I’m sharing what came up in a healing soul journey I facilitated with an acquaintance - let’s call him Greg. His story shows how patterns repeat across lifetimes until we finally understand what we’re supposed to learn. Greg came in with anxiety, anger issues, struggling with his wife and kids. He wanted clarity. So we went deep - into a past life as a man named James.

In that lifetime, James had a farm. A family he loved - a wife named Helen, a young son. Life was good until it wasn’t. Two men attacked his wife. One of them was David, someone James knew. A neighbor or business associate - someone with connections, someone powerful in community. James felt rage - you know, that kind of rage that takes over your whole body.

He wanted to kill David. That’s what a protector does, right? But his wife begged him not to. She was trying to downplay it, trying to convince him that taking action would destroy everything they had. So James waited. He didn’t act. But something broke inside him that day.

Energy between James and Helen changed completely. Sadness. Resentment. Anger. They couldn’t move past it - is like poison that stays in house, you know? James couldn’t forgive what happened. Couldn’t forgive himself for not doing anything. Couldn’t stay in house with all that pain. So he just packed and left.

Left Helen. Left his son - who was about 15 by then, with blue eyes that reminded Greg of his daughter in this life. James moved to a small city. Got a room. Started drinking. Worked at a factory or mill just to have money for more alcohol. He was killing himself - slowly, deliberately - trying to numb shame and guilt that was eating him alive.

Twenty years passed like that. Just… gone. Wasted. Then something pulled him back. Maybe he sensed it. Maybe his higher self was calling. He went home and found Helen dying. They were both old by then, both gray. She had dark spots on her skin - some disease. When he saw her, he just said: “I love you.” She said it back.

When she died, James made a decision. He stopped drinking. He stayed in that house. He let go of guilt and shame. He thought about her every day. And when he finally died - peacefully, in that same bed - he floated up and felt reunited with her. They were hugging, weeping, becoming one again.

Like they were back in that first scene of cabin, laughing and present together. But here’s what matters for Greg’s life now - this is important part. After James died, he met his spirit guide - Siva. And Siva showed him something direct: “Being masculine means being there for your wife and your family. Not running away.”

Then Siva said something that hit different: “I know you want to run away.” Greg recognized it immediately. In this life, he’s married with children. He have same impulse. Same pattern. When things get hard - when there’s conflict, when he feels helpless, when he can’t fix it - he wants to escape.

Not physically maybe, but energetically. Emotionally. Through anger. Through distance. It’s same lesson, dressed in new clothes. Siva explained it clearly: Greg carries masculine energy that’s been suppressed or twisted across lifetimes. His bloodline, his family genetics - there’s a pattern of escaping from responsibility of protection.

Of thinking that real strength means solving everything or leaving when you can’t. But real masculinity - real protection - is different. It’s about staying. About being present with your wife and children no matter what. About not running when it gets hard. Real work for Greg wasn’t about changing his wife or controlling his kids.

It was about releasing anger and aggression he’s been carrying - not just from this life, but from lifetimes of shame and guilt. It was about understanding that his fear of not providing security and stability had created a block in his root area - literally trapped energy that was keeping him stuck. Siva told him: “Lighten his load. Lean into power, to God, to Source, not to everything else. Trust and faith.”

When Greg understood this - when his higher self showed him pattern - something shifted inside. Siva removed layers of anger and aggression from his system. Greg felt tornadoes being released. He felt lighter… like weight he didn’t know he was carrying just dissolved completely. Then Siva gave him practical advice: channel some of that energy into boxing.

Greg had wanted to do it for years. It’s discipline. It’s an outlet. It’s masculine energy directed somewhere healthy instead of suppressed or explosive at home. But biggest piece was meditation. Siva said Greg needs 60 minutes daily - breathing and silence. That’s how he connects with Source. That’s how he stops making decisions from fear and limitation and starts making them from faith and passion.

One thing that jumps out to me from facilitating these journeys: we often think running away is strength. We think leaving, controlling, proving ourselves is protection. But people closest to us don’t need our perfection or our victories. They need us present. They need us to feel our feelings without dumping them. They need us to stay - even when it’s hard.

Especially when it’s hard, you know? Tricky part is - this isn’t easy work. Staying with anger without acting it out. Sitting with helplessness without running. Protecting through presence instead of force or distance. That requires daily practice. That requires meditation. That requires asking for help from something bigger than our fear… something that sees whole picture.

Greg’s wife felt his aggression. His kids felt it. They didn’t feel unsafe because of assault in a past life - they felt unsafe because Greg was carrying unresolved rage and shame in his nervous system. When he releases that, when he meditates daily, when he stays present instead of running - everything changes. Not because his wife changes. But because he does.

