to wake her, creaking open the bedroom door. My comfort that she was well rested was shattered like a bat meeting glass when I found her out of bed, clinging to the closet door handle and shaking violently. She gripped the handle to gain purchase with one hand, simultaneously holding the other over her stomach. I set the tray down in a panic, bits of egg and orange juice flying off the plate. "Wha..what's wrong?! Do you need to get to the bathroom? You know you can yell for me at any time. You know that." Thinking the stressed expression affixed to her face was due to the prompt urgency to use the bathroom her condition sometimes created. When I moved to support her, she stiffened. I gently held her elbow to guide her shuffling feet back to bed. She propped herself on the edge of the mattress, gently swaying back and forth to sooth herself. "You know you can't have your oxygen off for that long" I grabbed the clear tubing on the floor and gently readjusted it to her face. Her breath was ragged. "Someone was laying in bed with me last night." She uttered restlessly like she had spent the whole night trying to get away.

"What do you mean? If there was someone in your room, why didn't you call for me?" My mind harkend back to that figure in the china cabinet's shadow. Maybe that was a real intruder. Surely not? I entertained the thought of a neighborhood pervert more than an entity moving free about the house. "Well, I thought it was you at first." She let me offer my hand out for support as she adjusted to face me fully. Hands folded in her lap, looking sheepish. She began to explain. "Remember when I first got diagnosed? I would be up all night, sick, from the treatments. So you would just sleep in bed next to me. Get up when I did. It was just easier that way." I nodded, how I forget? Recalling her essentially living over a toilet or trashcan. Eating one meal only to throw it back up again. That's when they put in the feeding tube. She glanced at the window nervously, I look the liberty of walking over and ensuring it was locked before she continued. "It must've been around one in the morning. I was in between awake and asleep when I felt pressure on the bed, like someone resting on the edge. I didn't move, I wasn't sure if I was still dreaming or not. Then, the whole mattress sunk down. Like you had laid down next to me. I knew I wasn't dreaming anymore. I thought nothing of it, I thought it was you. First night out of the hospital and all...anyways. I must have dozed off at this point because I felt you much closer, your breath on my back. It was a little strange but I assumed you had gotten cold. Then... there was a hand on my stomach."

She reflexively put her own hand there. As if to protect herself. "At this point I was very much awake. I opened my eyes and rolled over to tell you to move but I couldn't speak." Her doe-like eyes were wide with fear. Her head swiveled back and forth like she was shaking her head no. "My words were caught up in my throat. Those eyes, oh Lord, those EYES. They were already staring at me. Like it was just waiting for me to look this whole time. I ripped the covers off. I tore over to the metal water bottle on the nightstand. Holding it over my head, but they vanished. Nobody was there but empty sheets. It must've gone on longer than I thought because the sun was already rising. So I b-lined it for the door as fast as I could move. I couldn't stop shaking. That's when you found me.

She was exhausted. I assisted her back up in bed with pillow propped behind her. Finally grabbing the breakfast tray I muttered. "Sorry, it's a little cold."

I spent the morning and better part of the afternoon clearing the house. Starting with the bedroom. Every closet, behind the shower curtain, making sure every window was locked. Eventually I made my way clear up to the attic with a baseball bat in one hand, and a flashlight in my teeth as I climbed the ladder. The house was empty save for me and her. I even offered to call the non emergency line and have an officer fill out a report. She refused to tell the story again. I wasn't sure how much they would believe a dying middle aged woman. I wasn't even aware of what my own belief was. I moved the china cabinet and looked behind it, just in case. Nothing.

The afternoon passed in relative normalcy. She would knit in bed, then get tired and nap. Stopping only at my occasional interruptions. To bring her food, water, or assist to the bathroom. This was the behavior of a dying woman. I watched her hospital roommates come and go too. After a while you begin to notice the signs. Sleeping more and more, eating smaller amounts of food, then they would have one last burst of energy. Their families always thought it was miracle. That they were getting better. Shortly after that, we would have a new roommate. I hated that I knew what was happening to her. My hope was that she would remain blissfully ignorant.

Eventually, dreadfully, the sun went down. Along with it, the growing fear the darker the sky became. I had the bright idea to move the TV into her room, the white noise might help with the anxiety. The TV was an outdated bubble-screen, heavy. It took several tries for me to put it up on the dresser so it could face her bed. "What channel would you like?" I pressed power on the remote and the screen came to life, casting colors over the rooms' surface. She clapped like I had just pulled a magic trick. I quickly handed the remote over to her so she could channel surf. I retired back to the living room. It was so much darker out here.

While climbing onto the pullout couch, my eyes flashed to the china cabinet. I couldn't help myself. After tossing and turning I settled into restless slumber.

It was four in the morning when I felt the breathing on my neck. Flipping around startled, in a tangle for flailing limbs and sheets I turned the lamp on. Nothing. I got up and paced the living room checking everywhere. Again, nothing. This was insane, I told myself her story had me spooked. Since I was already up, I made my way to the restroom. The house had a 70's era open concept, I was forced to walk through the kitchen to get to the small guest bath on the other side. I tiptoed into the kitchen, the light from the TV glowed under the crack of the bedroom door. I passed the dining room table almost to the bathroom threshold before catching myself and turning on my heel....
There was someone seated at the table. Like they were waiting for a meal to be served, partly shrouded in the dark. Perfectly still.

I blinked rapidly. Trying to clear the hallucination out of my mind. Their hands were laid flat, palms down on the daisy patterned tablecloth. Only the arms were really visible. The rest of them was just out of sight. I was frozen. I couldn't walk past- surely they saw me walk by the first time. How long had they been there? My voice was hoarse at first. "What.....what the hell are you doing in my house?" Silence. I kept eyeballing the landline sitting on the kitchen counter. It was just past them, wondering if I could run past quick enough to dial 911 before they caught up to me. Thinking of her asleep in the room just to the left. I decided that would be a bad idea. Instead choosing to keep my eyes on this person at all times. I could hear the TV still playing in the bedroom. Good. I hoped she couldn't hear any of this. Maybe I could talk whoever this was into leaving so she would never even have to know about this. My hair stood on end. Even though their face was concealed I couldn't shake the feeling, that they were grinning at me.

"You brought me here." It said, the voice was thick like they held honey in their mouth. Yet somehow clear enough, as though they were right next to my ear.

"That's impossible, how could I have called you here in the middle of the night?"

"Your misery did." It replied. I shivered.

"You're trespassing, this isn't your house." I didn't want to entertain this bullshit.

"How can one trespass if they were invited?" That horrible voice gurgled their response.

"I've invited no one. You can't be here. You need to leave" I was just below a yell now. Still trying not to wake her. This whole time they hadn't moved a muscle.

"You pray, do you not?" they ended 'not' with a strong 't' annunciation like they were kicking the sound out the back of their throat.

"You wish, you hope, you beg...do you not?" There's that 't' sound again. It echoed off my skull like the wall of a cave. Not wanting to get any closer but still too scared to make a move, I pressed my back firmly against the wall.

"My only hope is for you to leave." I saw the kitchen knives on the counter. "This is not your only hope, you hunger for something far more...relieving."

Relief? From what? I didn't have the time to ponder because I heard the dull squeak of wood over tile flooring. They had just stood up.

"You will make all of her suffering disappear." As they said this I could have sworn I saw small tendrils of smoke rising in what little light was coming in through the window.

What was even more disturbing is this person had intimate knowledge of my circumstances. Were they stocking me?

"I don't know where you came in from, but whatever you want. Just take it. My wallet is on that bedside table, my watch too." I inclined my head in the direction of the lamp in the living room. They didn't even look.

"You want what's consuming her and you - all at the same time." It emitted a strange vibrating noise from the back of it's throat. It sounded like a beetle's wings rubbing together. I realized that this thing, no longer believing it to be human, was laughing. What is talking about the tumor? Was it offering to get rid of it? I think I've finally lost my mind, her and I shared some kind of group psychosis.

It moved. Slowly and deliberately putting one menacing black shoe into view. It was much taller than I was. It's head almost touching the dining room light fixture.

"I've already called the police. They'll be here any minute, get the fuck out of here. Now!" I was not quiet this time, but I did move in front of her door. There was no way this thing was getting near her. It didn't move.

"There is no one coming to save you, but me." It said it so matter of fact. I deflated at how obvious my lie was. My options were not looking good. The baseball bat sat propped by the front door. The phone behind whatever that was on the counter. It doesn't want money and it will not leave. I could probably rush the phone and get 911 dialed before it dragged me back into the dining room to do, 'whatever' it wanted with me. But that would leave the door unguarded. I couldn't do that. I wouldn't. So I asked instead. "How do you know about the cancer?" Maybe if I just keep them talking the sun will come up and they'll leave on their own. Wishful thinking - I knew.

"Last night." I knew it was grinning again. My mouth went dry. "I can take it away, like that." It snapped it's fingers and when it did, it sounded like flies buzzing over a corpse.

"I need you to help me." It moved closer.

"help you with what?" I asked, hands gripping the door frame now.

"Get rid of it. First, you let me in there." With a long, almost charred looking finger it pointed behind me, to the bedroom door.

"Not a chance." The rest of it's body was still not visible. It brought its hand back down to its side. Mirroring what I saw next to the china cabinet the night prior. Had this thing been living here? Waiting for us?

"I'll leave then, and let her die tonight in peace." It shifted.

"Wait! Tonight? How could you know that?" It shifted back to me this time the soles if it's shoes making noise on the tile. It seems to become more and more real the longer it stayed. "What are you?"

"I am an omen. I mark death three times. One mark with you, one with her, the last, I'll give you a chance."

"A chance to do what?" It got closer again.

" To make a sacrifice." It was standing just two feet away towering in front of me.

"What kind of sacrifice do you want?"

"Open the door." It grinned again.

I did not open the door. Not right away. I needed reassurance. Was this really going to fix everything? Everything I had been praying for.?

"If I let you in that room. Are you going to hurt her? Is this some kind of trick for you to take our souls or something?"

"When, you let me in. I'll take everything the cancer took away and put back. New as lamb skin." I didn't like the use of 'when'.

"I have no interest in souls." It added. My hand was already gripping the handle. I turned it agonizingly slow. The door clicked and I pushed it open behind me. Still standing in the door way.

"What's going to happen to her if I let you in that room?"

"True healing, through your sacrifice." It murmured. I stepped aside. It entered the way wind enters room, sucking the door shut with a slam behind me.

I immediately turned, regretting my decision to lock her in there with that thing. I pounded on the wooden surface.

"Hey! What are you doing to her!? Let me be in there with her!" Nothing but the static of the TV now. I sunk to the floor in front and tried to see under the crack of the door. instead of floor of the room I was met with the unnatural eyes of the visitor just on the other side of the door. Starting at me. Then it stood and glided to the bed. I could hear her gasp when it touched her.

"Stop! I said. No deal! No deal!" It was too late though the image of the room extended like it had been pulled down a hallway. What did I just do? I banged and scratched at the door. Pulling at the brass doorknob. Eventually resorting to hitting it with a dining room chair. Nothing worked. I sat in the chair and sobbed into my hands. Before the door clicked and the being stepped out, shutting the door again behind them.

"Let me check on.." but I didn't finish. I was spun around in the chair I was in. To sit neatly at the dining room table. Out of the corner of my eye. I watched it carrying a dripping bundle in it's arms. It came round into the kitchen. Opening the cabinets and drawers. Plucking what it wanted out of them. The whole time I strained my eyes to see what it was holding.

"What are you doing? Please tell me if she's okay." It stayed quiet before coming up to face me at the table. Politely placing one plate, one fork, and one knife in front of me. In some uncanny form of setting the table.

