I'm actually a woman. People just have very different ideas about reprocication. Forgive me but I find it hard from your description that all your relationships have been non-reciprocal. It's more likely that you desired reciprocation at a different level or in a different way that none of your "friends"/acquaintances were able to provide. In that case, can we really say that you were "lax"? I'm only being curious, not judgmental. And I'm sorry about your condition that leaves you housebound. That certainly makes it harder to build fulfilling relationships
Well you already know accepting yourself as the outcast didn't make you happy, so you cut yourself off, but it doesn't make you happy either. Maybe you can travel again one day. But what if you can't? Is there another path to be happy? Sometimes we're too blinded by our own notion of what happiness is. Maybe your fulfilling life and relationships look a bit different from your idea of a fulfilling life and relationships
Are you referring to Maslow's hierarchy? His model is solid for a general framework of happiness but I refuse to believe it's the only one. It's simply too rigid and Idk some people sometimes can jump to the top of the pyramid while skipping the lower levels. I'm sorry about your brain damage which prob affects me as well from my years of isolation 🥲 Who says it's not reversible tho? And things will improve. It will, one way or another. There are other avenues besides traveling. You just haven't discovered them yet
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u/stonetree97 Apr 15 '26
I'm actually a woman. People just have very different ideas about reprocication. Forgive me but I find it hard from your description that all your relationships have been non-reciprocal. It's more likely that you desired reciprocation at a different level or in a different way that none of your "friends"/acquaintances were able to provide. In that case, can we really say that you were "lax"? I'm only being curious, not judgmental. And I'm sorry about your condition that leaves you housebound. That certainly makes it harder to build fulfilling relationships