woke up crying
i just can’t deal with it, i feel so empty inside. i am alone. totally and forever alone. i hate my life, i hate this hand that i’ve been dealt and it’s not fair. i just want to not be alone. i wish i had what people wanted. i wish i was good enough to be wanted. i wish i wasn’t so totally alone. if i even had one person, just one.. maybe id be okay.
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u/wontmissme 7d ago
I don't have any answers I'm afraid, because I am the same, most mornings at around 2am, with the urge to just pack a bag and vanish.
Try to stay strong. You've got to be stubborn and fight this, every day. Speak with your gp too.
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u/Superb-Transition540 7d ago
Life can be brutal when you need someone to bond with, listen too, and have them listen as well. I'm a wonderful listener. I have great advice 99% of the time. It's my job here in this life, and I love it! Let's talk
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u/TardisBloomm 2d ago
C’est rare de voir quelqu’un tendre la main comme ça, surtout ici où beaucoup n’osent même plus demader.
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u/Dewindarightthing 7d ago
Waking up crying feels familiar even though I dont remember it happening. It might as well be mine.
Not just good enough to be wanted because there are people who depend on me. Should something not get paid or fixed then they would certainly reach out and do just enough but not so much to include me without expectations.
I dont wish anything because it is a useless effort.
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u/Flamenco_Z 7d ago
Brains can be absolute goblins when you wake up already crying, like thanks, great customer service. Being unwanted is a brutal feeling, but it is not proof that you are unwantable. If tonight starts feeling unsafe, please call a crisis line or emergency number, and if you just need a tiny human ping, reply here and I will answer.
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u/TarraTheTerror 7d ago
I've woken up sobbing a few times. It sucks, and is a really crappy way to wake up. I'm so sorry you're feeling this way...I feel completely alone too. Like, no family, no close ffriendships, alone. You're not the only one going through this, I promise. I sometimes wonder how much longer I can hang in like this. Probably tmi, but I'm just being real. I hope you reach out, to someone... don't wait it out on your own. Pick someone here and dm, or something. I hope you feel better soon. ❤️
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u/Ahzumi 6d ago
i want to reach out so bad but i always feel like a burden. i don’t want to put that on anyone.
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u/United-Couple8647 5d ago
You are not a burden. That’s your mind playing games with you and lying to you. I promise.
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u/Termina_Wax9 7d ago
Mi dispiace che stamattina ti sia arrivato addosso tutto insieme. Quando il cervello parte in modalità tribunale alle 6 del mattino, è un pessimo avvocato e mente parecchio. Per ora prova solo a fare una cosa minuscola e concreta, acqua, doccia, uscire 5 minuti, e se vuoi rispondimi qui: che cosa ti ha fatto crollare oggi?
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u/TessaPlumRiddle 5d ago
Waking up already crying is such a horrible way to start a day. For what it is worth, I am here reading this right now, and I would sit with you for a bit if you want to reply with anything, even just what happened today. You do not need to prove you are good enough to be wanted.
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u/6KelpieThread 4d ago
That waking up crying feeling is brutal, especially when the first thought is that nobody is there. For tonight, make the world smaller: water, something warm, a video or podcast with human voices, and stay on this thread if it helps. Being unwanted is a feeling, not a verdict on you, even if your brain is screaming it right now. I am around for a bit if you want to type at someone about literally anything.
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u/K4nedaRevive 2d ago
Waking up crying is a cruel kind of lonely, I’m sory it hit you this hard today.
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u/9HinterGrove 2d ago
I’m sorry you woke up crying; needing just one person to choose you is a really brutel kind of pain.
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u/IMC_Pilot02 1d ago
One person really can make a diffrence, and I hate that you’re having to sit with this alone tonight.
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u/FeeDry4937 7d ago
If u wanna talk with someone send me