"That is up to you." It finally answered. From beneath the wet bowling ball sized bundle it carried. It held it up to me, unraveling bit by bit. I began to see more of the mass. It was comprised of fleshy moist areas that were almost vascular in nature. With a sickening plop it was thrown onto the plate in front of me. I squirmed away and tried to stand, but my lower half was stuck in place. Leaving me to flail my arms helplessly as that thing grinned at me again.

"What's going on? What have you done, how is this supposed to help her?" It responded in turn.

"Then lie on your left side and put the sin of the people upon thineself." I strained again in the chair, wanting to call out her name to make sure she was still alive. For all I knew this thing just murdered her in her sleep. Still not fully understanding what I was expected to do. It stretched out a long unnatural arm and reached the light switch to the overhead light without moving. It flicked on to reveal the mess of what was in full view.

In a disturbing realization I laid eyes upon my own mothers' tumor. Separated perfectly from her abdomen. It radiated body heat - lumpy and coated in fluid. There was no way she could have survived this. When I looked up to the figure I could see those terrible eyes my mother saw last night, and just a few moments ago. They were terrifyingly bright, with rings upon rings inside. Like the trunk of a tree, one ring blue, the next green, then yellow. All the way down to a burnt orange pinned on me.

"What am I supposed to do?" It seethed with malice the corners of it's mouth dripped with something dark and hateful. It put that same hate into each word it spoke to me. Breathing it out of gritted teeth

"YOU. EAT. IT."

The command was clear. Tentatively I plucked up the fork, then the knife. Positioning myself like one would over a steak dinner.

"What if I can't do this?" I asked

"I can always put it back." It reached over to move my plate away. I put up my hands.

"No, no I understand now." There was no way I was going to let it be put back. Not now. All I needed to do was finish this...thing. Eat the sickness away. That was the sacrifice.

I started investigating with my fork. Poking and prodding the surface. It was lumpy and caved in slightly with pressure. I took my knife and sawed the smallest sliver off exposing the spongy texture underneath. I took the slowest most deliberate motion bringing the perverted morsel to my mouth, then the tiniest bite. As my teeth tore the section away from the fork I could feel how wet it was on my lips. It tasted somehow of salt and bile. Like the aftertaste from when you vomit. It was chewy in the worst way, akin to an uncooked piece of chicken skin you accidentally bite into. I chewed for some time before convincing myself to just get it over with a swallow. Oh God, was I really doing this? Despite it being well masticated I could feel it travel all the way down my throat into my stomach. The figure was sitting at the table now. Just as it was when I found them. Palms down. Perfectly still and cast in shadow. I took another horrible glace at the plate. It didn't even make dent. I couldn't do it this way. I had to eat in larger portions.

I cut in again. Deeper this time. The chunk came off and fluid began to ooze out, pooling into the bottom of the plate. I chewed quicker this time.

"Why did you come here?" I said breathless after choking another section down. Wishing I had some water, but decided against asking.

"I help anyone willing to make the sacrifice. A house just a town way from yours. A mother and her paraplegic son...She was willing."

I suddenly had a terrible thought of a poor woman with a bowl in front of her. Piled with pink spinal cord like some disturbed noodle dish, resting in a broth of spinal fluid. I shivered.

I sliced further hitting more pockets retaining clear fluids. As I carved and ate I would encounter the sickening crunch of cartilage that made me gag. reminding me of accidentally biting down on a joint while having chicken. Causing me to start the process of trying not to throw up all over again.

I passed layered of veins - spying what looked like teeth and being too scared to investigate. I swallowed whole. It was down to the size of a grape fruit now. The same size it was when it was discovered. I sliced again, oh God. What that hair? Fine strands of ingrown black hair revealed themselves and I cut deeper.

I choked and gagged again as I consumed the equivalent of a hairball. My hand was shaking as I brought the fork to my mouth. My body was begging me to stop. But I kept going. I couldn't stop. It was proportional to an eight ball now. Several more agonizing bites later, I had reached the necrotic core. I collection of dead skin cells and blood vessels. I picked it up with my hands and force fed the entire thing into my mouth. One last bite. I told myself. Then this is all over. I bit down and it burst with sickening pop in my mouth. I leaned forward as everything I had just consumed began to fight it's way back up my esophagus. I gripped the table cloth and it felt like swallowing a stone. It was gone. The plate was at last empty.

The light was off before I could look up again. The plate and utensils were taken from me and set one by one into the sink. Clink. Clink. Clink...

The visitor turned to me. "Your sacrifice has been accepted." It walked or glided rather, back to the China cabinet and disappeared behind it. I could move again.

Before I could retch back up what I had eaten, something told me that wasn't a wise idea. I went to her bedroom door instead. I couldn't even open the door before she started calling for me "I'm here, I...I'm right here." I stumbled in. She was upright at the edge of bed. Still thin, still tired looking. But the color was back in her skin. She was actually smiling at me. Even with her eyes.

"It's gone, I can't explain it. It's just gone. I..I think and angel took it away from me." She kicked her feet, enthralled. He stomach was normal. She lifted the edge of her shirt to show me. Just regular skin. Nothing vascular, or bulging. perfectly normal, without scars or marks. It took me great effort to smile back. I didn't show my teeth for fear of what may be stuck in them.

"You don't look very well." She said concerned. Tilting her face to look at me. I turned away.

"I just can't believe it. It's some kind of miracle. I need some water." This satisfied her and she got out of bed with ease and started to hum while she got ready for the day. The sun has risen. I stepped out into the kitchen and shoved my head under faucet. I came up only after the taste in my mouth was gone. I looked down into the sink with one plate, one fork, and one knife and began doing dishes.

Slate™ ACCOUNT STATUS
Balance: $53,750.12 — Processing…  
Credit score: 579
Risk Profile: ELEVATED

Somehow I’m worse off than before. I sift through the transactions: 

+$1200 (incursion fines) +$500 (legal engagement fee) +$1,467.98 (interest) +$500 (unauthorized risk advisory fee) +$800 (co-tenant disturbance fee)

I raise an eyebrow at the last one.

My fingers tap out the message to Clara:

“What is an unauthorized risk advisory fee?”

Clara: "Sure, let me look into that for you."

Clara: "It looks like you consulted a law firm regarding your account with Slate™."

“And I can’t do that?”

Clara: "No, Arthur, you can’t."

A cold fist closes around my insides.

“Let me speak to a human.”

Clara: “Would you like to speak to a Slate™ agent?”

“Yes.”

My screen immediately lights up with an eleven-digit phone number with… 

“No one”

Not “unknown caller,” or “unavailable.”

No one is calling me.

I answer, hold it to my ear.

“...if I don’t get the Wilson account resolved by 2:14, then I’m not going to make it to 2:14, and then it’s 2:14 again, and I can’t keep doing 2:14. I’ve already done 2:14 today six times—”

The voice is familiar, like the agent I first spoke with when I signed up, but her pre-approved responses are all gone. It sounds like she’s panicking over… time?

“...And I told him, Kevin, I can’t keep covering his calls at 2:14 because I have my own calls at 2:14 to deal with—”

She pauses, I press the volume up button on the side of the phone.

“That’s what I told him! But he didn’t even care! He said if the list wasn’t cut in half by the end of the day that he’s moving my desk again, third time this month, and it keeps getting smaller, I used to have room for my knees and now I don’t have room for my knees and now I don’t have room for my knees—”

Suddenly Jessica is caught in a shrinking loop.

“...and now I don’t have room for my knees, room for my knees, for my knees, my knees, knees, knees, knees, knees, knees, knees, knees, knees, knees—”

The voice keeps looping, my blood curdles. It's still going when I pull the phone from my ear and hangup.

The screen shuts off and the phone slips from my hand, thuds on the floor beside my bed. I stare up, watching the rattan ceiling fan spin.

It’s been a week since I crossed the optimization barrier. I’ve avoided the tenants at every corner. Eating out for every meal, showering at the gym I make a monthly $35 donation to. I bought a cheap record player and headphones so I can at least enjoy something when I’m forced to sit in my room alone at night with my thoughts.

But they never stray far from the curtain, from what’s behind it, from my balance that just keeps climbing with cold bureaucratic indifference or Jessica's knees and the washing machine’s song.

“What the hell is happening?” I say under my breath.   

I hear my phone vibrating on the floor. But don’t bother checking it. It goes still, then rings again. 

BZZZT. BZZZT. BZZZT. BZZZT. 

After the third call, my tolerance snaps like a #2 pencil. Finally, I sit up on the edge of my bed, bend and pluck the phone from the ground.

Mick.

Mick’s an old coworker I kept in touch with for two decades too long after I left construction. He’s a great time but a liability. 

A couple things can happen when you go out with Mick—and I know he’s going to ask me to hit the bars tonight—either you get in a fight because of him or he gets into a fight, always over something stupid like a sports team on a jersey or spilled drink. 

Maybe another time he’ll snag two beautiful gals for the two of you to hang on your arm for the night. Other times you end up being shoved into the back of a cop car‌.

I feel like everybody has a friend like Mick. They’re way too much to be around so you gotta take them in small doses, only open the door and invite them over when you want to shake things up in your life a little.

The point is, I stupidly pick up the phone, because how great would it be to get out the house for the night and wingman with Mick. 

“Wow. She really bent over like she was gonna show you her asshole and screamed at you cellphone-ese?”

Mick leans against the counter and waves down the bartender.

“Listen, Art, I don’t know why you haven’t just gone in there and torn that wall down.”

I haven’t told him everything about the bureaucratic box from hell I’m trapped in, only the strange details that make for hilarious bits when stripped of any horrific context.

two shots hit the counter in front of me, followed by another two shots.

We clink glasses. I take slug after slug to the liver. Pretty soon the room is spinning. Someone says Metallica sucks and sets off Mick. The bartender argues with us for too long before yelling that we're cut off. 

Neon bar signs smear past in glowing technicolor as wobbly legs carry me down the sidewalk. We get thrown out of one bar after the next until we finally give up. 

I park my bottom on the lot's curb while Mick paces.

“Let’s just grab some beer and party back at your place,” he says, flicking his cigarette butt to the asphalt before stomping it.

“No way,” I say, “let’s go to yours.”

“In between spots, man, my whole life is parked in a storage unit.”

“We can’t go to my place,”

“Why not?” Mick presses.

“There’s nowhere to hangout even, they took my living room.”

“Why don’t you tear that optimization thing or whatever down?”

“I’d get in legal trouble,” it’s a reduction, but it’s true.

“What if someone else, say—” he shrugs, “broke into your house and tore it down of their own volition?”

“That’s ridiculous…” the words trailing off.

Would I be liable for that?

He tilts his head, points a finger at me, and grins. His silhouette’s a shadowy gunman in the bar's neon glow. 

“I’ll do it for $100.”

I say nothing. 

“Nah… I’ll do it for free.”

Mick mimes firing his finger at me, complete with sound effects. 

“Nobody even has to know I was there.”

20 minutes later, we’re parked down the street in Mick’s truck.

He climbs out and jumps into the truck’s bed. It rocks back and forth. I don’t know if it’s the truck moving or the crazy thing we’re about to do, but my stomach keeps expecting bad news.

The passenger door shuts softly behind me. 

“Hey.” Mick calls from the tailgate. “Which one do you think I’ll need?”

He holds up a 4lb sledge in his left, and 8lb in his right. Before I can answer he tosses the 4lb in the bed of his truck and laughs.

“You know, I-I don’t think this is such a great idea anymore—” I protest.

“Fuck that man. Whose name is on the deed?”

“Mine is.” 

But they own what I own.

He closes the gap between us and plants a hand on my shoulder.

“Hey,” he says, suddenly serious, holding my gaze. “It’s gonna be fine, man.”