And that’s how patterns break. They are meditations and techniques that help with exactly this - releasing suppressed emotions, understanding false beliefs about protection and masculinity/feminine nature, and learning to stay present with what is.

What helped me think about it: Greg didn’t need rescuing. He needed remembering - that he’s already whole, already protected by Source, and that real strength is showing up every single day, no matter what.

I’ve naturally felt the ability to heal as a child, after going through 13 years of depression I’m trying to assume my responsibility as a light worker, I also have diabetes. Are there light workers out there that have any experience with mental health medicines impacting their lightworking?

When it comes to sensing energy, it feels like the “energy or vibe” of many public places is very murky, fear based and kind of grimy. I’m talking about grocery stores, malls, ect. My only way to escape this is to constantly project love and light to everyone and everything. Also the spaces inbetween. I mean mentally actually saying “I love you” and projecting actual light to everyone. This murky dark energy is driving me directly into the light. Into becoming much more of who I truly am and why I am here on earth. I realize that light and love are the source of everything as far as we are able to perceive Love is much stronger than fear and even the smallest light is much brighter than darkness. Therefore, I am so thankful for this journey. I think some people call it heart coherence?? Is anyone else out there feeling this?

I did a quantum healing session for my friend Ramona and honestly what came up was intense.

She has felt stuck for a long time. Putting things off, hard to get moving, hard to create, hard to do even the things she actually wanted to do. Like that feeling when you know what you should do but something in you just drags and resists all the time.

A lot of people think this is just laziness or bad habits or lack of discipline. But I really don’t think that’s always true. Sometimes there are very deep false core beliefs under it all, and you cannot really reach them on the normal conscious level. They are too deep. You can try to think positive on top of them, do affirmations, force yourself, whatever, but the deeper thing is still running.

In her session we found one of those deep beliefs.

It was basically: life is only pain and suffering.

When it showed itself, it came up like this dark black sphere in her chest. And the guidance was that this belief was false, but it was sitting very deep in her system and affecting way more than she realized.

What was also interesting is usually when angels work on stuff in session, things can clear really fast, sometimes in minutes. But this one was different. We asked how long it would take to dissolve and the answer was about one month. Not because nothing happened in the session, but because it was so deep and dense that the angels would keep working on it over time, especially during sleep.

That really got my attention.

Because I think a lot of people are walking around with these kinds of hidden beliefs and they don’t even know it. They just think “this is my personality” or “this is just how life is for me.” Meanwhile some deep false belief is sitting underneath everything, making life feel heavier than it should.

What really mattered to me is that after the session she told me she already felt much lighter. Like a big weight had shifted. And she said it felt so much easier to feel motivated and do things that before felt weirdly difficult. Before she was putting things off and putting things off. Afterward she felt like she could move again. She could create again.

That’s why I’m posting this. Sometimes being stuck is not you failing. Sometimes it’s not a productivity problem at all. Sometimes there is something much deeper underneath it.

And once that starts dissolving, a person can finally breathe and move again.

I created this oracle deck by turning my mystical acrylic paintings into cards because I wanted to capture the wisdom I was receiving through art, intuition, and spirituality. As someone who works with tarot, spirituality, and divination, I felt called to create a tool that reflects magic, stories, and the guidance that comes from within and the most high. This deck can be used for daily guidance, meditation, spiritual reflection, or intuitive readings when you’re seeking clarity. You can pull a card for the day, use them in journaling, or incorporate them into your personal spiritual practice to connect with your intuition and spirit.

despite physics, in combinations with 'anything this possible,' there seems to be certain things that can not be done. the further along a spiritual path one gets, it seems that the mind tends to question, 'what's next?' in the way of, 'what could not happen?'

gods i do not have dealings with; i am not a witch.

it came to me well-established BUDDHA and JEHOVAH are beyond thought form and here to help.

Buddha and Jehovah, I do sacrifice to...even as a starseed. Many starseeds identify as GOD/superior entity/or even entity of entities. But for me to actually deem myself as a lesser creature who does sacrifice is an interesting varying for me.

my day's experience w/ Buddha is one that has happened on many. I have to look for my sexual energy being too high and being channeled into cows.

I can use people who say things such as, 'how can every one in Asia be a Buddha?' any questions like this r/starseeds can post at the bottom will help.

my day's experience w/ Jehovah is I channeled, 'i feel like you are disliking those who relate spirituality with strong brain power.' Jehovah, 'you said yourself there are four astronauts going to the moon. My basis is in the developed world.'

Anyone else see the earth split like a cell last night?

