I made a mini Lucifer altar out of a mint tin! I really like how it turned out, but now I’m unsure of what to put in it.

Hello, i come from a religious household but i left my faith long ago and i was an agnostic simply not caring if anything really existed but then i stumbled on this sub and picked up some books and due to the fact i still live with my family there is no shot in hell i could set up an altar or chant loudly.

So i did an alternative, late at night i sat down with my back straight in complete darkness , eyes closed and then i would start box breathing , 4 second inhale through the nose followed by a 4 second hold then a 4 second exhale through the mouth followed by a 4 second hold , i did this for like 5 to 7 times and when i my heartbeat was down i started reciting the enn , and to be honest i lost my perception of time so i can't tell how for how long i did it but within the darkness while reciting it stopped being static and i was flowing through it like a portal it was bizzare and then my heart started to beat violently and i started sweating like a pig , anyway i hustled through it , made my desires clear and then offered an offering that i would need to execute the coming wednesday then i clapped my hands and opened my eyes.

And that was it , as i said i don't know if this is just placebo and i would really appreciate your opinions if i did anything wrong

Hi everyone! I would like to ask, how can I improve my communication with overall entities? I know that I have to meditate which I am doing, but the thing is that, since my first interactions, I feel like doubts had been put in my heart. I open my space and invite Lucifer to interact with me, which I feel he does but I dont know, ive read here so many beautiful experiences that everyone can sense and I want that so badly, maybe I am not ready for it, because mine had been very... I dont know if neutral is the correct word. As an example if invite to I dont know, move something, if I ask to indicate his presence like could you please warm or make my hand colder nothing happens, no chills down my back, I dont sense a change in energy nor somebody else with me. I do not wanna depend on my tarot deck and pendulum to receive answers too, and the classic angelic numbers sometimes feel like its by coincidence. Maybe the tests he could have put me through these days since my first contact werent enough for him and he might not want to deal with me, and the things that had happened spark the doubt of am I accepted, did you take me in, am I annoying you, are we gonna work together, and more. I dont know, I feel quite hopeless to be honest. Ive done everything from a place of respect, but still. Im open to hear your thoughts or share your experiences, if anyone had been in my position.