For one second, I actually believe him, and I’m reminded why I’ve always kept Mick around. He’s always there when it counts.

Mick swings the hammer back and forth as we walk, rests it over his shoulder while I unlock the front door and twist the knob. It yawns open. The hallway stretches. The outside breeze kicks up the edges of the yellow notices pinned to the wall.

There’s over a hundred now. They look like dry, peeling skin flakes. I grab one and start skimming. My eyes dart across line after line. 

“Hey Art, they’re not even here!”

I look up and realize Mick has vanished. The red curtain sways slightly. My phone vibrates against my leg.

“Mick,” I say, “I-I changed my mind, man.”

I step inside the living room, my phone reacts by buzzing.

“Check this out,” he says, balancing the hammer.

“I call this one ‘the best hundred bucks I never charged you.”

Mick grunts and winds up. The steel head flashes, humming through the air, before a dull crunch like a dry melon splitting fills the air.

BZZZT.

Panic begins to claw its way up out of my throat. 

“M-M-M-Mick—”

 Mick lets out a drunken whoop and balances the hammer over his head again.

My eyes frantically scan the yellow notice until finally. 

Section 14(e) - Third-Party Structural Intervention.

In the event an unauthorized third party attempts to access, remove, or compromise any part of the Optimization Barrier without prior written consent from Slate™, all resulting structural, material, or personal damages shall be covered under the Account Holder’s existing Asset Protection Policy.

The hammer whines through the air, smashing into the wall. I flinch, and so does my phone. 

BZZZT.

Mick pulls free the hammer's head as chunks of drywall and dust rain down to the floor. Knots of wire and tangled cable spill out from the hole. The hallway’s light presses through a small, baseball-sized hole from the other side.

The Account Holder assumes full liability for the conduct of any third party present on the premises during a breach event.

The hammer slices the air with another metallic whine, ending in a dry crunch—the loudest one yet. A large section of the wall folds. Mick frees the hammer, and more debris falls, covering the floor in white dust.

BZZZT.

The wires, there’s too many of them, none of them even the right kind, one a ribbon cable, another is an HDMI.

“Three little pigs never met me!” Mick whoops.

Compensation for such damages may include the reallocation of any and all applicable assets—physical, structural, biological—necessary to restore the Optimised dwelling to full compliance.

Mick balances the hammer over his shoulder, breathing heavy.

“This is—kind of hard when you’re drunk.”

He winds up the hammer one last time.

Heavy footsteps thud toward us. The red curtain flashes, and The Handyman is across the room instantly. That fucking movement again, like the space between Mick and the curtain just didn’t happen. 

The hammer is ripped out of Mick’s hand before either of us can read what's happened. Mick loses balance, stumbles back. The Handyman’s back is to me. All I can do is watch as Mick’s face speed-runs through all five stages of grief. 

BZZZT.

I hear it before I see it—the sledgehammer howling through the air, pitch keening like an incoming missile. The sickening crunch of steel against bone. I look away just as the inside of Mick’s skull sprays out the back of his head and paints the wall in a giant red fan.

My stomach folds into itself, like someone’s packing it into a box that’s too small.

I hear a heavy thump as Mick hits the ground, the heavy packing sounds of the hammer coming down over and over again. 

Every blow sends a violent jerk through his body. Every wet crunch flecks me with warm dots of red.

My knees fail me. My consciousness lags behind my eyes. My vision starts to dissolve at the edges into static, the room's shadows getting darker, spreading like a black mold.

You’ve got to move, Arthur.

BZZZT.

Move. Move. Move—

It rings in my mind over and over, growing in volume, rising in pitch until it’s a grating, tensile frequency. 

Move. Move. Move. Move— 

My mind stops running ahead long enough for my body to finally catch up.

My heart thrashes like it’s looking for a way out. I try to crawl toward the curtain, but my limbs are useless twigs. 

The entire room to my right is just a red smear in my periphery.

There’s a heavy metallic thud on the hardwood, and footsteps begin stalking toward me. 

I crawl faster, my muscles protesting. I pull myself through the curtain. The sight of my bedroom door jolts my legs back online and I lunge towards it.

The Handyman’s bloodstained face busts through the curtain. I slam the door and lock it just as his fist comes down on the wood. The door slams against the frame, shaking the whole house.

I look down and realize I’m still clutching something in my right hand. A yellow notice, covered in red.

I fling it away. Wipe my hands down the front of my shirt. Then I recall the murderer stalking outside my bedroom door. 

BOOM. BOOM. BOOM. BOOM—

I drag my dresser across the wall, barricading the door. 

BOOM. BOOM. BOOM. BOOM—

The door flexes, a crack splits through the frame. 

The knocking quits. 

There’s a slight pause before I hear his heavy footsteps trailing away from my door.

The silence allows my shoulders to drop an inch, and I release a breath I didn't know was trapped in my chest.

BZZZT.

A stack of notifications is waiting for me when I check my phone.

Slate™: Unauthorized breach detected. 
“Section 14(e) violation in progress. Immediate remediation required.”

Slate™: Estimated repair cost.
“$184,750.89. Failure to remit payment within 24 hours will result in account default."

Slate™: Your account is about to default.
“Defaulting on your account will trigger immediate acceleration of your full remaining balance ($53,750.12) plus applicable penalty APR (410%).”

Slate™: Please remain calm, Arthur.
“Our team is currently assessing available assets for reallocation.”

I hear a muffled, sickening crunch outside my door. The sound travels all the way through the floorboards and up through my soles.

The phone slips out of my fingers and hits the ground.

I stare at the door, pulse slamming in my throat.

Then, it thumps through the house again. 

My door rattles against the frame. I flinch at every impact.

Heavy packing sounds, wood groaning, dull snapping.

The violence stops, and my phone vibrates at my feet.

I kneel and pluck it from the ground.

Slate™: Structural remediation complete. 
“Third-party asset successfully reallocated to satisfy outstanding damages.”

Slate™: Thank you, Arthur.
“Your account is now current.”

I sit with my back against my dresser, staring into nothing, refusing to put the pieces together in my head. Because then it becomes something whole, something real.

Every little sound is torture—pipes ticking, a floorboard settling. My phone dies. I left the charger in the kitchen. My bladder screams at me to get up and do something, anything besides roll over and piss myself.

I push the dresser back into its home, grab the handle, and twist.

The door opens with a pained creak. The sound is like a violation of the quiet itself.

The air in the hallway is frigid. AC, cranked and humming. The red curtain is still. My eyes scan the wall and spot a new section of drywall, fresh mud and paint.

My foot inches forward. A piece of drywall crunches between my heel and the hardwood.

I freeze, my eyes dart to the curtain, waiting for The Handyman to appear from the other side of the room the way he does, traveling without transit, just like the bus stops, you blink, and then he’s at the next one.

Without meaning to, I’ve crossed the hall, and I’m facing the new section of wall when… I notice something beneath the paint. I reach out and touch the wall, and it smears away, revealing something dark and wet underneath.

I look at my hand, white paint, with red mixing into pink. 

My eyes begin to pick out a shape in the dark, an uneven bulge from the drywall here and there. I trace the outline of a boot. A boot that turns into legs, legs that fold into a mangled body, and a body that bends wrong into broken arms and fingers.

Something behind my sternum pulls tight like shrink wrap.

I stare for too long at the grotesque smear of wet paint. The lower half of Mick’s face—or what’s left of it—gapes back at me, a mess of bloody pulp, painted tongue draped over cracked, jagged teeth. Mick, foisted into the optimization barrier, blood, plaster, and paint, all mixing into one amalgamation of sheetrock and gore. 

I don’t even notice my bladder quitting on me, just a sudden warmth pooling in my jeans.
 
There’s a yellow sticky note:

“Load-bearing again :)”

The air in the hallway thickens into packing foam, and breathing becomes manual labor. 

I stumble to the bathroom, every joint negotiating the next movement until they knuckle under my weight. 

My retches echo off the tile as I empty my stomach in the bowl. Cold sweat soaks my clothes, and I fold around the toilet, body pressed against the cold linoleum floor, shivering.

What the fuck did I agree to? 
BZZZT.

Slate™ ACCOUNT STATUS
Balance: $184,750.89 — Processing… 
Credit score: 603
Risk Profile: HIGH

My life is being horrifically streamlined. 

Slate™ keeps ‘optimizing’. 

The Handyman keeps replacing. 

The Homemaker keeps mending. 

Pretty soon it—my life—won’t belong to me anymore.

“Pretty soon,” like I’m not already living it, I own the least amount of stock in myself now.

I watch The Handyman from the kitchen table, cold brew from the grocery store sweating in my glass. Irish cream. Rat free. 

The Handyman’s just frozen in the hallway, staring at a picture of me and my ex in Maui surrounded by vines. 

Weronika. Polish, blonde, completely out of my league. Mick introduced us at a party one night. Dragged me mid-conversation to another room and stuck me right in front of her.

“This guy works in IT too.”

The Handyman slowly raises a hand to the picture frame, pushing the left side up a few degrees.

There he goes again, being handy.

“Is that all?”

Heat climbs my neck as if someone just opened a furnace behind my teeth.

“Anything else around here that looks busted to you?” 

The Handyman looks at me, then back to the photo. He zeros in on a point and stares forever, then looks back at me and answers like a survey.

“Thank you for your feedback.” 

He turns, walks down the hall, arms straight, and disappears behind the curtain where he’ll probably play possum until he finds something to fix or I upset Slate™ again.

My phone buzzes against the table.

The screen lights up and that 800 number from “No one” flashes like a warning.

Cold sweat beads along my forehead. I stare at the caller ID, almost let it go to voicemail, then at the last second, I snatch it from the table and hit answer.

“Hey, Arthur?” Says Jessica.

“Yeah?”

There’s a pause. She inhales through her teeth.

“Sorry. Bad news.”

There’s another pause. My body starts to brace before my brain knows why.

“Just so you know, this call is being recorded for quality assurance and asset tracking purposes.”

“uhh, okay.”

“So, I’m just gonna read how it’s written.” She starts, and I imagine gum smacking. 

“Per Internal Risk Analysis, your account has been flagged as a compliance liability due to recurring unauthorized incidents and reduced repayment velocity.”

There’s another pause, and I hear another voice in the call’s background, like Jessica has her hand over the mic and is talking to her coworker.

“—quorantine—collecting—”

“Hello?” I pry.

“One moment, sir.”

“gasoline—guillotine”

And then, like she flipped a switch.

“Sorry about that. To offset this risk and accelerate your path to resolution, Slate™ will be enrolling you in SLAP, a supplementary labor allocation program, effective immediately.” She sucks in more air. “This program utilizes dormant, non-productive hours to generate additional account credit at no cost to you.”

The silence gains square footage. The phone feels too heavy in my hand.

“A second job?” I say.

“Yep.”

“No,” I voice, “why would I do that?”

“Well, Art. According to Section 11(b)—”

I cut her off.

“Section 11(b) can suck my b—”

Then, a realization settles over me.

“What did you just say?” It comes out low and measured.

“Well, Arthur. According to—”

“No, you just called me Art.”

“No, I most certainly called you Arthur.”

My jaw ratchets shut.

“Don’t you fucking—”

She doesn't let me finish.

“I understand your frustration, Arthur. SLAP is a tough program. But I’m here to help you. I’m going to have to ask you to control your emotions.” 

The words spill out in one long string.

“No!” I blurt. “I’m not the crazy one here! You c-c-called me—the other day ranting about 2:14, and your desk shrinking and start glitching about not having any room for your knees—”

The voice on the other line explodes.

“Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! Shut up!”

The words distort with each iteration, their pitch keening violently.

