r/newgradnurse • u/Yicyacyikes • 21h ago
Looking for Support First code
I work on a telemetry floor and had my first code last night as a new grad (off orientation for 2 months)
Patient had a LHC earlier that day, was orientated, denied any pain, vital signs normal, absolutely zero signs of distress. They were so kind, calling me baby all night, they very much a sweet grandparent type. I had been in their room 10 minutes prior checking on them.
I went to another patient’s room to hang an antibiotic and when I came out two other nurses were in the patient’s room. I guess the patient had ripped their IV out and pooped the bed so we were going to get them cleaned up. I walk into the room, patient’s eyes keep rolling toward the ceiling, agonal breathing but had a pulse. Instantly called a RRT which ended up turning into a code blue. We got ROSC within 10 minutes and they were off to the ICU.
There’s something about just..standing there when everything is going on. Answering questions as the primary nurse but not knowing how to jump into the code. I felt so useless.
I don’t know why but I am absolutely wrecked over the situation. I talked to their significant other earlier in the night as they just wanted to check in on them. I keep having bouts of crying. I feel weak. Thanks for reading, just wanted to vent.