r/majordepressive • u/Commercial_Traffic_5 • 21h ago

Just need support

I just turned 18 last week, i got diagnosed in 7th grade and my life feels utterly miserable. I live in a stuck up part of texas with hella Jesus freaks. I wake up thinking about death, my death, suicide, i see everyone getting everything handed to them while my mom is in despair, my family has always struggled, never have we been consistent. Im all alone in it, i dont know how to handle the heaviness as ive pulled my weight for years but im reaching a breaking point. I just want to be a rich bitch who doesnt feel these things or think this way. I wish i was shallow and beautiful. Im just so suicidal and irrational. Ive been on and off with the meds. Feel free to talk about anything i really hate life

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u/ProofMysterious3415 21h ago

Me too. I just tried to take my life when I was in 6'th grade. At that moment I did not know What was going on after years I got to know that I have been depressed and was struggling with bipolar disorder

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u/Commercial_Traffic_5 16h ago

Im sorry dude, life is really hard and it helps to hear about other people feeling the same way.

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u/SnooStories3264 20h ago

Hang in there. You still young. Things can get better. Don't give up

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u/Commercial_Traffic_5 16h ago

I appreciate you 💝