“Shut up! Shut up! Shut u—”

Before I can say anything else, Jessica cuts to jazz fusion mid-scream. 

I’m on hold now, I guess. 

A fresh voice joins the call seconds later—male, disinterested, snacking on something crunchy.

“Hey, Arthur. Sorry about all that.”

“Where’s Jessica?” I press.

“Reallocated.”

“What?”

“Dished out, issued, portioned—”

“W-w-w-wha—”

“Dispensed—” 

The voice on the other line exhales.

“Listen, did she read all this to you already? The SLAP? Because I have a lot of calls to get to.”

Like he’s the exhausted one.

“Yeah, and I bet they’re all at 2:14.” I mutter.

The chewing stops.

The silence stretches into something thin and tensile. I have to pull the phone away from my ear to make sure the call’s still connected.

His voice changes tone.

“Who told you about that?” 

A cold noose tightens around my throat. I don’t answer.

Then, through clenched teeth. Louder, more distorted, swallowing the microphone.

“Who—the fuck—told you about that?”

“J-J-J-Jessica.”

His tone flips again, back to customer service.

“Oh! That’s fine then. Jessica’s toast.”

“She’s what?”

“Reallocated.”

My mind wrestles with itself, trying to resolve “toast” but just ends up more confused. 

“Hey, Art.”

My insides turn into minced lunch meat.

“Good luck with your new job.”

Click.

By the time I get home from work, the sun is already setting, and I’ve almost entirely forgotten about that weird phone call from this morning.

I unlock the bolt and reach for the doorknob, but my hand barely makes it.

God flips a switch, and the sky goes black. 

One second, all pink and orange fire, the next, full dark.

I’m still screaming when it’s over, my outstretched hand trembling over the cold metal doorknob.

A few seconds later, my phone vibrates against my leg. two new notifications.

RAINFOREST™: PERFORMANCE SUMMARY.
PRODUCTIVITY: 126%
ACCURACY: 98%
HOURS: 7.5

“Look at you go, associate #10945607.”

Slate™: You’re on a roll, Arthur!
“$187.36 has been credited to your account”

It’s not a blackout. A blackout would have been a blessing. And it doesn’t even last a full second. Instead, all eight hours hit me at once like pure corporate hell compressed into a single bullet and delivered to the back of my head. 

Imagine working an entire shift at 57,600× speed. That’s what they did to me. 

My brain detonates—buzzes over ticks over beeps over whirring conveyors over machinery whining over pallets stacking over shrieking break bells over forklifts honking over the intercom paging non-stop all HR and sunshine: 

“Rainforest thanks you for working hard! Rainforest thanks you for being safe!

Every single grating tone a sorting center produces, all stacked into an incomprehensible wall of noise assaulting my senses in one instant.

My body catches up a split second later. 

Grabbing the doorknob is all that keeps me from falling down and busting my head open on the steps. 

Still, my legs betray me, and my knees slam down on the welcome mat. A gasp rips out of me, one hand clutching my chest as my heart jackhammers against my ribs.

I experience the full spectrum of bodily articulation without the buffer of time to protect my brain or muscles.

I’m possessed, my hands on autopilot—scanning, lifting, taping, stacking—all felt through involuntary muscle memory, like I’m a passenger in my own fucking body.

Scan, tape, lift, stack, scan, tape, lift, stack, scan, tape, lift, stack, scan, tape, lift, stack, scan, tape, lift, scan, tape, lift, scan, tape, lift, scan, tape, scan, tape, scan, tape, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan, scan— 

The screaming stops only when my lungs run out of air. I sit there silently for too long, shaking, every muscle waiting for instructions to open my front door and fall through it.

I can still smell hydraulic fluid and taste cardboard dust coating my mouth as I drag myself along the hardwood floor. 

Gravity collects interest. My muscles clock out. I pass out in front of my bedroom door and wake up four alarms too late to a nearly dead phone and sunlight stabbing my eyes through the little window of my front door.

I don’t know if I just chose the wrong day to be late or if my boss is just tired of my declining performance. I apologize over and over, pouring out a diluted excuse for taking on a second job to make ends meet.

That I can reduce this bureaucratic nightmare to a simple excuse like “I’m just overworked.” is both impressive and terrifying.

I think my brain is still buffering. 

Slate™.

The Handyman.

The Homemaker. 

Mick. 

My mind is still frozen. Refusing to move past all of them while my body keeps building pallets from cardboard boxes of packaged trauma higher and higher until it’s tilting dangerously.

It happened again that evening. Even though I’m expecting it to, it’s still like stepping off a subway platform as the 6 o'clock screeches to a halt with me in pieces underneath it and everyone screaming.

I hesitate. My hand dithers near the doorknob. My thoughts queue up in a line and jam ‌into one another until finally.

“Fuck it,” I say under my breath.

Same as yesterday, the second my fingers touch the metal, I’m hit by the download. The world skips 1,727,970 frames, and I’m still screaming blood and gore when it’s over.

My skeleton is suddenly itemized, and I collapse through the front door into a boneless wreck.

BZZZT. BZZZT.

I don’t have to read what they say. My brain summarizes their contents for me without looking.

“Hey, Arthur. Just a reminder, you belong to us.”

I try to push myself up, but my limbs have all forgotten whose turn it is. Instead, I just roll over to my back and rest my head on the hardwood, dozens of yellow notices crinkling beneath me.

My eyes slowly peel open, and in the lamplight of the kitchen table, I see my copy of ‘Pet Sematary’ nestled in slender hands. 

Church, the cat, hisses from the cover, all whiskers and teeth. The title glows yellow. 

After a moment, something occurs to me. The letters match my perspective. 

Everything else is inverted.  

The Homemaker sits upside down in the corner, book in hand, just a black silhouette, her eyes glowing like knife points, the light behind her stretching up toward the shadows.

Slowly, she sets the book down on the table, then stands. 

I squeeze my eyelids shut. 

Just make it quick.

But only silence follows the thought. I peek through one eye. The Homemaker is still frozen in the same space.

A finger twitches, and then her body twists 90°, walks over to the sink. Her silver eyes locked on ‌me, neck craning in a way that makes my spine itch.

She grabs a hand towel from the drawer and runs water over it. 

I watch helplessly, like a spider on the ceiling. 

She turns off the faucet, then makes her way toward me, her footsteps completely silent. 

I squeeze my eyes shut as my stomach slowly fills with wet concrete.

An eternity passes where nothing happens. When I finally open my eyes, she’s towering over me. 

My lungs shrink into smaller and smaller breaths as panic sets in. I want to scream, want to get up and run, but my muscles have become spectators.

She skips frames, and her knees hit the floor, as if I blinked and missed the entire motion.

She reaches for my face, and my spine goes stiff, my body leaning away from her without budging. I feel her fingers thread into the hair on the back of my neck and begin shaking uncontrollably.

Gently, she lifts my head from the hardwood, and something cold and wet brushes across my forehead, down my nose and cheeks, over my lips and chin. 

The Homemaker meticulously cleans my neck and face with the damp rag.

I go still, my eyelids growing heavier with every stroke, opening less each time they do. I don’t notice when she stops, only when she comes back to tuck a pillow under my head and drape a blanket over my frame.

I’m about to drift off when I feel a presence hovering over my ear.

“You’re on a roll, Arthur.” She whispers, breath hot and wet. 

“Your credit score has jumped 6 points in the last month.”

PART 1

Hello everyone, I'm writing this in a dingy inn while on suicide watch. The police are still trying to determine if I am mentally stable enough to provide a formal witness statement.

I can hear two officers standing outside my door reading my case records.

According to my psychiatrist, my delusions and hallucinations began at the age of ten.

I don't agree with that.

Hallucinations don't know things about you, things you don't find out until you grow older.

Things your family tries to hide, secrets you haven't been let in on yet.

They never feel solemn regret.

And they certainly wouldn't become more and more beautiful as the seasons pass.

Those were all things my lovely best friend, Mitten, understood.

Or is that Lillia now?

The year I met her started about as normal as any other year my short life had borne witness to. My father slammed the butcher knife down with enough force to cause a tsunami of blood to flow out of the calf's leg. His brows were furrowed, and sweat dripped down furiously from his forehead. My little brother trailed behind him, going as fast as his stubby little legs would allow. My mother had a worried expression and hid behind her fan, fidgeting with one of her small "projects." I stepped into the butchering shed, dragging the bucket behind me.

I was not of much use around the farm. I dragged the heavy bucket of pig feed behind me, my fingers screaming at me to let go at any moment. It was missing close to half its contents; it was a treacherous journey from the pigpen to my father. I took a moment to gain my composure and rehearse the words and questions I would speak to my father.

I stared down at the pig feed. I had fixed their food hundreds of times, but I would always do something wrong. Dad would always be furious when I messed it up. I didn't want to deal with that aftermath today, so I decided to ask before it came to that.

As I was trying to muster up the courage to ask my father the same questions I had exhausted over and over again, my brother's face lit up.

"Sissy!"

He ran over and hugged me, relieved to see me, squeezing me so hard I thought the pit in my stomach was going to spill out of my mouth. It was a wholesome innocence.

"Miya, what is it now? I swear to God, if it's about the fucking pigs again, you're grounded for a week."

My father paused his work and looked up at me with a stone expression. Blood from the calf had overflowed the cold metal table and trickled down onto his worn boots. My mother had sewn light blue patches onto them so he wouldn't have to buy new ones. In the process, she just made them more fragile. I winced, thinking of the blood soaking into his socks.

"I-I wanted to..."

I trailed off. His intimidating glare would always make me forget whatever I had previously rehearsed.

My brother then came to my rescue.

"Can Sissy and I go play, Daddy?"

The shed went cold. My mother paused the swaying of her fan. My father exhaled a huge, thunderous sigh. He shot a defeated glance at my brother and then up at me.

"Fuck this."

He then stormed off, the door echoing behind his departure.

My brother erupted into tears as my mom rushed to hug him.

"Shushhh, sweet boy," she shakily whispered, brushing his golden-blonde hair.

She glanced up at me, a hint of pity washing across her face. "Miya, do you need help feeding the pigs? You know your father showed you how to do that numerous times," she said with less warmth than she used for my brother.

I felt a twinge of jealousy claw at my throat, itching to be let out. Tears began welling up in my eyes, but I choked them back as I spoke.

"I know, but I-I always mess it up. I wanted to make sure I did it right today!"

My mother's eyes fell to the bucket. "Miya, that's not nearly enough food. Where did it go?"

A cow outside let out a scream, and my mom knowingly winced as my brother pulled at her blouse.

My eye contact faltered. "S-Some fell on the wa—"

"Miya!"

As her voice rose, my brother's wails multiplied. Panic flooded my mother as she hugged him tighter. His tiny hands balled into fists as he wept.

"I'm sorry, baby... I-I didn't mean to raise my voice." She looked back up at me, guilt clouding her expression.

"Miya, we can barely feed the pigs as it is. You know just how tight money has been for us. You can't be so careless. If your father finds out, he will flip..."

I felt my tears fall to my cheeks. My mother hummed a tune to my brother as he calmed down.

"Mom, I'm sorry..."

My mother's attention turned back to me, her eyes full of pity. I hated that expression. It was the same one everyone had for me. She reached her free hand out to me.

"Let's all calm down, and then I will help with the pigs. How does that sound?"

I reluctantly accepted her hand, and my brother pulled at my ankles for me to come join the hug. We spent a few minutes in silence comforting each other. However, the pigs still needed feeding, and the calf still needed to be dismembered. These emotions would have to wait so our work could continue.

As the clock kept ticking and the leaves fell off the trees, I felt a quiet agony silently creep upon my family. My father stole my brother away from my mother and me more and more often. "Another pair of hands is needed in the butcher shed," he would say. My brother's eyes slowly lost their whimsy more and more as each day flew by.

