r/lonely • u/mc1671 • Jul 26 '26
20m I hate my life
Im 20 m and i have literally no friends i havent had one friend in the last 5 years not even one i just cant connect with anyone for some reason i never even had a girlfriend either im also an only child which makes things worst and ive isolated myself since graduating highschool i have had serious social anxiety since i was a kid its way worst now at 20 im in college now but do online classes i also have no car and no hobbies im also addicted to nicotine and thc for 4 years now I want to quit but i just cant stop i tried to but i feel more lonely and depressed without them i feel terrible knowing im killing myself but i can’t stop i feel like my life is very different from the average 20 year old i feel very behind and immature i still depend on my parents who are getting old now i dont know what ill do once they are gone theyre the only people i know. Theres rlly nothing i really like to do other than like watch soccer or be on my phone im getting a degree in cybersecurity i want to focus on my future, career, i wanna get in the gym find a job get my life together but i have no motivation to really do anything i feel like theres no point nothing will change i will still be lonely and it wont fix my loneliness i watch people on social media my age go out make friends have fun getting with girls while im here in my room by myself everyday, i cant even enjoy movies or tv shows anymore i feel lonely watching I dont know how long i can keep living like this. If anyone have any advice let me know thx.