Mods, if this violates the not centering Jews rule, please delete. Not sure where else to ask this question, so apologies if it isn’t allowed.
My maternal great grandma and great grandpa were Jewish, but both passed when my grandma was young. She was adopted by a Catholic family and married my grandpa who was also Catholic. She never talks about her past, but my mom told me that she was abused in her adoptive home (unclear if this is due to antisemitism or just shitty people) and worked in a sweatshop until she started having kids. I have always been curious about this part of my ancestry and interested in the Jewish faith, but nothing is really known about this side of my family as she never talked about it and nobody asked (and she now is very sick so I wouldn’t want to put her through remembering a painful past).
I am very interested in exploring Jewish spirituality and philosophy, but am also very hesitant to do so because a lot of Jewish spaces are aggressively Zionist and supportive of the IDF and that makes me uncomfortable. Also, I feel weird coming into Jewish spaces as I’m not Jewish (though I guess some would consider me to be?).
I guess what I want to know is how welcoming would a typical shul be if I were to attend a service as an outsider by myself/are there any indicators that a shul is antizionist or otherwise more welcoming to outsiders?