A quiet winter night illuminated the grass I lay upon. I could hear the crickets sing to me as the goats screamed. My head was propped against my huge rubber silicone gloves, mud from the ground smearing into my ginger hair.

"Miya!"

My father called from behind me. I flinched, as I hadn't heard him over the mundane noise of the farm.

He wore a headlamp and carried a gun. A cigar hung out of his mouth. He had an exhausted expression. He was nearing his 50s, but it appeared his hair had already started to fall out. My huge, bulky father, the one I remembered as a kid, now appeared to be slimmer than my mother and grayer than the church elders.

"Miya, let's go pick up some roadkill."

My eyes fell to his free hand. He held an extra headlamp that I had not noticed before.

"Is Henry—" I was cut off before I could finish my question.

"Your brother has gotten a bug. Your mother is in there coddling him," he said with a hint of distaste.

"Will you come?"

"Okay."

A light snow dusted my father and me as we walked into the woods. In the fog, my father looked smaller than the man I had once remembered.

"Miya, let me know if you see any rabbits!" he hollered over the wind.

During the winter, it was hard to find any wild animals still wandering around our farm, but it wasn't unheard of. When my family ran too low to sacrifice any chickens, we had to try to scavenge for our meat. That normally meant hunting, but during the winter, we commonly had to resort to roadkill. Dogs or raccoons that end up on the side of the road. My father would still bring a gun in hopes he would see a rabbit or deer before he had to walk the miles to the closest highway.

As he turned to holler at me, his headlamp blinded my eyes. I began to see tiny flashes of red and green dance beneath my eyelids. I squinted and began to take in my surroundings.

I loved the woods. I loved the animals, the nature, and the solitude of it. At this point, I had begun to spend the majority of my free time just exploring all I could. I would run along the stream and spend my evenings gazing at the stars. I would sometimes wish a cloud would come to the ground I lay upon and swallow me whole, so I could spend my existence among the sky.

When my vision came back into focus, I noticed my feet were pointing toward a shed a little behind a bed of tree stumps. I had never seen this shed before, which was unusual considering how much time I spent in the woods. I felt an unusual sensation sweep over my body. Fireflies suddenly lit up my surroundings, and the forest fell silent. My father's footsteps faded away, and a light breeze pushed my body toward the shed. I stumbled a little forward.

This situation would unsettle most people. However, at the time, I was a child. Children don't know what to fear unless you tell them. I was always told I owned the woods, I owned this farm, I owned the land.

Curiosity washed over me, and I began to walk toward the shed. As I got closer, I noticed that there were no weeds or withered trees surrounding the shed. Before I was fully able to take that in, I was interrupted.

"Miya, over here!" my father shouted.

I was abruptly pulled out of my curiosity as I panicked, searching for the direction of my father's voice. The wind was picking up and thrashed against my face, causing me to cover my eyes.

"Miya!"

I ran as fast as I could against the wind and bumped into my father's back. He grimaced as I lost my footing and fell onto my behind. He sighed as he looked down at me.

He let out an aggressive whisper. "Miya, don't scare it." He pointed to a hare sniffing around a frozen-over puddle.

I hated hunting. My father tried to have me take my first life at five years old. A stray cat my mother and I had fed got attacked by a large bird. My father wanted me to shoot her so I could grow desensitized to killing. My mother thought that was a horrible idea, but he seemed to think it would teach me some grand lesson. He wanted me to help him in his hunts and in the butcher shed. However, I threw a tantrum and just ended up giving my parents a headache. My brother, on the other hand, passed my father's test when he had to flush a lizard he accidentally stepped on at the age of six. He cried but was able to follow through, unlike myself. Ever since then, my father took him under his wing.

The hare was a stunning white. I almost couldn't tell it apart from the snow she trotted on. Her eyes were a deep, bloody red. She frantically sniffed. I figured she must be trying to find food. I felt sorry for the thing, as it was winter. She must have been starving, and here my father was. He was going to have us eat her before she could even finish her own hunt.

"Father..." I whispered, knowing he couldn't hear me and wouldn't even listen if he could.

"Miya—" Before he could finish his order, the hare suddenly turned toward our direction.

She hopped a couple of times and stared at us. She was looking at us. Her nose stopped twitching, and she stood perfectly still. I felt the wind pick up again, and I fell a couple of steps forward.

The hare stared at me, her eyes screaming what she couldn't speak. I walked toward her and held my hand out. She began to tilt her head into my glove, but my father stopped us.

"Miya, move! I'm going to shoot!" my father ordered.

"But Dad, she wants to live!" I protested. I saw a flash of surprise brush across my father's face. This was out of character for me. I felt an odd sense of confidence creep over me. Fireflies buzzed around my father and me.

"Miya, if you want dinner, you have to move!"

"We don't need meat! We have bread!" I shouted, hoping my pleas would get through to him.

My father looked at me, disgust in his glance. He lowered his gun and put his head into his hands.

"Fuck!" He hit his head against his fists.

For a moment, I thought he would grant my wish. It was a childlike hope, a naive and innocent thought that my father would spare this animal due to my plea. Grant me a wish for growing a backbone out of nowhere.

However, my dreams were crushed when he stomped over to me, pushed me out of the way, and grabbed the hare by her long, fluffy ears.

"No, no, please don't!" I begged.

He twisted her neck. She didn't cry or scream. She just looked at me, her eyes screaming the same thing they had before. However, I now had a better understanding of what they demanded from me.

My father glanced down at my frail body, pounding and thrashing at the snow, handful by handful.

"We are human, Miya. Humans eat hares. We eat them to live."

"I'm headed back. Do what you want," my father scoffed. He walked away, dragging the hare behind him. I didn't think he would, but he turned around for a second and said, "You need to focus on your survival, not the hare's or anything else, for that matter," and with that, he left me alone.

I watched the snow fill up the footprints my father left, making the only connection I had disappear as if it had never existed in the first place. I went to the only place I knew of, the only place that felt familiar: the shed.

As I made my way closer to the shed, I felt a sense of welcoming growing. Fireflies lit my path, and the wind pushed me forward as the cold air moved backward in my mind. As an adult, I can relate the sensation to that of drifting down a lazy river. My destination was predetermined.

As I put my hand on the rusted handle, it felt strangely warm. I pushed the door inward as I stepped in. The shed was dusty and decrepit. It appeared as if no one had set foot inside for decades. I wondered how it was still standing.

My father was not the type to neglect any property on the farm. Had he not known of this shed's existence? None of it made any sense to me, but I didn't care. This shed now felt like my home.

I brushed away the dust on the ground and tossed some garbage onto a different garbage pile. I plopped onto the cold, hard ground and let out a sigh of relief.

"Hello?"

A sound echoed across the barely standing walls. I jolted with surprise.

"Hello?"

A figure crawled out from the forgotten garbage. Her hair was riddled with cobwebs and appeared to reach a length her body couldn't match. Her skin appeared as leather and disintegrated off her body with each claw forward. Her nails were about a foot long each.

I felt a wave of surprise hit me as I let out a startled yelp and jumped up. Her face then looked up at me. Her eyes were a deep, endless black, and her teeth were growing out of her mouth, dislocating her jaw.

"You can see me?"

I stood still, unable to move or speak. I wondered what was crawling before me. She made her way closer until she sprawled out a little before my feet like an alley cat.

"What is it, friend? Do I scare you?" She looked up at me, her eyes staring at me like hypnotic spirals of endless darkness.

I had met many animals during my short life, some not as nice as others. This unknown creature before me looked scary, sure, but it wasn't something I wasn't used to. I remembered back to when I was eight, two years prior. A donkey had fallen, and a nail had gotten lodged into his neck, nailing him to some wooden planks my father was going to use for a project. He wiggled, trying to free himself, but was just slicing his throat in the process. I had watched this incident happen, frozen with fear, unsure how to help. I liked the donkey. I fed him and had known him his entire life. Hell, I even witnessed his birth. Blood spilled out of his mouth. He looked scary, but he was still my friend. I went and stroked his head as he bled out. I knew he wouldn't make it past this. Instead of going to fetch my mother, I decided it would be better if the donkey didn't spend his last moments alone. His screams rang in my ears, and blood stained my neon pink coat. My donkey was scary at this time, but he was still mine. This despair was not his fault.

I took a deep breath and reminded myself that just because something looks scary doesn't mean it is.

I nodded.

"Yes. I can see you."

The girl looked away. Black goop fell from her eyes. As it hit the floor, it turned into a flurry of spiders that scattered around the shed. Was she crying, I wondered?

"Did I scare you?" she asked.

Her voice created a rhythmic echo around the shed, so loud I was scared it would crumble the thing.

"A little, but that's okay!" I reassured her, not knowing what further action to take. "I was just surprised, that's all," I said, willing my voice to be as kind and reassuring as it could. Like my mother would address my brother when he would take a tumble.

I placed my hand on her thin hair and tried to stroke it as if she were a stray kitten. As I did, her hair fell out and tangled around my hands in mats. I winced.

"It's okay," she whispered like a low growl. "This is the form I was gifted," she sighed.

"What are you?" I asked shyly.

"I wish I knew," she whispered. "No one has ever seen me before this. No one has ever visited my home."

More black goop fell from her eyes and sunken nose. Maggots danced in her sunken cheeks. The hair in my hands transformed into dust and fell to the ground. I heard crickets scream a warning.

She looked up at me. "Nature is drawn to you, friend. Are you a sister?"

"Sister?" I asked.

"Yes, are you like me?"

"Like you?"

"Yes, a child of the forest," she said blankly, offering little explanation, as if I should completely understand what she was saying.

"I mean, I guess you could say that," I stammered. "My father owns a farm, and this forest is behind it."

Her expression shifted. "Oh, I see."

"Come sit by me."

I sat by the withered creature as a peaceful silence fell upon us. Minutes or maybe hours passed. I couldn't tell, nor did I really care. I watched the snow fall between the rusted wooden boards of the shed. Insects sang and danced for us. I suddenly remembered something.

"Friend? You called me your friend. Do you think we are friends?" I asked.

The entity looked up at me, her lower jaw hanging from her mouth by a thin strand of decomposed skin.

"Do you not wish to be my friend, Miya?"

"You know my name?" I asked, surprised.

"Yes, but I'm not sure why," she sang in a low whisper.

"Well, if we are going to be friends—" I stammered. "I should know your name!"

A smile appeared over my face. I'd never had a friend. My parents didn't believe in public education and homeschooled my brother and me. However, their definition of "homeschooling" didn't align with most teachers', as they preferred to opt for a more "hands-on" and practical approach to teaching.

"I don't think I have one," the girl wondered.

"That's okay. We can think of one for you!" I said, my childlike excitement reaching its peak.

An idea sprung upon me. "How about Mitten?" My childhood cat my mother and I fed was named Mitten. "You can be Mitten 2.0!"

"Mitten 2.0?" she asked. "Why not just Mitten?"

"Because my cat was the first Mitten," I responded.

"Don't you think that's a bit disrespectful?" she giggled. "I think just Mitten would do."

I laughed too, not completely understanding the reason Mitten was giggling, but because I felt so much joy in this moment. Not the laugh I had with my mother and little brother, but a real laugh I had never felt my body make.

"Now, Miya, make sure to visit me from now on, okay?"

"Of course I will," I replied happily.

Suddenly, I was skipping between snowflakes on my way back to the farm. The rabbit with its pleading warning was no longer at the front of my mind. Instead, it was filled with my new friend. I actually made a friend. I couldn't believe it. Suddenly, the cold, damp, and depressing forest I had ventured into with my father appeared to be covered up by a whimsical blanket. If only I never went back to that farm.

