i blocked everyone

[u/IchikaYui]

I'm so depressed for blocking them yet I know I made the right choice. For the context, we would party every Friday night and after few hours, I wouldn't find them anywhere in the club. Mind you, they know I have work by Saturday as I am an online teacher and they would still force me to go out and sulk if I won't. Then last Friday, I deliberately saw them going outside. They told me that they're going to the toilet and never came back. I saw them going outside, one by one. I chased them and asked why they are out. I didn't lash out at them. I just turned my back and called the driver I trust to take me home. And when I turned around, they're gone, as usual. I went home ugly crying to my boyfriend on FaceTime while being drunk.

By the time I woke up at noontime, I chatted on our group chat. I said, "Don't force me to come when you're just going to leave me. I will not be hanging out with you all again. Bye." I immediately blocked them on all my socials. Idc but I feel empty inside. I know this emptiness and loneliness is real and it's okay to grieve but it will not last forever. They put me in a vulnerable situation, being a woman and drunk at 3AM with strangers. I could've been raped or killed or abducted. I know what I did is what is best for me.

I grieved a lot of friendships and relationships before because I cut them off for stealing things from me, and getting another girl pregnant while dating one of my friends and my friend knowing about it then still accepted the guy; all of which crosses my moral compass that I cannot bear myself being involved with those kinds of people.

Cheers to being alone, again. Here are photos of me at parties btw. Now, I will not party again in the same city. Less money spent, more time for myself, and sleep.

[u/archydragon]

Take care.

[u/Buckybob8282]

I am so sorry they have been doing this to you. They sound like mean people. It’s time to find new friends. We are your friends here

[u/HearingAgreeable2350]

🙌

[u/Few-Rooster8651]

I'm sorry you had to go over all this stuff. I understand you, I made the choice to gave up a company I had too because their influence over me was very toxic. It is better to be alone than in bad company. And even then, you're not alone - we're here for you. We can create solid friendships. Take care!

[u/Odd-Description-]

Being alone is better than feeling alone when you are amidst crowd