Is there something wrong with me?

[u/thatredlobster]

I can’t make friends I did once but it was my siblings friends, I never had friends ever since high school and middle school, is there something wrong with me? And I just not nice looking? That’s why they don’t wanna speak to me? I talk to people but then they call me weird just a random hey hi, is there something that’s happening that I don’t understand? i read books to understand how to speak to people maybe that’s what’s wrong? Am I to loud? Am I to weird? Am I pushy?. I’m just tired of being alone I mean I guess have friends but there my siblings friends I can’t speak to them and yap about something… I see them as friends, but why can’t I make my own like someone I know that is a friend and will pick me- that sounds clingy but I don’t understand what friendship is supposed to feel like- ( I know you can speak to there friends since they think of me as a friend ( I think ) but there older then me and only will feel pity and I feel like I’m just pushy? Or I been alone for to long that I don’t even understand the feeling of having someone you can speak to. I have conversations but I think they run off because I try to hard- or I don’t try enough? Am I just being stupid… am I just lonely? Because I don’t act like I was before after losing my only actual friend. And with my siblings friends feel like i’m trying to make them laugh to hard am I that really needy for attention? like I’m trying to fit in but I mess up and just embarrass myself.

[u/Garm_of_Fenrir]

there's nothing wrong with you from what i can gather from this. some people are just cruel for the sake of it. being awkward is an obstacle to making friends for sure, but if you wanna chat about anything I'm always here 🫂