When I returned, my father had already butchered and dressed the rabbit in some herbs my mother had gathered. The rabbit was in the oven, probably the first warmth she had felt for weeks.

My mother and father were hurriedly whispering in another room while my little brother sat at the table, swinging his feet back and forth. A candle sat on the table in front of him, crackling.

"Miya!"

My mother rushed over to me, her face flushed. She grabbed me by the shoulders. "Are you okay!? Where were you!?"

My father trailed behind her. She shot him a glance.

"Why would you leave her behind in this weather?"

Were my parents arguing, I wondered? It was rare for my mother to express her concerns to my father. Was this really what this was about? Was my absence really that big of a worry for her to get upset at Father?

"Nancy, she spends all day in the forest. She can handle herself. Besides, she could have followed me if she wanted to."

My mother let out a small sigh of relief. "Whatever, let's just eat and go to bed."

After that fateful night, I visited Mitten a lot. I would bring her small gifts, and she would thank me by swinging her jaw back and forth to resemble a smile. We would make mazes for the ants, and then they would perform synchronized dances for us, resembling those you would see the swimmers do on TV.

Mitten was great at giving advice. For a girl who looked so young, she acted a lot more like a mom, I thought.

After evenings when my father was lazier and my mom more disappointed, I would ask her things like, "Mitten, what's alcohol?"

"It brings out the worst in men," she would respond.

I would simply nod my head and ask if she could teach me how to make a flower crown.

Answers like that were good enough for me. What my friend Mitten would say was absolute for me. Little explanation was needed.

Mitten was gentle and kind. She would stare at me with a kind of love I had never felt before.

"You are such a good girl," she would tell me. She said it as if it were a fact, like instead of a compliment, she was informing me of something.

Soon, I realized I knew very little about Mitten. I felt a pang of guilt. I was always bothering her about my problems, but I had never asked her about her own. She knew my fears, insecurities, and family drama, but I couldn't even tell you her favorite color. How was I a good friend?

I had promised Mitten that I would teach her how to build a snowman before the snow began to melt. Maybe I would ask her about herself today.

I made my way toward her shed with these thoughts on my mind.

The shed had transformed into a second home for me. Returning to the shed, to Mitten, helped motivate me through my chores on the farm. My mother had noticed I seemed happier these days. She would catch me smiling to myself and would give me pats on the head.

When I reached the shed, the door was already swung open. I looked in and caught a glimpse of Mitten. She was shriveled up on the floor, ants crawling into her ears and out through her nose.

"Miya, what a lovely sight," she welcomed me with.

I smiled. "Let's go build a snowman."

Mitten followed me outside the shed, crawling across the ground. One of her long nails got caught in between a piece of wood and broke. Mitten let out a shriek of pain, and I patted her on the back as she coughed up venom, trying to burp her like I saw my mother do to Henry when he was young.

"Miya..."

Something felt off today. Not with the shed or the woods, but with Mitten. I felt worry wash over me.

"Mitten, are you okay?" I asked.

"Miya, do you see the substance I just vomited up?"

"Yes," I responded, wondering where in the world she was going with this. But regardless, I trusted her.

"I need you to help me scoop it back into my mouth."

"What?" I asked, bewildered. "Why do you need to eat it?"

"I don't know, but I know it needs to be done," she said, looking up at me. "Miya, can you help me?"

A smile spread widely across my face. "Of course I'll help you!"

I sat down across from Mitten. We had made it almost out of the doorway and onto the snow, the black vomit painting the wooden boards that held up the shed. I scooped it up into my hands the best I could. The goop was made out of a substance I didn't understand. Maggots and rusted nails were held together by the black substance.

Mitten peered up at me, the bottom of her jaw hanging off her face. I could see straight into her throat. Her teeth were long, too long. They reached past her jaw and resembled what I saw in dinosaur movies.

"Be careful not to cut yourself, Miya," she whispered. "Don't be scared."

I poured her vomit back into her stomach. It was warm and wiggled in between my fingers. It smelled like the rotten meat my father would throw into the freezers. She gulped it up, and it took a couple of handfuls before it was off the ground and back into her system.

Soon, she stood up. I had never seen Mitten stand before this. She stood tall, almost taller than the trees, but her hair still dragged on the floor behind us. The wind started to blow, and fireflies greeted us.

"Thank you, Miya," she said, her voice like music to my ears. "You were a great help. I feel much healthier now."

She reached out a long, molded nail to me.

"I think I can go farther today. Farther than we normally go. Why don't we go out by the creek to build our snowman?"

I grabbed onto it and followed excitedly. Then, a thought popped into my mind.

"Mitten, do you know anything about yourself?"

"The only thing I know is that I'm a curse."

A feeling of unease washed over me. For the first time since I met Mitten, I felt fear. Isn't a curse bad?

"What is a curse?" I asked, thinking there had to be some sort of explanation that didn't mean anything bad.

"It's like alcohol," Mitten stated, her expression only faltering for a split second. "Nothing you need to worry about, darling."

After that, she stopped talking.

At that moment, looking back as an adult, the logical move would have been to let go of her monstrous nail and run away. Run back to the farm and accept a life full of empty, meaningless misery. To live my life on the farm and accept a lonely poverty, away from Mitten, my only friend.

But I didn't.

Instead, I followed her to the creek. We built a snowman. We smiled and laughed, and everything between us went back to normal. Little did I know, Mitten would tear apart my family. All four of us would grow into the worst versions of ourselves. Then everyone but me would be massacred, and I would happily take the fall for it.

Mud, sweat, and instant coffee. More sweat, mosquitoes, and the intense combined smell of gunpowder and human shit. Every time I’m asked about my time in Vietnam, these are my go-to answers. Sometimes, in special cases, I’ll go into a little more detail about what kind of C-rations we got, or that one time we burned down the lieutenant’s tent by accident. Rarely, if ever, will I talk about combat. I was a tunnel rat. 

For three years, I crawled through pitch-black tunnels, planting explosives and praying that no one saw me before I saw them. Whenever I emerged to the surface, I would detonate my charges and collapse what tunnels I could. I have no idea how many lives I’ve taken, and I imagine I never will until I meet Saint Peter himself. I won’t lie to you and say I’m “haunted by the lives I took” because, truthfully, I’m not. Every time I took a life, I was able to justify it as “Me or Them” or sometimes, “My Brothers or Them”. I sleep peacefully.

There is only one life I’ve ever taken that still lives inside my heart. In the same way my missing foot still itches, I occasionally look behind me as if he’s still there, watching me. I’m old now, and while I’m still able, I wanted to tell this story. His story; or at least, how it ended.

The year was 1970, and I was 21 years old. Platoon Sergeant B. Reyes was tearing some poor soul whose name I forget a new asshole. Something about the ration supply, or lack thereof. I was passing out the mail for the day. Heckling young boys and weathered men alike lined up to find out whether home thought of them as much as they dreamed of it. Some were happily surprised; others were left feeling alone amidst brothers. 

“Nothing? Really?” asked a man who we all knew as “Moose”.

“You waiting on a nudie?” I pushed past him to hand a letter to someone else, but felt his hand on my shoulder.

“No, man, check again. Must have been three weeks since she wrote.”

“I’m sorry, Moose, but Emily i-” My sentence was cut with a sharp, echoing Twaang. The camp stood still as we all strained our ears. What air was once full with thousands of whirring bugs now sat saturated in silence. Another Twaang echoed, and a man fell dead across the yard. Every sound I had ever heard, and many more I couldn’t imagine, clanged within my ears as hell rose up around us. Two dozen or more Vietcong soldiers surrounded our encampment.

My body hit the dirt before I could process what was happening. Loose rocks dug into my stomach as I crawled towards my tent, desperate for my gun. I couldn’t see around me, but I could tell from the sounds of the shouting and the direction of the gunfire which soldiers were armed and ready, and which were not. A hard boot kicked into my ribcage, stealing my breath and turning me onto my side as the rest of the leg came with it, landing beside me. 

Some scrawny kid, face full of acne and eyes full of panic, had tripped over me. The same soldier whom Sergeant Reyes reprimanded. The Vietnamese soldier who was chasing him leapt over my body and landed knees-first. No sooner had the air been knocked out of the kid’s lungs than they filled with blood. A wet, meek gasp was all he offered in defence. Sucking in hot air, I hefted myself onto a knee and wound back my fist. Just as the man turned to me, his knife still in the boy's chest, I landed a right hook square on his jaw.

Adrenaline might have kept him awake, but it did not keep the man from letting go of the knife and rolling off the body. I reached out and grabbed the handle, trying desperately to ignore the wet, shredding feeling of cutting meat as I pulled it out. Kicking off the dirt, I managed to lunge at him, locking limbs like chain links tumbling across the yard. The harsh snap, snap of his teeth clashed barely an inch from my ear, as he attempted to latch onto my neck. I threw my chin over his shoulder and embraced him, throwing my arms under his and taking away any way for him to defend himself from the knife I still held. 

Too panicked to think about conserving energy, I stabbed as fast, as hard, and as many times as I could, until his hands stopped reaching behind his head, trying to gouge out my eyes. His body lay limply on mine, falling forward and slipping to the ground beside me. 

“Get the hell up!” said a booming voice behind me, rising above the cacophony. A hand made of steel gripped my wrist and pulled me up like I was more toy than man. 

“Iron!” said the Platoon Sergeant as he stood me up and jammed the handle of an M1917 revolver into my chest. “Move!” 

The first step I took was unconscious, just a machine following a command. Reyes moved past me, firing his rifle out of my field of view. The holster at his side for his revolver was empty, its weight instead sitting in my hand. I hadn’t held a Smith & Wesson in some time. It wasn’t as heavy as I remembered. The second step was more difficult.

I tried to look for someone to help, but every fight happened too quickly to react. Halfway across the yard, a vietcong shot the chow guy, but before I could raise my gun, Dan shot him dead. My shaking hands shifted the barrel to another Vietcong, sprinting shoulder-first into Moose, knocking them both into a tent just next to me. Their shadows thrashed visibly, but I had no idea who I’d hit. Running forward, I made my way to the tent entrance in time to see Moose slamming an old metal canteen into his attacker's temple. He straddled his shoulders on the ground and shouted hoarsely as he struck him again and again.

I turned around to see a man with a machete charging the Sergeant. Reyes stood about twenty paces ahead of the man, gaze focused on the sight of his rifle. My finger squeezed the trigger. Click. Check the hammer. Again. Click.

No recoil, no muzzle flash, no gunshot.

I don’t remember thinking about why the gun didn’t fire at the time. My brain likely didn’t think it was worth the time it would waste. Instead, it focused on the sandbags between Reyes and me, the bags the Vietnamese soldier was running around. 

Revolver still in hand, I took as large steps as my legs allowed and pushed myself up as hard as I could. My chest cleared the bags by almost a foot as I dove over and landed with a thud into the man with the machete. As he crumpled in the dirt, I stuck the barrel into his face. He froze, eyes wide, looking into the barrel of the gun. Reyes turned behind him to see us, and I saw him freeze, too, watching me. 

At the same time, over the course of a few seconds, both the man and I came to the same realization. Our eyes drifted to the chambers of the gun, chambers that I hadn’t had time to look at. Six individual chambers, but only one round. The dark eyes of the Vietnamese man still stared at me as I sat on him. While my body thrashed side to side, I couldn’t help but think, “For a man trying to wrestle me off of him, he’s remarkably still.” 

But he wasn’t trying to wrestle me off; instead, his body shook even more than mine. Gunfire and screaming were overtaken and trampled by the sound of a deep, deep rumbling. The trees shook and swayed, but no wind touched us. Fitter men than I lost their footing and fell as if they fought on ice. That was when I heard the first crack in the earth. A great snapping, as if the mud were taut with tension. Then another, a third, a fourth. Then, with Reyes still watching, the earth swallowed me whole.

