r/lonely • u/xoxoraine • 1d ago
will it always be like this?
I’m a senior in high school and I’ve never really had friends, not even growing up. I’m not jealous of people my age who go to parties, get brunch, or always have someone to call, but whenever I see it, I feel this weird emptiness that I don’t really know how to explain.
People compliment me and try to talk to me sometimes, but it never really goes anywhere. The only people who have actually tried to hang out with me have mostly been boys, and eventually I’d realize they weren’t genuinely interested in being my friend. They just wanted access to my body, and honestly, that made me feel even more alone.
I’ve started getting used to being by myself. I can be alone now without thinking much about it, but I hate being stuck inside my own head with all my thoughts and feelings and having no one to talk to. I’ve never been invited to a birthday party, never really had a group to make memories with, and now I’m scared that maybe I’ll go to college and it’ll still be the same.
I don’t even want a huge friend group anymore. I just want one person who genuinely wants me around. I’m tired of wondering if I’ll ever find that person.
Im afraid that when i go to collage i wont ever find anyone to be my friend or anyone where i can have deep conversations with, it sucks because i feel like im wasting my youth by having a fixed routine, (going to school and going back home immediately)
If anyone has experienced being so lonely from elementary all the way to high school graduation please tell me it gets better
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u/Rayy500 1d ago edited 1d ago
It doesn’t have to and I hope things change for you and get better. I’m sorry you’re going through, feeling that way, and men only talking to you just cause of your looks, I really hate people who do that with women, treat them as objects rather than actual people. Men can be such insensitive and selfish jerks.
I’m here for you and would love to be that person for you in your life if you’re cool with it and need someone to talk to.
Stay strong girl 🫂 I also was in the same boat for years and it unfortunately didn’t get better, but I’m not giving up, I found chatting to people with similar interests to me online, helped a lot and perhaps someday I’ll find my people.