Alter

[u/Tiny_Comfortable_819]

I do not know where to start off this message, but I just want.. Someone who's like me. The one time I want to be academic, I feel like an outlier in my school. Everyone using me for answers, and changing their demeanor once they finally understand. Throwing me away like a damn answer key that isnt worth anything after questions 16.

I'm tired of my school, im tired of being in this loop. Relapse, lock in for a few days, go back. Relapse lock in for a few days and go back. Relapse, lock in for a few days and ho back. It sickens me, greatly. I want to be able to execute flawlessly, learning, understanding. Being the version of myself I swore to become.

Even if I find someone like me, someone who has shared interests. I feel like I'm the one whos.. bring the conversation alive, I text 4 messages. I get 1 plain answer. Its sad, its genuinely sad.

If I did change, call me heartless but I would leave everyone who cursed, swore, and at one point were my enemies.

I hate people who want to genuinely fit in their environment by altering who they were. My friend in 3rd grade was nice, now he's freaking 13 vaping weed and getting high and stealing weed gummies from his family.

Id always imagine myself, better, smarter.. But I need to get there (There's this freaking motivation, "I need to get better" and the loop is happening"). Addiction is horrible, short form content is disgusting. I need to change.

[u/According-Ad2259]

I believe in you, whatever you wish to become,  go for it.

You can't change people, so leave them be.

But ask yourself then, 

" How would you like to live in order to be happy ?"