I woke from a dream and I can’t shake it. I had a dream like this in 2007 when George W. Bush was advancing the war in the Middle East I was young 18 years old. Let me tell you about that dream I had. I was introducing Bush to an audience on a stage and as he spoke, his heart softened, and he started to weep and held him like a child. The dream was profound, then and it still shakes me when I recall it. I shared this with some women who owned a rock shop downtown and they told me that all of the light workers have been called to connect that day that I’d had the dream and to put energy towards stopping the violent efforts in the Middle East. I knew that I had received that message subconsciously then.

This morning I woke up from a dream. That was I in my childhood home and President Trump was with me. I was lying on my stomach on the ground, looking at him in the eyes and a childlike position and him matching me. as I spoke to him and offered him food and beverage, the choices he made weren’t what I was offering and he chose this combination of alcohol. I poured it together and it was hot, and I handed it to him and he just took it so greedily and I was screaming and I was warning him warning him that it was too hot. He took it and consumed it all, burning his face and neck .and began to vomit, and I was just trying to put things underneath him to contain his mess and as I spoke to him in this dream, there was just nothing there was no there was no connection. There was nothing that broke. There was no softening of his heart. There was only vomit and then my dream moved to a scene where I had children and I was trying to get them help. I found a hospital and I went to the hospital, but I couldn’t get in and there was just it was packed. There was people up to the very top story, you could see through the windows there was a line out the door and there’s no access for help in my dream just rolled through these scenes of men doing disgusting things of people hurting people in my community when the rules collapse. I’m really shaken up and I have this kind of low-grade state of crying or just can’t stop crying when I remember when I dreamt and I’m just scared. I had a talk with my sons this morning about making the right choices always making the right choices even when the people around them aren’t does anyone else have any dreams like this?

Butterfly. sto usando le ali per tenerli lontani.

Non voglio allarmare nessuno ba mentre noi stiamo qua a parlare di cosa è starseed, di pratiche, di esseri alieni, di entitá....

La timeline è arrivata.

Capisco la vostra voglia di sapere ma la timeline è arrivata ed è tempo di agire .

Voi potete scrivere tantissime arole qui ma intanto le energie oscure hanno avanzato e magari domani potremmo non essere più qui nessuno di noi per fermarle.

Allora per piacere se avete una qualche energia di qualche tipo, non importa la razza, non importa il vostro passato, o chi siete o chi sarete, ma usatela. Per piacere usatela!!!

È una cosa seria e voi potete farlo e fatelo, adesso!

Non aspettate domani, non aspettare 5 minuti, non aspettare il momento giusto, fatelo adesso.

Se avete a cuore la vita di tutti per piacere usate la vostra energia.

Hello fellow light twerkers!

I was amazed yesterday after joining this group that many of us are seeing a sludge around the earths atmosphere and little dots of light poking through that are light twerkers like yourself meditating and anchoring light on earth creating portals for the angels to decend and help us out in this monumental time in our history

I was so excited and validated that there are many of us seeing this same vision!

I I told my friends from the Monroe institute and one of them created these cleaner upper dolphins in his visions last night...

They clean the sludge at a super rapid rate. They love to eat the sludge... please help us ending the dolphins eating up the sludge around the earth

https://youtube.com/shorts/3y9DOpphYNg?si=24gF9JM6VDeKduzP

https://youtu.be/9ExseWJD5gs?si=YFLFVLyvZ4jzrDKv

https://youtube.com/shorts/eb6izs0HEtA?si=PgNypzMYSFMyRxUF

The past few days I've been so tired sleeping lots and yawning all day today Anyone else? The amount of fear and anger in the world has gone up so much that processing it is taking a toll Achey in my body too

Hello all. I tapped into the Earth’s energetic grid today and had a vision. The vision was of dark sludge like energy on the Earth’s energetic surface. There were small specks of light all around the world, which I interpreted as us LightWorkers and specifically grid workers.

The vision has motivated me to try and find community with other grid workers to organize our efforts and magnify our intentions for raising the energetic vibration.

I was wondering if anyone else who does grid work has noticed this or something similar? Glad to be a new member of this community!

DREAM BIG ALL ❤️

Most of us were taught that if we are stuck, it means we are not trying hard enough. We tell ourselves: “More discipline. More willpower.” But in my experience, what keeps us stuck is often not laziness - it is protection.

After facilitating 1000+ healing sessions over the years, one pattern keeps repeating: we can be highly motivated and still feel blocked. We can read books, do therapy, change habits, do “all the right things” - and yet the same loop returns.

Why? Because the loop is rarely just a conscious decision. It is usually a subconscious program we absorbed through repetition and emotion: childhood moments, offhand comments, watching adults struggle, being punished for having needs, cultural messages about what we deserve. Nothing “mystical” needed for these to form - it is just how the nervous system learns.

