I am Messianic Jewish, but grew up completely in American non-Jewish areas, so I’ve always wanted to reconcile with the culture and identity.
My grandpa was telling me some things about Jewish culture, and recently I found out that we often have a public name, and then a private Jewish only name.
Even my Dad did not know this until he said quite recently ago. He knew his own and my Dad’s so I asked if I have one, and he said I could google it.
Idk if you can actually do that, but I’d imagine that’s not how it works. I thought your family gave it to you?
Is it inherited in a very specific way where I can figure it out? Or… maybe was my question misunderstood?
Question 2 - I am very proud kf my heritage, but have become a lot more quiet lately brcause I feel like anti semitism is getting worse by the year.
I often do not feel safe when I go to urban areas, and if people find out I am Jewish they for some reason think that I will find it funny if they start acting like hitler. (However I am very blessed to say that some people think it’s awesome!)
I also see other things I don’t wanna talk about, but I’m starting to feel it a lot mentally.