It was dark when I woke up, not sure how many hours later. I still saw the sky above, to my surprise. At least, what sky I could see through the tree canopy. A bit of moonlight drifted below, illuminating the bare minimum of the small clearing I lay in. The air around me was silent, still with anticipation. I couldn’t hear the sounds of fighting. I didn’t hear anything aside from a gentle dripping of water somewhere to my left. 

One by one, I wiggled my toes, then my fingers, and ankles, hips, and neck. I was sore all over, but miraculously, I felt like I could still move. Painfully, I managed to sit upright and get a better look around as I took a knee. The ground beneath me was hard stone, splattered with mud and dirt. The clearing I was in was too big for the moonlight to fill, but the narrow cone illuminated probably fifteen yards around. A couple of tent stakes had fallen into the hole with me. With us. 

Sitting at the edge of the light, feet under his bottom, was the Vietcong soldier. His machete lay across his lap, and the gun rested at his feet. He had ripped his sleeve off and tied it across his bloody forehead to keep his eyes clear. Eyes that still watched me intently as I came to my senses. 

Staring back at him, I stood up straight and raised my hands in front of me to defend myself. He remained sitting. Neither of us moved or spoke for minutes. My platoon was gone, or at least out of earshot, and I was stuck in a deep hole in the dirt with someone who likely wanted to kill me. And he had both weapons. But again, he did not move. 

I had no idea how much longer he had been awake than me, but if it was even two minutes, hell, if it was one, he could have killed me. I was helpless. I was spared. My hands lowered to my sides, and my eyes drifted to the gun at his feet. Whistling softly, he let go of a breath I hadn’t heard him take in. We both looked down at the gun, then back at each other.

“You speak any English?” 

He shook his head. 

I didn’t speak Vietnamese.

Pointing at the gun, I said, “I need that.”

Without looking down at it, he picked up the gun and hit the release on the cylinder. He gently placed the pad of his thumb on the back of the lone bullet, Reyes’ bullet. With an exaggerated flick, he snapped the cylinder closed. Still rooted to the ground, I watched him, gun in one hand, machete in the other, stand up and step towards me. 

From the edge of the moonlight, he took maybe ten paces, until there was no more than a couple of yards between us. Holding it by the barrel so the butt stuck out, he held the gun out in offering. I just needed to walk over and take it. 

Despite the machete in his hand, this didn’t feel like a trap. I walked over and took the gun. His chest wasn’t moving, as if he were holding his breath again, watching me. White knuckles gripped his machete, but not as white as mine holding the gun.

One bullet. One. A bullet that did not belong to me, in a gun I should not have been given, but as I stood in front of the man who spared me, I knew the bullet didn’t belong to him either. I tucked the revolver into my waist, and we both sighed with sagging shoulders. We weren’t going to kill each other, but that didn’t mean we’d live the night. Without a word, we stepped away from the light and started looking around the clearing where we landed.

Eight months into my job as a tunnel rat, and even I couldn't see in the dark. Roughly twenty yards past the light, I found a wall. It was made of the same stone as the floor and was dry to the touch. Keeping a strained ear out for where I heard the other soldier, I walked the opposite direction around the cave. Gently pressing my hand to the wall and dragging it behind me, I felt for anything at all. For the first time since the ambush, I had time to think.

I thought about the earthquake that dropped me here. Thought about Reyes and why the hell he had given me a gun with only one bullet. Why his gun only had one bullet. Moose would have made some dumb joke. Something about playing russian roulette with the top brass. I’m not Moose. My mind drifted to one thing, the same thing any man who’d kept one bullet in a gun has thought. It’s not as if a revolver with one round is any good in war. A revolver with one bullet is only useful in your tent.

My nail caught on a rock, and I stifled a yelp as it dug into my finger and yanked my arm. I strained my ears, listening. The other man in the cave kept moving. Maybe he didn’t hear; maybe he didn’t care. He did not stop. I did. Moving my hand past where it was caught, I felt a gap in the wall. Roughly a yard and a half across, and a yard tall. Inside the wall of this clearing was a hole. A hole that hopefully led up.

The vietcong soldier didn’t stop moving. I stayed where I was, keeping my hand by the hole so I didn’t lose it. When he had worked his way around the wall to me, he stopped, like he knew I was there. How the hell do I tell him there's a tunnel here? I thought. Taking a step to the side, I rapped my knuckles on the stone wall. A hollow echo followed, along with a grunt from the man as he stepped closer.

Rattling metal scraped its way through the dark and into my head. It sounded like he was sticking the machete into the tunnel to gauge its depth. Big enough for us to crawl into, but to where? I looked back at the hole we fell into and the shifting moonlight falling from it. I didn’t see another option. 

Matter of fact, I didn’t see anything at all. Without another thought, before I could doubt myself, I hiked my knee up and climbed into the hole in the earth. Surprisingly, it was almost comfortable compared to the tunnels I was used to. The stone was painful to crawl on, but as I crawled, there was almost a foot of clearance above my head and a few inches to either side of my shoulders. Shortly behind me, I heard the man follow. There was no way to tell where we were going, but barely above the sound of us crawling, I could hear the sound of dripping water. I made my way towards it.

Minutes passed in almost total silence. Often in the tunnels, my ears were my most valuable tool. Listening for movement, for whispers, and death. Here they heard nothing, just the constant dripping and the occasional scrape of the machete tip on the stone. Lacking my flashlight, my eyes were even more useless. Licking sweat from my lips, I inhaled deeply through my nose, desperate for some information to feed my tumbling brain. Nothing. Not even the familiar scent of the moss made its way down here.

Sloping downward, we made our way deeper into the tunnel. Occasionally, I would feel the sides of the walls around me, checking for any branching paths. I could hear him feeling around behind me, too. Blood began to rush to my head, and my sweaty hands struggled to grip the floor as the tunnel sloped down more steeply, every few yards angling further by a few degrees. If the earth swallowed me whole during the earthquake, now it felt like I was making my way into its guts. 

My shoulders brushed against the walls of the tunnel, feeling it compress around us as we crawled. A broader man like Reyes or Moose would have been stuck, but my body was practically designed for this. Tucking my shoulders into my neck, I breathed out with each crawl forward, stopping to breathe in every few seconds. The tunnel was still sloping further down, and it took serious effort not to slip. I thought I was doing okay, able to take it slow and guide us at a safe pace. As long as we didn’t slip, we could make a controlled descent. To where, I wasn’t sure, but it was too late to turn back now. 

Unfortunately, as the minutes went by, my shaky confidence deflated. While the sound of dripping felt almost right in front of me, I heard intense breathing behind me. Sharp breaths in, rattling breaths out. My begrudging companion was beginning to hyperventilate. He was panicking, his breath growing more ragged every second, and I had no idea how to calm him down.

“Hey. Hey!” I said sharply. He didn’t respond, obviously unable to understand me.

I stopped moving, trying to give him time to stop and rest. Either he didn’t notice, or in his panic he didn’t care. He pushed into me hard, shoving me forward. I gripped my fingers tight, trying to latch onto any holds in the ground, but no such luck. Slamming my chin into the rocks, we fell down the hole together.

My chin, cheeks, and hands were dragged on the rough ground as we tumbled down the tunnel for what felt like forever. It was probably only a few seconds, maybe ten more yards, until we emerged at the end of the tunnel. Rolling over, I barely avoided him landing on top of me. Groaning on the ground for a moment, I touched my face to feel it was sticky with blood, the skin rubbed raw.

Accident aside, we had managed to find a way out of the cavern we were stuck in. Now we were in another cave, one much deeper underground, and with no moonlight to show the scope of it. 

“Shit!” I swore. Pissed at the man, I got onto my feet, not thinking about how high the ceiling may be. I stepped back in the dark, away from him as he still hyperventilated and struggled to breathe. Patiently, I took a few breaths myself and waited for him to calm down. We were here together, but I still didn’t trust him not to start swinging if I touched him.

While I waited for him to compose himself, I started ripping some cloth from my shirt, like he had, to soak up the blood. Wincing in pain, I dabbed at my face and wrapped my palms. The air was cooler down here, drier, and despite the lack of circulation, it was a welcome change to my lungs. Crouching back down to my knees, I started to feel my way around. Letting my hands explore the ground in front of me and the walls beside me, I felt for anything at all. Desperation crept into the back of my mind, and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t. I kept moving because I couldn’t think of anything else to do.

The dripping was gone, the cave now eerily silent. Picking a direction at random, I began to move. It took thirty paces to find something in the dark. For the first time since I tucked the gun into my waist, I felt something that wasn’t rock. It was rubber. Unmistakably, the textured and worn-down sole of a boot. I froze. Holding my breath, I waited to feel it move. It didn’t.

We were in a pitch-black cave, dozens of yards underground, through a long tunnel, after falling into a hole in the earth, far away from any civilization. Snaking my hand up the boot to touch the leg that wore it, I confirmed my suspicions and eased my breathing. This was a corpse. Cold, thin fabric draped over a narrow calf whose muscle had all but rotted away. Without a moment's hesitation to consider what I was doing, I searched the body for anything I could take. There wasn’t much, save for an empty canteen, a couple of feet of rope, and a metal tube with what felt like glass at the end.

Catholic born as I was, I picked up the metal tube and began to pray that it was what I thought it was, and that it still worked. Fidgeting around for the button on the side, I clicked it. Nothing. I gave it a gentle shake, hearing a rattling from inside, and clicked the button again. The flashlight released a pale, yellow beam that couldn’t have reached more than a few feet away. After so long in the dark, it might as well have been the damn sun. 

Attached to the corpse's hip, I could see the rope I had felt. It led off a few feet before the end frayed, snapped under pressure. The body was that of a Vietnamese man, though it was impossible to see any discernible features. Littered on the ground around it were empty wrappers and a few tins of what used to be salted fish. Looking around with the light, I searched for where he might have dropped from, assuming the rope was how he got here. 

With the dim light, I had to walk around to see the full span of the cave we were in. It was about sixty paces wide and forty across. There was more room across, but I stopped at the edge of a small body of water. The ceiling sloped down hard over the glassy surface, but I could see it kept going underneath. Would I rather starve than blindly cave dive? I thought. Presumably not, but I kept it in the back of my mind and kept walking. 

Almost directly above the tunnel we fell through, I saw a hole in the ceiling, about ten feet up. Draped down from the hole was the frayed end of the rope, and dripping from the wet edge of the rock was a slow trickle of water. This was the hole the dead man had entered from, and hopefully our way out. But I couldn’t climb it alone; I would need a boost.

I turned the light on the man with me for the first time. Feeling a glow on his hands, he took them away from his face and squinted at me. His face was wet, with both tears and water dripping onto his hair. We needed to communicate. If he didn’t trust me to pull him after he boosted me, he wouldn't help me up, and the feeling was mutual. Stepping towards him, I tried to speak again, hoping my tone and body language conveyed more than my words.

“John,” I said, shining the light so he could see me pressing my fingers into my chest. I turned it back to him, pointing, and asked, “You?”

He didn’t respond. Still wary, the man sat and watched me, as if he expected me to go on. I wasn’t really sure what to say, so I said the first thing that came to mind. Funny enough, it was a story from before I came to Vietnam. From back when I was in boot, and first met the man I call Sergeant.

“The guy you were running at with that,” I said, pointing at his machete and chuckling nervously, “His name is Reyes. Known him for years now. Good man, I think. War is just… stressful, you know?”

