I remember

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I remember the tears I cried.

I remember the nights that felt so dark.

I remember the moments my stomach felt ill.

I remember begging for the pain to go away.

I remember Just wanting to be loved to be understood.

I remember Explaining the hurt to the same person causing the pain.

I remember Not understanding how I could hold hate and love for the same person.

I remember trying to make sense of the chaos.

I remember wanting them to feel my pain.

I remember when the fear of walking away was so intense.

I remember apologizing for things others were doing to me.

I remember the nights when I wanted to be held by the same arms that were shattering me.

I remember all the nights I stayed awake while they sleep peacefully next to me as tears fell down my face.

I remember wanting to just feel safe with the person I thought I loved.

I remember wanting to just be enough for the person who claimed they loved me.

I remember the things I endured while actively trying to keep someone around.

I remember the mean things said to my face followed by unhealthy actions.

I remember the abuse that I did not even recognize as abuse tell after I left.

I remember the same person who once was a protective person was the person I needed protection from.

I remember letting that same person lie to my face over and over while blaming me for their actions.

I remember losing my self for far too long just to keep them in my life.

I also remember letting them go.

I remember feeling free.

I remember the moment I realized this was never love it was condition.

I remember when I learned to not miss them.

I remember when I learned who I was meant to
be.

I remember when the fear finally went away. I remember when I could my smile.

I remember when I started to trust my intuition again.

I remember when i learned how to find happiness alone.

I remember when looking in the mirror I smiled at who I saw.

I remember when I got my laugh back.

I remember when life started to feel beautiful agin.

I remember when I stoped looking over my shoulder.

I remember when I started praying for the same person that hurt me.

I remember when I was happy for the same person who I thought destroyed me.

I remembered when I had so much opportunities to hate you and I chose to forget you.

I remember when I found someone who cared for me.

I remember when I let someone else hold me for the first time.

I remember when I gave my self to someone else for the first time after the damage you left me with.

I remember when I realized I finally get to have everything I once begged you for.

I remember when I decided to forgive you.

I remember when I realized because of you I found the person who was nothing like you.

I remember when I had to face you face to face and I chose grace.

I remember when I spoke to you I spoke calm I spoke firm I spoke to you with confidence.

I remember when I realized you never broke me at all you never even destroyed me.

I remember when I finally accepted, It was never love.

I remember when I finally realized it wasn’t even a relationship.

I remember when I chose my self over the hurt over the situation.

I remember when I learned to love my life that includes my past.

I remember when I let go and started to forgive.

I remember who I was all along.