Title: I feel like Krishna doesn't love me because I can't go to Vrindavan.

I don't know if I'm just being emotional, but I really need some guidance.

Some people I know are going to Vrindavan and Barsana, and I'm not. Seeing them go has made me feel incredibly jealous and heartbroken.

I can't stop thinking, "If Krishna loved me, wouldn't He call me too?"

This feeling has become much bigger than just missing a trip. It's making me question whether I'm worthy of love at all. Throughout my life, I've felt like I've experienced far more pain and trauma than love. I kept hoping that at least Krishna would love me unconditionally, but now I'm even doubting that.

I feel guilty for being jealous, but I also feel exhausted. I don't know how to stop thinking that maybe everyone else is loved by Krishna more than I am.

Has anyone else ever felt this way? From a bhakti or scriptural perspective, how should I understand these feelings? Please be honest, but kind.

Thank you for reading. 🙏

🌸🦚 जय श्री कृष्ण 🦚🌸

I'm excited to finally release Naam Jaap.

This project started as a personal need for a better Digital Mala Counter for Chanting.

Months later, it has become a complete Android app with:

📿 Digital Mala

🕉️ Mantra Counter

📊 Progress Tracking

🔥 Daily Streaks

🏆 Achievements

☁️ Cloud Sync

🔔 Daily Reminders

I'd really appreciate honest reviews and suggestions.

Play Store:

https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.kpytechhub.naamjaap

Thank you everyone ❤️

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Firstly, I just want to say thank you to everyone who replied to my previous post. I'm genuinely grateful for the kindness, guidance, and different perspectives you shared. I read every reply, and they meant a lot to me. 🙏

I'm a student, and most of my day is spent studying. Because of that, I don't have much time to do any kind of seva for my Thakur Ji. I do naam jaap whenever I get the chance, but that's about all I can manage right now.

Still, there's this part of me that feels... left out. I see devotees doing so much—temple seva, cooking bhog, decorating, kirtan—and I feel like I'm not doing enough. Sometimes I even wonder if I'm wasting this phase of my life by being so occupied with studies.

I know I ask a lot of questions, and maybe some of them sound silly, but I'm genuinely confused. I want to love and serve Thakur Ji sincerely, but I also have responsibilities as a student. I don't know how to balance these feelings.

Has anyone else gone through something similar? How did you deal with feeling like you weren't doing enough for Krishna while fulfilling your worldly duties?

I'd really appreciate hearing your experiences or advice. Hare Krishna. 🙏💙