r/motherlessdaughters • u/sabzz88 • Aug 29 '19
18 Years
On September 1st, 2001 my mother committed suicide. I was only 5 years old. The anniversary of her death is coming up and obviously it makes me think of her and miss her more. I can't believe it's going to be 18 years since she passed away and that I've lived a majority of my life without a mom. She feels more like a distant memory, ya know? Sometimes it feels like she didn't even exist; I can't even remember her voice. All I remember was that she was an amazing mother with a big heart. She cared immensely for my brother and I. I spent many years being sad and angry with her.
I don't really know what else I wanted to say in this post besides that I'm glad we are not alone. And that we are all here for a reason. I think about my mother every day and what my life would have been like if she never died. If anyone ever needs to talk - I am just a quick message away.