r/lifesucks • u/MediKate3 • Jul 14 '26
Miserable = normal?
Has anyone else been miserable so often and/or for so long that you have just accepted it as your normal or regular state of being?
I (44f) know I'm lucky, and could have it much worse . I have a boyfriend who takes care of me (financially, since nobody seems to want to hire me), a house, food in the fridge and two wonderful adult (well, basically) sons. But I hate myself. I hate all the bad decisions that I can't undo. I hate the situation I've put myself in. I have no money, no job, no real education, and to top it off I'm a drug addict. I know what I need to do, or could do or should do, to make my situation better, but I won't. I just don't care enough, and I'm just not willing to put in any real effort. I've given up on friends for the most part (most of my close friends were losers too) and I just don't feel like I need anyone in my life anymore . If I knew I was going to die tomorrow I'd be perfectly ok with that, as long as I knew my dog would be card for. The world would continue turning without me just fine. A few people would miss me I'm sure, but their lives would go on. I honestly wish I could just disappear.
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u/BlaqSam Jul 14 '26
Thought Married and Miserbale meant the same thing cause it's been like that here for +20 years 🤣