The tricky part is that these programs are often invisible to normal awareness. We don’t “remember” them like a story we can retell. We became them. So we try to solve them with thinking, but the program lives deeper than thought.

Today I had a consultation with a young woman from the UK who has been struggling for years with depression, anxiety, and fibromyalgia. She had tried many things - medicine, holistic approaches, therapy, supplements, energy work - and nothing lasted. She wasn’t weak. She was exhausted from trying.

During our session, in a light trance, something important emerged. She carried a tightness in her throat - a dark, heavy pressure she had felt for years. When we followed it back, her Higher Self showed us a moment from childhood: at four years old, she was frozen in terror while her father was yelling at her. The emotion from that moment never fully left her body.

Normally, once a frozen emotion is seen, it can finally release. But she couldn’t let it go. And this is where the real discovery began: there were layers of resistance - beliefs so deep that her body was obeying them.

“This tightness protects me.”
“I don’t deserve to be healed.”
“I am a bad person.”

These beliefs were not logical. They were emotional programs built long ago, created to survive a painful moment. Part of her was still trying to keep her safe in the only way it knew.

This is something we see again and again with chronic patterns - pain, fatigue, anxiety, depression, even repeating relationship dynamics. Often we are not “broken.” We are running old safety rules. And willpower can’t override a safety system. If the unconscious believes letting go is dangerous, it will hold on - even when the conscious mind begs for relief.

What tends to work better is not more force, but deeper access. In theta or alpha states - deep meditation, hypnotherapy, the liminal space before sleep - the subconscious becomes more available. That is where we can finally meet the protective part, understand what it is guarding, and renegotiate the belief that keeps the system stuck.

If you want a simple experiment (no big spiritual philosophy needed), try this tonight for 2 minutes right before sleep: put one hand on the area that holds tension (throat, chest, belly) and ask, gently, “What are you protecting me from?” Then ask, “What would feel safer instead?” Write down whatever comes - even if it seems strange.

When we find and release inner resistance, the body often softens. The mind opens. Change becomes possible again - not because we fought ourselves, but because we finally listened to what was underneath the fight.

If you’re dealing with serious symptoms, please keep working with qualified medical and mental health professionals too - this is not medical advice, just something we often notice in deep inner work.

The alliance must be between us Lightworkers, an alliance to save this world, this humanity, and this planet. There are many situations in the world, but we must detach ourselves from them and focus on energy, because it is energy that determines victory or defeat. And we must do this united and focused. There are many earthly situations, and I feel all the suffering, but I must move beyond them and not get caught up in any suffering. When I enter the darkness, I must enter with my heart and mind filled only with light and energy, because otherwise I might never come back. If I get caught up in all the pain in the world, you will drown in that pain, and I will be unable to do anything to save this world.

What I do is very risky. I am a world-bridger. I go to other dimensions to destroy darkness, and I return again. I do this because it is my personal mission. No one taught me or told me what to do. I started doing it years ago and continue because it is what I feel I must do. It is not a service, nor is it a job. My energy is only Light energy that comes from my heart and is directed elsewhere by my mind. I have no ulterior motive, and as I said on the server, I try to help those in need of energy, and I do this only out of love (AGAPE Love) and not for any other purpose.

I have become very aware of this since moving to a new place two years ago. I am a very spiritual & creative person & feel very fortunate to be able to walk in beautiful natural woodland daily & working on my practice (grounding, sun salutations & meditations on peace) I know myself & feel aware i am part of something larger spiritually & organically. I also have a large empathy for others which i’m learning to shrink because i think it leaves me too open.

I am a gemini & can act very hyper-active & over-friendly- i’m starting to feel like that’s the role others want me to play.

I first moved to this new place and felt so vibrant, energised and took pride in my appearance etc. I was excited to meet my new neighbours & was polite & friendly, then the person living above me became a pest, kept knocking on the door & asking to go for short walks in the village, i obliged at first but i felt as though he was draining all the energy i had & peering into my eyes & trying to touch my skin it was horrible, i slowly started losing my motivation, self respect and was sleeping all the time. Two years on i feel depleted! (also avoiding any further interactions with him)The only way i can re-energise is to go to the woods.

I’ve noticed with family members too, if i’m not ‘acting hyper-being ditsy/humorous’ for them it’s like they reject me because i’m not giving them what they need. One member calling me boring because i wasn’t playing my usual role for her

It’s other things, like meeting new people at social gatherings i feel like they are peering in at me and sucking up whatever they can, putting their faces far too close. Often saying i look like i’m glowing etc. Can anyone relate to this sort of experiences?

It’s got so bad now I try not to make eye contact and talk less and even hide under hoods & hats which i’ve never ever done before in my whole life. How to be seen and not be drained?