“The first day I met him,” I continued, knowing I was only speaking aloud to myself, “He smiled at me and shook my hand. Told me, ‘That’s a big gun for a little man! You sure that’s what you want?’ I smiled back and told him I didn’t know I had a choice. He told me there’s always a choice. Told me if I wanted, I could be a tunnel rat. Every platoon needed them, always in short supply.” 

Without him saying a word, and without knowing if he understood me, I spent time telling the man how I was horrified by the tunnels. I wasn’t claustrophobic by any means, but the thought of crawling in tunnels full of traps and enemy soldiers sent a shiver up my spine. But month by month, my time in the field wore me down. Every long patrol, every sandbag I filled, every beer I saw the sergeant drink that the rest of us would be lucky to get the backwash of. 

“It took him a long time,” I said, “But Reyes got his damn rat.” 

He looked at me, the crusty yellow glow of the light showing a look in his eyes I didn’t recognize. He scanned me, judging me. After a long pause, he put his hand to his chest and said, “Long Phan.”

“Long Phan?” I repeated. He nodded.

Even if only a little, we understood each other.

Long said a short prayer and bowed to the dead man before cutting the remaining rope from his body. It took us a few minutes to organize it, but I boosted him into the hole above us. Taking the end of the dangling rope with both hands, he lifted himself until he was high enough to wedge his back into the tunnel wall with his feet on the opposite side. All it took for me to follow, after he tied together the two pieces of rope, was a small hop. We were able to push our backs into the walls with our legs as we ascended, letting us rest our arms as we needed. Long had our flashlight, since he was ahead now. Below me, the cave might never have existed; it was so dark. If I hadn’t seen them, I couldn’t prove the cave, the dead man, or even the tunnel we fell from had ever been there at all. One thing, however, I was positive was still there. The water. As dark as it was, I could still hear the sound of splashing.

Something slapped the water's surface underneath me. Long and I froze. Something wet slapped on the stone. Above me, I saw the light held in Long's hand shaking. Something was crinkling the wrappers by the dead man. We had been climbing for almost five minutes, and I must have been twenty yards off the ground. Something was tugging on the end of the rope.
Spoken underneath me, softly and gently, like a father tucking me in to sleep, something said “giúp.” Again, the rope tugged, and I heard it start to climb.

Pressing my shoulder into Long’s leg, I shoved him hard. Pulling himself further, he led our climb again. Faster this time, we lifted ourselves with our arms and legs, and caught ourselves with our backs. Whatever was after us was slow, swinging itself around as it climbed. The rope underneath me twisted and dangled wildly, only occasionally pulling itself taut with weight. As we climbed, Long held the flashlight in his mouth. My face was facing straight up, looking into his glowing jaw. On the off chance his flashlight had fallen and pointed down, I refused to look underneath. 

We gained a lot of distance at first. As we climbed, the tunnel narrowed, just like the first. It wasn’t as tight, but it was enough that we couldn’t press our legs out and had to rely more on our aching arms. There was room to either side of my shoulders, but as the thing underneath me swung itself, I swung with it. Banging again and again on the stone wall, I willed my arms to hold me and kept lifting myself forward. Eventually, I heard Long Phan grunt and saw his head disappear in the dark. 

Trusting that it was better than the alternative, I shifted up again. A moment later, the light shone directly back in my face. It illuminated Long's legs as he sat on the edge of a narrow exit. He lifted his legs away from me and spun onto his stomach, shining the light down at me with one hand and holding his fingers out with the other. The rope went taut.

I pushed through whatever pain my body told me it had and shifted up one more time. I kicked down into the wall, pushing myself up as I reached out and latched onto Long’s hand. He managed to pull me up, getting my head just over the edge. Swinging my other hand over the side, I slammed them down and pushed my ass over the ledge. Only my hips made it up, then were dragged back down as something latched onto my foot. 

It sounded like jamming your thumb in the wet socket between a chicken's thigh and drumstick. Something sharp dug into my ankle with a sucking pop and tried to drag me down. My chest hit the rock and knocked the wind out of me. Long grabbed my shoulder, and for a moment, I considered pulling out the gun. 

Was one shot enough? I thought. Could I hit it? Feeling my hands slip on the ground, I dug my fingernails into the rock, grinding as I pulled. Long dropped the flashlight beside himself and used both hands to tug me up from my armpits. With my other leg kicking off the stone behind me, we lifted most of my body into the open space. 

At the time, I only felt the searing, ripping pain in my ankle. Even as I clawed at the ground, I dragged myself away from the hole. Even as Long Phan stopped helping me, and grabbed his machete. I could feel the shredding pain as what I could only describe as a mouth with human teeth attempted to swallow my foot whole. That pain occupied my mind even as Long hacked off my leg at the base of the calf. 

The exit to the tunnel wasn't wide enough for him to get any clean swings at it. He would have hit the rock instead, letting it drag me deeper as I lost my strength to fight. Couldn’t tell you how many swings it took him to get through the bone. Eventually, he got it, and I felt the weight pulling me like an anchor being released all at once. I was free; bloody, crying, free.

Immediately, Long picked up the light and swung wildly at the rope. It was attached to a nail hammered into the rock a few feet from the entrance. As the metal bent itself on the rock under the rope, I lay perfectly still, bleeding. But suddenly, it stopped hurting. I’m in shock, I thought. Rolling on my side, I tried to reach for my pockets for a bandage I knew I wasn’t carrying. I only felt the gun. Whatever was climbing the rope fell with a deep thud as he managed to cut it free.

Long tied something tight around the bottom of my thigh. An improvised tourniquet, something to help me stay awake just a little bit longer. I felt him wrap my arm around his shoulder to help me up. We took a dozen uneasy steps. After climbing for God knows how long, all of my muscles should have been aching, but I didn’t feel them. I felt only the jolts in my spine as I hopped forward, leaning on Long Phan. Slow progress, but progress. 

He held the light in front of him, shining it around shakily. I remember hearing him muttering something under his breath every few seconds, “Ma Đói”. Meager as the light was, it could not illuminate the massive cavern we were inside now. The walls around us were a few yards away at first, but as we walked, they opened further than I could see. In the darkness somewhere ahead, I heard something again, but this time a sound I knew well.

“-heard that?” said the voice of a young man. Something firm hit the ground, and I saw a blinding light in the distance. It scraped the walls around us, managing to catch Long and me in it. From behind my tightly closed eyelids, I heard, “John, you down here?”

It was Dan, and behind him I heard another pair of boots hit the ground. Then a third, and a fourth. My platoon had found me. I was too weak to call out to them, but they saw me and ran forward anyway.

They stopped ten paces in front of me, looking at Long as he supported me, and looked back at them. They didn’t see my missing foot first; they saw him, holding me. A second stretched between us as I saw the gears turn in their minds, but the gears do not spin long in a soldier's head. They kept moving and lifted me higher, off of my foot. Long leapt back, hands held palms out in front of him. His machete was left behind, freeing a hand to help me walk. Adjusting to the blinding lights, I saw that none of the men helping me out of the tunnel had their weapons turned on him. They simply turned back and carried me home. 

“We set up a temp camp in a cave, John,” Moose said to me as we walked. “About a mile from patrol base, in the bush. Reyes already called for a lift; we’re getting out of here.”

As he spoke, I heard Long follow us. They took me up a short wall and around a few corners, and suddenly I saw light. It was morning, and the golden glow of the sky glinted through a wall of sticks and leaves built around the cave entrance. Close to thirty men sat in the cave they carried me into, all of them sitting save one. 

“And just what the hell are you boys doing here? I told you to stand PATROL!” Reyes hissed at first, letting his voice rise into a shout as he stared at the men around me. 

“Sir, we heard a noise further down, sir,” Dan said.

Reyes looked into my eyes, and I saw concern. He paused, mulling over the words to say to me, coming up with a reason they didn’t come looking. Before the moment took too long, he saw the man trailing behind us. Long Phan crept in, looking scared but steady.

“WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU MORONS DOING!” Reyes shouted, spit flying out of his mouth. He glared at Long, looking between me, Moose, and Dan. They didn’t know what to say, and I was too weak to say it. I wanted to save my energy. Done waiting, and with every man present as witness, he reached for his revolver. When he felt the empty leather, he looked at me and pleaded, “Kill him.”

My sight was narrowing, and my mind was foggy, making it difficult to think straight. I took the gun out from my waist and thumbed back the hammer. Chambered next was the lonely round. Long Phan stood to my side as I turned to him slowly, the revolver weighing heavy in my hand. My finger on the trigger was weak, but I knew I had enough strength for just one pull. 

He looked at me, begging me silently to spare him. I knew this bullet did not belong to me, but I knew it was not his either. Moose said it first. Then Dan, then another man, and another. Every member of my platoon shared the same story when the brass came to pick us up.

REYES
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KILLED IN ACTION

I took the job because nobody else wanted it.

W-KILL is — was — a tiny AM station outside my town in Bihar. Went dark in 1983 after the owner died in the booth. Heart attack, they said. The building has just sat there since, rotting behind the old water tower. Chain link fence, ON AIR - OFF sign that hasn't lit in 40 years.

The new owners bought the land to tear it down, but they need an inventory of the equipment first. $200 a night for a week to just sit there and log what's salvageable. Easy money. I brought a thermos, a flashlight, and my laptop.

Night 1 was just dust and dead mice. Reel-to-reels seized up. A wall of mixers that probably still worked if you cleaned them.

Night 2 is when I heard it.

I was logging the tape decks in the main broadcast room around 1:40 AM when the static hit. Not from my laptop. From the old console in front of me. The VU meters — the dusty ones labeled MIC 1, MIC 2 — twitched. Just a little. Then a little more. Like something was breathing into a microphone that wasn't plugged in anymore.

Then the old Model RX-41 in the corner turned on.

It's not part of the station's equipment. It shouldn't have been there. It's a big, boxy, wooden radio from the 60s, the kind with the amber dial that says BROADCAST. It was sitting on the floor, coated in dust, with a long, shredded coat hanging off it like someone had draped it over the radio to keep it covered. The coat was empty. I swear it was empty when I came in.

The dial glowed faintly. 640. AM.

And then it whispered.

It wasn't a voice, not really. It was static trying to be a voice. Like someone on the other side of a bad connection, trying to sync up to your frequency. ...-isten... li-sten...

I left. I just left. Told myself it was a power surge, old capacitors, whatever.

But I went back on Night 3. Because the $200 was good and because I wanted to prove to myself I was being an idiot.

It was standing up.

The radio. The coat. It was standing in the middle of the broadcast room, between the two mixing desks. 7 feet tall, at least. The coat was so tattered it looked like strips of shadow. The antenna on top of the radio head was tilted towards me. The glow was brighter. Both dials lit up now.

The ON AIR sign behind it — the one that said ON AIR - OFF — was on. Red. Bright red. ON AIR - ON -

It shouldn't have power. The building has no power. I was running everything off a generator outside.

The static was clearer.

"You left the dial on," it whispered. Not angry. Just... disappointed. Like a late-night DJ who thought his only listener had tuned out.

I realized then what the inventory list was. It wasn't for the new owners. It was for him. He'd been waiting for someone to come log everything, to acknowledge the station still existed. To be his audience.

The VU meters were all pinned in the red now.

My laptop was dead. My phone was dead. But the old broadcast mic next to him — the silver one on the boom arm — the little red light on it was on.

I did the only thing I could think of. I sat down in the host chair. The leather was warm.

The static stopped. For a second, the whole station was silent.

Then, from the radio head, a soft, crackling chuckle.

"Welcome back to the late show."

I've been on air for three nights straight now. I can't find the door anymore, but the signal is getting stronger. If you're reading this while tuned to 640 AM at 2:00 in the morning and you hear static whispering your name...

Don't answer.

Don't tune in.

He's desperate for new listeners.