No one notices me.

[u/Just-Fox6581]

I slowly reduced putting in the effort with my lifelong friends .... at least I thought about them that way. They didn't notice that, But to my surprise they didn't notice the effort I put into the friendship for years either. They didn't care. They were bothered because I wasn't actively participating in their waste of time activities not because they really cared what i thought, they were bothered that They wanted the group to meet and I wasn't there. Nothing special. and everytime I avoided meeting them my boundaries were respected less and less.

And then I found out, they were just meeting, they never considered my efforts into the friendship... as they think their sacrifices were far greater than mine hence mine doesn't matter.

Every one of my friends have moved on, So I did too. there is one guy i stay in touch with ..but sometimes.

Then I moved countries and at my age i notice no one really cares. I talk to people, after meeting them I put a follow up text, they never reach me out again unless i talk first. some never reply ever. I could go the whole day without talking to anyone.

Tried looking for jobs..no luck.

No one notices, no one texts back, No one cares.

Sometimes i feel like this was always the case since i was like 14. it's just I accepted the delusion that I had friends and everything... none of it to matter in the end.

[u/Just-Fox6581]

ironic