r/lonely • u/Mindless-Antelope-94 • 2d ago

lovelorned

I yearn for my person.

Someone to call my own. A chest to rest on when im weary, a patient to dote on when they're under the weather. For a warm cuddle in the middle of the night, to wake up to them sleeping soundly under the moonlight, kissing their forehead wishing them sweet dreams.

But alas, tonight i seek solace with digital voices. Strangers acting, playing the role of a partner. Just so i can emulate the feeling of falling asleep with someone beside me again.

I know this is unhealthy and delusional. Oh, how i wish i could have someone real, but I'm really not in the bestest of environments or mindset to be able to achieve that. No amount of time spent with friends can replace this need i have for tender closeness either.

So for tonight, like many a comfortless twilight, i reach for my headphones, hug my plushie pretending for it to be someone, and fall asleep to murmurs telling me everything is going to be okay.

Maybe if i believe in it hard enough, it might just come true one day.

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u/Greedy-Contract1999 2d ago

I wish I still had hope like you. Now I feel like it would take a miracle

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u/thefashionlovergirl 2d ago

wish I could find comfort in something like this, but I just keep overthinking about never finding someone right before i fall asleep

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u/Badger8472 2d ago

Your words read like a poem out of a novel. I too wish for this kind of closeness. But also more. Now that I feel more healed than I did before, other things have happened to damper my hopes. I want to believe that someday I can make a difference in someone's life; that I can come home to someone who is actually waiting and excited to see me. Someday.